The Pursuit of Love After Divorcing My Cold Omega - Chapter 86

“I’m sorry.”

Yu Kunian was afraid of Song Wenzhi’s answer, yet equally afraid that she wouldn’t answer at all.

Meeting Song Wenzhi’s gaze, Yu Kunian’s breathing almost hitched. She walked closer slowly, noticing the fatigue in the Omega’s eyes, and stopped, pursing her lips.

Song Wenzhi seemed to be in a bad state; Yu Kunian suddenly felt that there was no need to get an answer right now.

But the Omega spoke and answered her: “No.”

Song Wenzhi knew that Xia Weichi had done that on purpose to make Yu Kunian misunderstand, but she didn’t want to lie to the Alpha. “Weichi and I have known each other for a long time. We played together since we were children. To me, she is like half a family member.”

Upon hearing this, Yu Kunian blurted out: “Then what am I to you?”

As soon as these words were spoken, the atmosphere was enveloped in silence. Song Wenzhi raised her eyes. Yu Kunian was clearly struck by a moment of regret for her abruptness, but having spoken the words, she couldn’t take them back.

The Alpha indeed desperately wanted to know what she was in Song Wenzhi’s heart.

But Song Wenzhi did not answer this question. Instead, she asked in return: “Yu Kunian, is there anything you want to tell me?”

Yu Kunian’s eyes darkened a few shades. “Zhizhi, today is the last day of the agreement. I wanted to ask you, can I still come to the research institute to find you after this?”

The expiration of her tenure as a driver was nothing; the main issue was whether Song Wenzhi was still willing to let her stay close. Yu Kunian knew that signing the agreement was already the maximum concession the Omega could make. Therefore, even though facts had proven that Song Wenzhi still cared about her, the Alpha could not be sure if she could break through the boundary that kept her out.

Song Wenzhi looked away and, after a long silence, said: “Yu Kunian, don’t come looking for me anymore.”

The past few days had been an unexpected deviation from the track. In reality, she should have parted ways with Yu Kunian long ago, but the Omega simply couldn’t bear to let go and had allowed Yu Kunian’s approach. Song Wenzhi was always escaping this problem; she couldn’t face the pain she had suffered in the past, nor was she ready to trust Yu Kunian again. Now, recalling the events in Lihua City, she remembered her initial decision once more.

She wanted to start a new life, and it didn’t include Yu Kunian.

No matter how wonderful the interlude of the past half-month had been, when the pain resurfaced, the beauty lingering in that interlude became shaky and would scatter at a single touch. Ending this ambiguous relationship—one that was fraught with uncertainty—was the rational choice to make.

Yu Kunian’s expression became one of shock, the color gradually draining from her face. She reached out subconsciously but stopped mid-air. “Zhizhi, why? Is it because I did something poorly? Tell me, and I will never make any mistake again.”

Song Wenzhi took half a step back, her breathing becoming erratic. She didn’t even dare to look into Yu Kunian’s eyes anymore. “When you are too close to me, I feel very afraid.”

Yu Kunian froze.

The words Song Wenzhi spoke were light, yet they left Yu Kunian instantly at a loss. She subconsciously retreated but was confused. “I won’t hurt you, Zhizhi. Why would I make you afraid?”

When the person you love is afraid of you, it’s hard not to doubt yourself. Yu Kunian looked down at herself, trying to find something about her person that would cause fear, but found nothing. The Alpha frowned slightly and repeated: “Zhizhi, I will never let you be hurt.”

Song Wenzhi shook her head. “I’m afraid I’ll repeat the same mistakes.” What Song Wenzhi feared wasn’t Yu Kunian making her bleed or causing physical injury; it was the lies, the masks. “I don’t know… if I should believe you anymore.”

Even now, Song Wenzhi still felt the need to judge whether Yu Kunian’s words were true or false. After witnessing the Alpha’s methods of coaxing and deceiving her, Song Wenzhi found herself trying to distinguish lies every time they met or spoke, just to avoid being deceived again.

If the future had to be like this at every moment, Song Wenzhi felt it would be hard to make this relationship feel normal, and she simply could not accept Yu Kunian’s closeness.

She didn’t have the strength to bear a second injury of lies from the same Alpha. Even if she could be used, she didn’t want to be used by Yu Kunian again. Song Wenzhi would rather things end here than spend every day in fear, wondering if she was just a bargaining chip or just another interest.

Song Wenzhi knew she was retreating; she was even cowardly, afraid to face the situation and afraid to move forward. But past experiences were warning her: she could not fully trust Yu Kunian.

The Omega’s thoughts were a mess. She hadn’t been able to sort them out all night; instead, her past arguments with Yu Kunian replayed in her mind repeatedly. Those calm and heartless words of the Alpha rang in her ears again, jolting her awake.

The peace and joy of the recent days were so similar to their previous marriage. She was afraid that if she didn’t pull herself together and wake up quickly, scene after scene of the past would repeat.

“Zhizhi, I—”

“Yu Kunian, do you have anything you want to confess to me?” Song Wenzhi interrupted Yu Kunian’s words, wanting to settle everything once and for all. Things couldn’t get any worse than they were now.

Yu Kunian looked at Song Wenzhi, her gaze becoming vacant and her breath trembling. The Alpha withdrew her hand and lowered her eyes, saying: “What do you want to hear?”

Song Wenzhi said: “The past and the present—everything you haven’t told me.”

Yu Kunian pursed her lips. Her cheeks stung slightly from the cold wind, and strands of hair fell messily over her shoulders. Thinking about everything she had done in Lihua City, she had originally thought those matters were behind them—after all, they were things of the past, so why mention them again?

But since Song Wenzhi asked, she spoke in a low voice after a moment of reflection: “In Lihua City, I approached you because I didn’t want an arranged marriage. I investigated you and devised a specific plan to pursue you. Everything was indeed calculated on my part. At the beginning, I indeed wickedly thought that pursuing you would be a very easy task. I was arrogant and conceited, so at the time, I didn’t think I was wrong—I’m sorry.”

Recalling the mistakes she had made, Yu Kunian was overcome with guilt. Her eyes reddened, and she apologized sincerely for her recklessness and arrogance. “Zhizhi, I was wrong. That’s not a lie. Not a day has gone by since you left that I haven’t regretted it.”

The Alpha’s voice trembled. She thought of that speech draft again, and those withered potted plants on the balcony; her heart couldn’t help but feel heavy. “I used you, and then I took it for granted when I told you I was weighing the pros and cons. I’m sorry… the things I said to you were indeed what I was thinking at the time. I had no hidden hardships. I failed you and hurt you with my words. I’m sorry.”

Yu Kunian should apologize to Song Wenzhi. She thought it was all over, but now that it was being discussed again, the Alpha realized she owed Song Wenzhi countless “I’m sorrys.” The chapter hadn’t truly been turned. Every word and sentence from their arguments was like a blade plunged deep into Song Wenzhi’s heart, unremoved for a long time. Only now did Yu Kunian begin to gradually pull those thorns out.

But Yu Kunian didn’t dare to continue.

Because Song Wenzhi was crying.

Although the Omega turned her head away and made no sound, the tears sliding down her cheeks and falling from her chin were clear to see. Yu Kunian stopped talking immediately and instinctively leaned in closer, wanting to wipe away Song Wenzhi’s tears.

But Song Wenzhi raised her hand and wiped the tear tracks herself. “What else?”

Yu Kunian paused and frowned deeply. “Zhizhi, I… I’m sorry. Back then, our philosophies were different, but I didn’t consider things from your perspective, and I didn’t understand you.”

“Regarding the company, were there things you kept from me?” Song Wenzhi’s voice was very small; she was practically suppressing her volume to ensure she could speak calmly.

Yu Kunian was stunned. After a moment of silence, she said: “Yes.”

In fact, even before they were married, Yu Kunian already had a plan to break away from Zhaoming Bio. She had long wanted to leave Lihua City and leave Yu Dai and Yang Jin; she just hadn’t found the opportunity. So when the opportunity finally came, she used Cheng Lu’s hand to pave a way for herself.

Her plan spanned a long period of time, and Jiang Qiu knew about it. Therefore, the crisis that occurred at Zhaoming Bio was within their expectations. Although it was more serious than imagined, fortunately, the company wouldn’t actually collapse because of it. So during that time, she didn’t look for any partners and remained stationary.

But she had to deceive the media, and the other bosses and enterprises in Lihua City. So she pretended to be anxious and panicked, letting everyone know that Zhaoming Bio was facing an unprecedented crisis and that Yu Kunian could not fill the gap, leading to dissatisfaction from the board of directors.

Only in this way would “President Yu” be pushed into a desperate situation, allowing her to reasonably resign from her position as CEO of Zhaoming Bio without being suspected by Yu Dai and Yang Jin.

And her original preparation was to come to New York after leaving Lihua City to start a new career with the CPP technical team.

“Why didn’t you tell me? Was it because I wasn’t reliable and would mess up your plan?” Song Wenzhi could still remember her own extreme anxiety during that period; she had been genuinely and deeply worried.

Yu Kunian said: “No, I just…” Just what, the Alpha didn’t continue.

Song Wenzhi raised her eyes. She knew. It was because Yu Kunian didn’t trust her, so this plan would never be disclosed to her no matter what. As Yu Kunian’s legal wife, people were watching her, so Song Wenzhi couldn’t afford to make a slip-up, and Yu Kunian didn’t believe she could play the part.

“Yu Kunian, it was you who personally destroyed my trust in you,” Song Wenzhi said. Her eyes were moist, and she looked at Yu Kunian with an expression of sorrow.

To Yu Kunian, interests were always greater than everything, including her.

“I apologize to you for my arrogance and heartlessness, Zhizhi. The Yu Kunian in Lihua City was a bastard. She was very stupid and only knew how to measure people with interests, but she knows she was wrong.” Yu Kunian choked up slightly, trying to take a few deep breaths to calm her emotions. “Can you… give me a chance to reform? I want to make up for all my mistakes. Even if I have to give up everything, I want to pay compensation for the wrongs I committed.”

Song Wenzhi’s breathing trembled. Just as Xia Weichi had said, Yu Kunian’s move to New York was a long-standing plan; even without her, Yu Kunian would still have come. The Omega’s heart was incredibly complicated. She didn’t know how to face the Alpha’s apology—should she forgive, or not?

Yu Kunian’s plans were heartless, and among her words, truths and lies were intertwined; Song Wenzhi could not distinguish between them.

“Yu Kunian, there’s no possibility for us anymore.”

Song Wenzhi spoke while tears fell. She didn’t know how she managed to say those words. At this moment, her heart felt as if it were being twisted by a knife, but she truly didn’t dare to accept any more deception.