The Female Lead of the Abusive Novel Can Hear My Heart's Voice - Chapter 40

Xia Mu Cai was so angry that she laughed bitterly. She didn’t rush to kill her, instead treating her like a mouse to toy with was this really fun?

“You’ve been spying on me all along.”

“No, I… I just”

Just worried you’d get into trouble.

Xia Chi didn’t finish her sentence. Xia Mu Cai angrily shook off her hand and walked away.

Li Yuan stared in surprise, expecting Xia Mu Cai to feel touched, but didn’t expect her to get so angry.

Xia Chi hurried after her, not daring to get too close. Now Xia Mu Cai was like a wild cat who had been provoked baring claws and teeth.

Anyone who got near would be scratched no one dared to be the one without tact.

No wonder Xia Chi was always the punching bag. She stubbornly liked running into Xia Mu Cai’s anger.

She tried to explain, “I’m not spying on you, I was just afraid that you”

Xia Mu Cai pushed away Xia Chi’s hand again and stopped walking.

Afraid of what? Afraid she’d run away and never be found?

Clearly a cat, but treated like a mouse to be played with.

“I know I was wrong. Xia Mu Cai, please give me one more chance?”

“You…” She hesitated.

She wouldn’t get angry on Xia Chi’s behalf anymore; she wasn’t there to protect her. Her mission was to watch Xia Chi fall.

Xia Chi’s heart felt like it shattered into two. She shouldn’t have left without a word.

Xia Mu Cai gathered the money to repay the hotel and thought she’d move out tomorrow, but now it seemed that day would never come.

At the hotel front desk, calming her anger, she spoke normally, “I want to check out.”

The front desk smiled politely, “Really? A lady named Xia extended your stay by half a month.”

“Lady Xia…” Xia Mu Cai’s expression froze slightly. She stepped back, then nodded. It made sense. They really treated her like a mouse to raise and toy with.

Xia Chi had long known where she was staying; she was being watched thoroughly.

There was no happiness, only terrifying fear.

A person who wanted to kill her at any time, who played cat-and-mouse with her before finishing her off, watching how she struggled and kept her tightly trapped.

How could she feel happy?

Xia Chi finally arrived at the hotel. Seeing Xia Mu Cai’s dark expression, she knew something was seriously wrong.

She anxiously ran up, trying to make amends, “Please hear me out.”

Xia Mu Cai’s darkened face made Xia Chi feel suffocated, as if a rope was choking her neck, drowning her in water.

She was so scared that her own foolishness would ruin everything, that Xia Mu Cai would never forgive her and she’d regret it for the rest of her life.

Xia Mu Cai leaned on the counter, dizzy, “Xia Chi, what is there left to explain? You know everything you should.”

She was unforgivable, but if someone was going to be killed, it should be Teng Jingsi the real culprit not her, the informant.

This would really make her seem like an incompetent madwoman, unable to deal with Teng Jingsi and taking it out on her.

She could lose her life, refuse to complete the mission and wait to die, but she couldn’t bear to see the real culprit go free.

“I don’t know how to say this, Xia Mu Cai.” Xia Chi’s clear eyes stared at her.

“It’s my fault for leaving without a word and making you angry.”

Huh?

Xia Mu Cai blinked, doubting she’d heard wrong. What was Xia Chi saying? Leaving without a word?

She held her head, avoiding those black-and-white eyes.

“Come with me. There are things I want to say to you.”

Those words sounded heavy, like an oppressive dark cloud, dull and thick. When someone says “things to say,” it’s never simple.

Xia Chi felt like her life was over. After Xia Mu Cai said that, she would surely abandon her. Sometimes it’s better to be deceived than to face the truth.

Worried Xia Mu Cai would find her annoying, she pretended to be calm, “Let’s talk in my room. I’m in room 801, next to yours. Sorry, I intruded into your life again.”

She secretly peeked to see if Xia Mu Cai was angry.

After such a night of anger, a little calmness felt almost peaceful.

As they say, two negatives make a positive there was no anger left.

Xia Mu Cai looked tired, not even giving Xia Chi a glance.

“Mm.”

They took the elevator quietly, entered room 801 quietly.

She inserted her keycard, and the lights illuminated the room. Paintings hung on the wall; a laptop sat on the desk, still open and used. The whole place smelled like Xia Chi.

This place was like her home.

Xia Chi closed the door and smiled, “I’ll make you some hot water.”

Xia Mu Cai shook her head, looking tired, “No need.”

“Oh… okay.” Xia Chi, like a child, awkwardly wiped her clothes, looking helpless.

She glanced at the sofa, realizing she should serve her guest, “Sit down, let’s talk sitting.”

Xia Mu Cai had no mood to sit and chat over tea.

Long silence passed with no sign of movement from Xia Mu Cai. Xia Chi grew more awkward and terrified inside.

This was the first time Xia Mu Cai spoke seriously, not joking.

“Xia Chi, you said I left without a word and that I was angry. There must be some misunderstanding.”

She wanted to say: No, no misunderstanding.

Xia Mu Cai said with the softest tone the most heartless words: “When you’re strong enough not to be controlled by anyone anymore, come back. By then, I won’t go anywhere; I’ll wait for you.”

“No… no…” Her nose tingled, and she couldn’t hold back tears. She looked pitiful, like a tiny abandoned puppy in a box.

“Don’t cry.”

She wiped her tears but couldn’t stop them. “How can I not cry if you abandon me? When you leave, there’s no one who cares about me anymore.”

Xia Mu Cai found her pathetic and smiled slightly, “I’m not your only one. If you knew the terrible things I did to you, would you still act like this?”

She recalled how Xia Mu Cai had treated her taking her out to eat, bringing her to the company, speaking up for her, fighting Teng Jingsi on her behalf.

She shook her head firmly, “You’ve never done anything wrong to me. I can feel it.”

From the first moment, she could hear her heart’s voice, always talking about the female lead, the vicious supporting role.

If it were a torture story, how could she have 5 million in capital?

Xia Mu Cai looked at her helplessly.

“That means you’re stupid.”

Her tear-filled eyes looked directly at her, retorting, “No, I’m not stupid. You haven’t hurt me once, I can feel it.”

Xia Chi took a step forward and cornered Xia Mu Cai by the sofa, “I know I made you angry by leaving suddenly. The director was dying, I wanted to see her one last time and didn’t want to disturb your sleep, so I left without telling you.”

Her sincere eyes looked straight at Xia Mu Cai, “I didn’t know you’d be this angry. Please give me one more chance. I won’t do it again.”

Xia Mu Cai’s eye twitched. She didn’t understand why Xia Chi was angry. They couldn’t both live this wasn’t about anger.

She pushed Xia Chi away and looked somewhat reluctant, “Go back and live your life as you wish. Teng Jingsi plays around with others. When the time comes, find some media to catch him cheating. Your parents value face; your marriage with him will naturally be canceled.”

“Xia Mu Cai, won’t you forgive me?”

Xia Chi’s eyes reddened, tears welling, sniffling, “There’s no going back, right? You’re all I have left; no one cares about me except you.”

Xia Mu Cai refused to look at Xia Chi, though tears welled up in her own eyes.

“No, I’m not your only one. Tang Tu and Tang Mingming also care about you.”

“It’s not the same.” Tears finally fell down Xia Chi’s cheeks as she shook her head, “You’re the first to ask if I’m hungry, the first to speak up for me. I don’t know how I’ll live if I lose you.”

Like an abandoned puppy crying inside a box.

Hearing that, Xia Mu Cai’s heart softened involuntarily. She glanced with her peripheral vision at those red eyes and tears that stabbed at her heart.

No matter how Xia Father and Mother scolded Xia Chi, she never cried or said a harsh word. But now, she was crying like a dog.

Why cling to forgiveness?

If she knew Xia Chi was indirectly responsible for the director’s death, she wouldn’t cry so much. She’d want to chop her up and feed her to dogs.

Still, her heart softened. Xia Mu Cai turned and wiped Xia Chi’s tears. The tears were burning hot, as if trying to scorch her.

Xia Chi looked up at her and choked out, “You forgive me?”

She didn’t know what Xia Chi had done wrong or why forgiveness was needed, but seeing her cling to forgiveness was pitiful. “Mm, forgiven.”

A smile flashed across Xia Chi’s face, tears still hanging on. Laughing and crying, she held Xia Mu Cai’s hand, “Will you come back with me?”

Xia Mu Cai sighed and shook her head.

“Why?”

“Didn’t I say? When you’re strong enough not to be manipulated by your parents and Teng Jingsi fears you, you’ll understand.”

“Am I too weak? I want to protect you too.”

“No.” It wasn’t about strength. She wanted Xia Chi to live well. Between the mission and Xia Chi, she chose Xia Chi.

“Then why?”

Xia Chi kept pestering, determined not to let her go without an answer.

Xia Mu Cai should have been tougher, gritting her teeth with a harsh expression, “Are you done? Take this lucky cat and go back to Jiangcheng tomorrow.”

If possible, she’d rather go with Xia Chi to Dingfeng than ignore her.

Knowing she couldn’t harm Xia Chi, she handed her the lucky cat, letting fate decide.

She pushed Xia Chi, watching her stagger a step back, suppressing the urge to help her, and walked straight out.

As the door closed, Xia Chi collapsed weakly to the ground, covering her mouth, unable to stop the loud sobs.

She didn’t understand why Xia Mu Cai sent her back to Jiangcheng. All she felt was abandonment like a puppy no one wanted.