You Are My Omega - Chapter 91

“I did so many things in the past that hurt you. I regret them deeply. For the past three years, I kept wanting to come home to find you, but I was scared. I was afraid that you would still refuse to see me like before, that you would ask your sister to send me away again. I know you hate being lied to. I know you hate people assuming they know what’s best for you.”

“I’ve really been trying to change, Shijiu. And now even Yi Lu has gone public with her pursuit of you.”

Lin Xinyi’s sudden confession shocked Xu Shijiu. But it was her last sentence that made Xu Shijiu’s heart turn cold.

“You only made this public because you didn’t want to lose to Yi Lu.”

Xu Shijiu felt deeply disappointed. So that was all it was. Just jealousy. Just a selfish desire to stop Yi Lu from getting close to her.

“No, that’s not true.”

Lin Xinyi’s firm denial sparked a flicker of hope in Xu Shijiu’s heart.

Looking directly into her eyes, Lin Xinyi spoke slowly and clearly. “I wanted to give you a sense of security.”

Back then, Sister Liu and her own sister had chosen to hide their marriage for the sake of their careers and the bigger picture. Even now, after all the hardships they had faced, the public still had no idea what really happened between them.

People didn’t know that Liu Yinghou once found someone she loved. They didn’t know that the head of the Xu family once had a wife she adored completely. They didn’t know that they had a child together. They didn’t even know that their child was already in elementary school.

Nobody knew anything.

Should she be thankful for that? Lin Xinyi didn’t know.

What she did know was that both she and Xu Shijiu were public figures. Admitting the truth in front of everyone was the most direct and sincere way she could show Xu Shijiu how serious she was.

“Shijiu, I know how insecure you feel. That’s why I made that post. I wanted to prove to you that I can give you the stability and trust you need. I want you to believe in me. I hope we still have a future together.”

Lin Xinyi had never planned to express her feelings so suddenly. In the beginning, she just wanted to be close to Xu Shijiu, to slowly rebuild trust between them. She wanted to show her sincerity step by step, and only after that, she would confess her true feelings.

She never expected to say it all so soon.

“Lin Xinyi, do you even understand what you’ve done?”

Xu Shijiu wasn’t moved by her words. She held up the chart her assistant had just sent over after a quick analysis.

“In just one hour, you lost tens of thousands of followers.” Xu Shijiu frowned deeply. “What were you thinking? Do you even realize how critical this moment is for your career?”

“Did you think about the consequences your actions might bring? Are you giving up on your career in the entertainment industry? Are you planning to stop acting altogether? You’ve been in this industry long enough to know better. How could you act so recklessly without considering the outcome?”

This was an important stage in Lin Xinyi’s career. Xu Shijiu could not allow her to mess around. Lin Xinyi loved acting. She had just finished her work overseas and returned to China to develop her career. Fans were crucial to that process. This had been emphasized countless times. Why couldn’t she understand?

“But we’ve already appeared on a dating show together…” Lin Xinyi lowered her voice, the courage she had earlier now gone.

“Even if it was broadcasted, it was still just a reality show. Nobody takes that seriously. But when you post something yourself, it means you personally admitted it.”

Xu Shijiu’s feelings were very complicated.

To be honest, if she put aside all the concerns about Lin Xinyi, she didn’t actually dislike what Lin Xinyi had done. Both of them were celebrities. Going public required real courage. Lin Xinyi’s decision had surprised her, but it had also given her a deep sense of security.

“I don’t care,” Lin Xinyi said loudly.

“You love acting. Are you telling me that you don’t care even if this means fewer roles for you?” Xu Shijiu didn’t believe her. She knew how much Lin Xinyi loved her career.

Lin Xinyi had international exposure. If the public couldn’t accept this news, the consequences would be hard to predict.

Right now, all she had done was post a photo and announce that she was pursuing her. Even that small action had caused a drop in her followers. It was hard to imagine what would happen if things escalated.

“I really don’t care…” Lin Xinyi realized that everything Xu Shijiu said was out of concern for her career and her passion. She felt both touched and guilty.

Xu Shijiu was such a good person. How could she have hurt her so deeply? How could she have been so heartless back then?

“In the past three years, I’ve already built up a strong portfolio. I’ve planned everything out. I want to explore other paths next. After stabilizing things for a year or two, I’ll transition behind the scenes, just like Sister Liu. I want to direct and act in my own projects. I have a plan. This wasn’t a reckless decision. I wasn’t acting on impulse, and I definitely wasn’t triggered by Yi Lu.”

“Shijiu, you’re worried that I’m being impulsive and that I’ll regret it later, aren’t you?”

Lin Xinyi reached out to hold Xu Shijiu’s hand.

But Xu Shijiu quickly pulled her hand away, her eyes red with anger. “I am not. I’m just worried that your actions will hurt the company’s interests. I’m worried that your sudden decision will affect our stability.”

Lin Xinyi’s hand grasped nothing but air. Slowly, she let her arm fall back to her side. Xu Shijiu’s words had cut deep.

Everything she said was about the company, but that last sentence revealed how she really felt.

Impulsive.

In the end, Xu Shijiu was still afraid that Lin Xinyi would regret everything.

But Lin Xinyi didn’t realize it.

The atmosphere in the room shifted. In the next room, the production team was watching the surveillance footage, completely stunned by what they were hearing. Everyone stared at the screen with shocked expressions.

“If only this were exclusive footage,” the director thought. “We could make a fortune from this.”

Xu Manyue waited until Xu Shijiu stormed upstairs and slammed the door before, she put down her cup. She walked over to Lin Xinyi and said gently, “Don’t be discouraged. This news was too sudden. Shijiu just needs time to process it.”

“Also, your career is at a critical point. Shijiu knows how much you love acting. That’s why she’s anxious and why she scolded you.”

“She might still struggle to believe in your determination. But I hope you can hang in there. Shijiu never stays angry at you for long. Once she truly believes what you’ve said, there won’t be anything left between you two to keep you apart.”

In the end, it all came down to trust and security.

Lin Xinyi, full of doubt, asked in a soft voice, “Really?”

“Yes,” Xu Manyue nodded firmly, her eyes warm and gentle. “Didn’t you see? Just now, Shijiu’s eyes were red. If she didn’t have so many thoughts weighing on her heart, she would have been happy.”

Red eyes.

Lin Xinyi had seen them. She had seen them very clearly. But she thought it was because her so-called recklessness had angered Xu Shijiu to the point of tears.

After Lin Xinyi went back to her room, Xu Manyue finally let out a sigh of relief. She instinctively placed a hand over her chest.

“Are you alright? Is your chest hurting?” Liu Lingyan immediately noticed her movement and asked with concern.

“I’m fine,” Xu Manyue shook her head. She was not used to Liu Lingyan showing her concern so openly.

To Xu Shijiu, what Lin Xinyi did today must have changed everything she thought she knew.

What was going on with Liu Lingyan today?

Was she moved by Lin Xinyi’s sincerity and passion? Did that inspire her to act differently too?

“I’ll get your medicine. After you take it, go get some rest. It’s already quite late.”

As Liu Lingyan turned to get the medicine box, Xu Manyue quickly stepped forward and picked it up first.

“There’s no need. I can take care of it myself. This doesn’t take much effort.”

Xu Manyue didn’t want to keep stirring Liu Lingyan’s heart.

Maintaining the right distance was something they both needed. It was what they had agreed on.

With the medicine box in her hand, Xu Manyue turned to go upstairs. Liu Lingyan suddenly stepped in front of her and blocked her path.

“What are you doing?” Xu Manyue was startled by her sudden move.

“I’m worried about you,” Liu Lingyan said without hiding her feelings.

“Worried about what?” Xu Manyue looked confused.

“I don’t trust you to take your medicine properly.”

“Why wouldn’t you trust me? I’ve always taken it on my own. And look at me. I’m still standing here, aren’t I?”

“Are you really alright? Can you honestly say that?”

Liu Lingyan’s eyes were filled with concern and disbelief.

“I can manage on my own,” Xu Manyue insisted. Her voice became quieter, and sadness began to show in her eyes. “I’ll be alone in the future. If you help me like this, I’ll get used to it. That’s not something I should depend on.”

If she allowed herself to get used to Liu Lingyan’s care, she would not know how to face being alone again.

Liu Lingyan didn’t respond.

She remained standing there, watching as Xu Manyue quietly stepped around her and continued up the stairs. A deep sense of helplessness grew inside her.

“Is this really all we can ever be?”

Xu Manyue paused mid-step when she heard Liu Lingyan’s trembling voice behind her.

The words struck her like a stone dropped into the still surface of a lake, sending waves through her heart.

What did Liu Lingyan mean?

Was she saying she was ready to forgive her? Was she thinking about starting over?

But how could that be possible?

Would Liu Lingyan really be willing to stay with someone who had once caused so much pain?

The emotions in her heart slowly settled again.

“Liu Lingyan.”

“I’m here.”

“This is the only way we can be.”

There was no more room to step back, and no way to move forward either.

“Why?”

Liu Lingyan was stunned. She hadn’t expected Xu Manyue to reject her so clearly and so firmly. There was none of the lingering affection Xiao Jiu had spoken of. There was no sign that Xu Manyue still cared.

“Liu Lingyan, I am a criminal.”

She was the one who brought ruin to the Liu family. She was the one responsible for their mother’s death. She was the one who had caused Xiao Jiu so much pain.

Someone like her did not deserve Liu Lingyan’s love.

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