The Female Lead of the Abusive Novel Can Hear My Heart's Voice - Chapter 39

The bathroom was lit by a white light, with a very dizzying aroma diffuser burning. Xia Mucai cupped a handful of cold water to wash her face; her long, curled eyelashes were wet with droplets, making her look like she had just cried.

She rubbed her face hard in front of the mirror, then irritably scratched her neatly combed hair, messing it up.

She couldn’t understand why, after seeing Xia Chi being forcibly kissed, she ran away. It’s not like she did anything shameful. Although following someone was indeed not right, she was just worried Xia Chi would be bullied.

Outside, she heard Sister Li’s voice and immediately stood up straight, pretending nothing had happened. But her sharp ears caught that Sister Li was talking to someone.

“Brown Bear, you’re here. Aren’t you going to see your good coworker?”

Brown Bear didn’t say anything but glanced at the person inside the bathroom, shook her head, and walked away.

“Alright then. That Xia Mucai really has been looking forward to meeting you in person for a long time. If she sees you, I guarantee she’ll blush and want to kiss and hug you every day. Brown Bear is a great beauty who wouldn’t blush?”

Li Yuan spoke with relish, as if she had already seen the shy, blushing expression Xia Mucai would show when she met Brown Bear, and maybe she wouldn’t dare kiss and hug Brown Bear so easily afterward.

Xia Mucai smiled secretly, then pointed to the bathroom, “See you later.”

Brown Bear nodded.

When Sister Li came in, Xia Mucai quickly turned around and asked, “Sister Li, was that Brown Bear just now? Was she not wearing the Brown Bear costume?”

Li Yuan crossed her arms and nodded.

After a long silence, when Xia Mucai didn’t respond to her question, she asked Brown Bear what she looked like exactly.

She began to doubt whether the person standing before her really was Xia Mucai.

She drummed her elbow intermittently. “Aren’t you curious what she looks like?”

Xia Mucai shook her head, unwilling even to fake a smile, her face clearly showing three big characters: Unhappy.

“That’s rare you’re actually troubled?”

“I’m just not curious about Brown Bear’s looks. What troubles could I have?”

“Tsk tsk.” Li Yuan put down her hands and looked at Xia Mucai like she had seen through her. “I’m not going to talk about this anymore. Wait for me, let’s have a drink together.”

Xia Mucai’s heart felt sour and bitter. She heard that drinking could ease sorrow, so she didn’t hesitate to agree.

“Okay.”

At the gathering restaurant, Li Yuan took a dozen or so canned beers directly from the counter. She and Xia Mucai sat at a small round table in the corner.

Li Yuan placed the beers on the table, “You’re not allowed to leave if you can’t finish them tonight.”

Xia Mucai glanced over, feeling some nausea in her stomach, but it wasn’t as bad as the pain in her heart.

She nodded, treating the dozen or so beers lightly, like they were just bottles of water. “Okay.”

Li Yuan said, “I thought you’d be scared off. Drink, drink. If you get drunk, your unhappiness will disappear.”

Xia Mucai corrected, “I’m not unhappy.”

“Alright, alright, no unhappiness then drink.”

Li Yuan handed her a can of beer.

The taste of alcohol was unpleasant, even somewhat disliked. But thinking about Xia Chi’s situation, the taste didn’t seem so bad.

She really needed to clear her mind. Her head was filled with thoughts like: What if Xia Chi liked Xu Qin? Xu Qin was so affectionate hugging everyone, calling everyone ‘sister’ it could soften anyone’s heart.

Xia Chi was so naive, she would easily fall into a trap and become a PUA’s ATM.

She barely escaped the kidney-harvesting and abuse scenario, yet couldn’t escape becoming a cash machine. What a miserable fate.

She pulled the tab and drank more than half in one gulp.

Her mouth was filled with the bitterness of the beer, and she felt a little tipsy.

“Xia Chi, why are you so stupid?”

Who drinks like her, gulping down a whole can at once? It’s a miracle she didn’t choke.

Li Yuan leaned against the wall, sipping her beer quietly, watching Xia Mucai who got drunk so easily.

Xia Mucai clenched the can, making a crackling sound. “What’s so good about Xu Qin? Does calling you ‘sister’ make you heart flutter?”

“Hmm.” Li Yuan propped up her chin, wanting her to say more she liked listening.

“Xu Qin is just a liar. She’ll deceive your feelings. She doesn’t truly like you.”

Li Yuan looked interested, then suddenly a black figure entered her sight: Brown Bear.

She quietly came over and made a ‘shh’ gesture.

Gradually, she understood perhaps this Brown Bear was the Xia Chi Xia Mucai mentioned.

She moved her seat and let Xia Chi sit in her place.

Xia Chi was very grateful and bowed several times politely.

She rested her chin on her hands and asked, “Who do you think is suitable for her? Xu Qin isn’t sincere who is?”

Xia Mucai’s head was dizzy and blurred, unaware that the person sitting opposite her had changed.

She rested her head on one hand, eyes unfocused, weakly saying, “Me.”

“Me?”

“At least I wouldn’t hurt her or cheat her out of money. I can’t stand seeing her bullied.”

“That’s true.” Xia Chi clearly told her, “You like her.”

Xia Mucai’s confused mind suddenly cleared, like a tangled ball of yarn finally finding its loose end.

No… that can’t be. She likes Xia Chi?

“How is that possible!” She slammed the table, looking up into those deep black eyes, blinking doubtfully.

She was really drunk she had mistaken the real Sister Li for Xia Chi.

“Haha, I think I’m drunk.” She lowered her head, unable to meet those clear black and white eyes.

Xia Chi’s gaze was gentle, even dressed all in black, she felt like a caring older sister. “Xia Mucai, I want to have a serious talk with you.”

“No…” Xia Mucai stood up, afraid, turning her back to avoid talking and interacting with Xia Chi.

“We have nothing to talk about.” She quickly glanced at Xia Chi as if she were a startled fawn, then quickly turned back.

The chair scraped loudly behind her. She thought Xia Chi was about to grab her neck; it’s dangerous to turn one’s back on someone.

Her fingers tightly gripped her clothes, shrinking her neck, hoping Xia Chi would be gentle, aiming for a quick strike, not letting her painfully struggle on the ground.

That kind of pain would be unbearable, watching her life slowly fade away.

Xia Mucai’s inner voice: Hurry up, if you miss this chance, there won’t be another.

Xia Chi heard her inner voice. Her calm surface suddenly shattered like a stone dropped into still water, stirring ripples.

She was anxious and couldn’t organize her words where to start explaining?

Should she tell her that Tang Mingming called and said the director was failing, or that she calmly lay in bed, unable to believe the old director was gone?

Ahhh, where to begin?

“I…” Xia Chi anxiously fiddled with her fingers. There was only this one chance; Xia Mucai said there wouldn’t be another.

She had so much to say but didn’t want to bore her. She wanted to highlight the important points.

Xia Mucai opened her eyes and found she wasn’t dead yet. Her heart didn’t leap with joy, but instead filled with greater fear.

One moment she was thinking about when she would die, the next moment she completely abandoned that thought.

A familiar figure suddenly appeared in her sight a face that just looking at it made her upset, wanting to claw it.

Seeing Xu Qin approaching, she frowned tightly, almost like the words unwelcome were written all over her face.

She hated Xu Qin, her mind filled with the image of Xu Qin stealing Xia Chi’s kiss.

Just thinking about it made her heart ache painfully, like losing something important.

Something important…

Right, Xia Chi belonged to her. She was the one who pulled her back from a bunch of crazies. Xia Chi’s normal life depended on her.

Xia Chi belonged to her.

Without thinking, she pinned Xia Chi against the wall, locking eyes with those black ink eyes, a little scared.

But before she could think more, she wanted to tell Xu Qin that Xia Chi was hers.

Her eyes were already closed, hesitating, wondering if this would make Xia Chi uncomfortable—after all, Xia Chi had forcibly kissed her…

Wait, why was there suddenly a hand on her waist? That hand pulled her closer.

A soft, burning kiss touched her lips, smelling sweet like cotton candy.

It wasn’t Xia Chi who got forcibly kissed it was her.

Realizing she was the one being kissed, Xia Mucai’s inner voice screamed: Ahhh, I’m not the submissive! I’m supposed to be the dominant!!!

Between gasps, Xia Chi invaded her mouth. At first, she panicked, her mind a mess, wanting to pull away but found she had no strength at all.

Gradually, she surrendered to Xia Chi, her heart inexplicably calming, following Xia Chi’s rhythm. She wasn’t always the one invaded and started learning to respond.

She opened her eyes when there was a gap and looked sideways, provocatively at Xu Qin—just like she did before.

She was telling Xu Qin: Xia Chi belonged to her.

After the kiss ended, Xia Chi helped her catch her breath. Xu Qin walked over; Xia Mucai expected her to say, “You win,” or something similar, her lips almost curling into a smile waiting for Xu Qin to admit defeat.

Unexpectedly, Xu Qin came to apologize.

“Sorry, if you’d said earlier you and Sister were like this, I wouldn’t have forcibly kissed Sister. She’s still yours.”

Xu Qin looked embarrassed after seeing Xia Mucai being kissed, wearing a fierce glare like she wanted to chop her up. The pressure was intense.

“You two continue, I won’t disturb you.”

With that, Xu Qin tactfully ran away, arriving at the worst possible moment just when Xia Mucai was being forcibly kissed. She really had no sense of timing.

There was a powerless feeling like punching cotton, because Xia Mucai hadn’t seen Xu Qin’s angry look.

“Wait a minute…”

She wanted to clear things up with Xu Qin, wondering if this was a trick. She said she didn’t care but actually cared a lot. What if Xu Qin played dirty and disgusted her? What would she do?

“Where are you going? We still have things to talk about.”

Her wrist was held by Xia Chi. What else was there to talk about? Didn’t they already know everything?

She had indirectly caused the death of the old director did she have to explain how clearly?

“Xia Chi, it was just a misunderstanding earlier. I just didn’t want you to be taken advantage of by someone like Xu Qin. She would only treat you like an ATM. I did it to make her give up.”

“That’s not what I’m talking about.”

“Then what? Isn’t it clear between us?”

“Ahem, Xia Mucai, this is your beloved Brown Bear. You two have known each other for a long time, right…” Li Yuan came back after wandering around and was surprised to see the two holding hands, telling Xia Mucai about Brown Bear.

Just imagining Xia Mucai knowing the person in front of her was Brown Bear would make her very happy. There was nothing more touching than deep affection.

But… it seemed… different from what she expected.