I Heard That I am a HeartBreaker - Chapter 6

Qiu Shuang lay in bed, pondering a question.

Are people truly so perverse? Do they only desire what they cannot have, and then despise what is within easy reach?

While Qiu Shuang was struggling with this thought, she heard a knock on the door.

Lu Chen was carrying food and knocking on the door. She had originally planned to talk to Qiu Shuang about Chen Wanjun, and then she saw Qiu Shuang’s inexplicable announcement of a relationship.

Lu Chen had been Qiu Shuang’s deskmate for three years and knew her well. Qiu Shuang was absolutely not someone so casual about love, so the most likely reason for this action was to spite Chen Wanjun.

She felt a little jealous. Some people gain all the favoritism without fighting or striving for it.

On her way to find Qiu Shuang, she first ran into Chen Jining, who told her that Qiu Shuang wasn’t doing well and hadn’t eaten. So, she went to buy some porridge and brought it over.

“Please come in.”

Qiu Shuang was huddled under the covers. When Lu Chen pushed the door open, all she saw was Qiu Shuang lying alone in the dorm room with the window open. The incoming wind was a bit chilly. The girl’s pitiful little face was tear-streaked and she was wrapped up in the quilt.

“It’s me, Shuang Shuang. I heard you hadn’t eaten, so I came to check on you. I also brought you the porridge you like.”

“I don’t want to eat…”

“Shuang Shuang, if you don’t eat, your stomach problems will flare up. Open your mouth.”

Seeing Lu Chen bringing the food to her mouth, Qiu Shuang paused, took the spoon from her, and started eating on her own.

Lu Chen looked at the red mark.

“It looks like Shuang Shuang and her girlfriend are getting along very well.”

“It’s not my lover. Wanjun bit me…”

Lu Chen felt genuinely unhappy.

On the sports field.

Chen Jining looked at the “homophobic” person in front of her.

“As Qiu Shuang’s official girlfriend, I think I should have a proper talk with you about the mark on Qiu Shuang’s neck.”

As Chen Jining spoke, Chen Wanjun was observing the other woman.

She couldn’t understand why Qiu Shuang would choose to be with her. The other woman was neither as pretty as herself nor as…

Could this cold-looking woman possess some unique appeal?

“Alright, let’s have a good talk. And, by the way… I also want to know how you managed to seduce her.”

Chen Jining almost couldn’t help but laugh at Chen Wanjun’s words.

She swore Chen Wanjun was the strangest person she had ever met; loving but not daring to love completely, yet too reluctant to retreat too far.

“I heard Qiu Shuang say you dislike lesbians (le). Isn’t it exactly what you wanted for the two of us to be together? Qiu Shuang will never like you again. Aren’t you happy?”

“Did you two sleep together?”

Chen Wanjun stared intently at the other woman, trying to spot any signs on her.

“Why do you think we slept together? As far as I know, it hasn’t even been three days since we announced our relationship. Do you think we’re that casual?”

“Oh, you barely knew each other for a few days before getting together. Wouldn’t sleeping together be just as casual for you? Besides, isn’t that what you’re dating for?”

Hearing Chen Wanjun’s words, Chen Jining’s expression turned serious. It seemed the situation was worse than she had imagined. She initially thought the other woman was just a difficult weirdo.

But she hadn’t expected the other woman to hide something deeper beneath that facade.

“Chen Wanjun, even if I weren’t Qiu Shuang’s girlfriend, I’d have to say that you are a failure as a friend and a failure as a lover. I don’t know what makes you think Qiu Shuang is a casual girl, but at least at this very moment, I’ve uncovered something you’ve been hiding.”

“You think Qiu Shuang is casual. You think Qiu Shuang only wanted to be with you to sleep with you. You think she coveted your body?”

At this, Chen Jining couldn’t help but smile.

“The most ridiculous person is you. It’s clearly you who harbors lustful thoughts toward her. You want to sleep with Qiu Shuang. You want to get close to her body. Lying to yourself will only push her further away. You don’t hate lesbians at all. You are afraid of exposing your ugly self once you shed your shell.”

“Lying to yourself is one thing, but don’t think you can fool me, little junior.”

After saying this, Chen Jining turned and left, leaving Chen Wanjun sitting alone.

She tightly clutched the corner of her clothes. Things were not how she wanted them to be; this was terrible. She should be a normal person.

But the mere thought of Qiu Shuang embracing someone else, those filthy people touching her skin… No, absolutely not.

Qiu Shuang was hers. She absolutely couldn’t be taken away by anyone else!

“Doesn’t it hurt?”

Lu Chen carefully touched the red mark. The other person clearly lacked experience and had just been gnawing and biting, no different from a dog.

The sudden touch made Qiu Shuang frown. She had always been very cautious about touching her own body.

Even an accidental scrape would feel strange when touched, making her feel odd. At first, Qiu Shuang thought there was something wrong with her nerves, but later she realized it was just because she was highly sensitive.

Since then, Qiu Shuang had been extremely concerned about the distance in her interactions with others. She never allowed anyone to touch her body.

“Do you still like Chen Wanjun?”

Lu Chen looked at Qiu Shuang. She had been waiting for an opportunity.

She didn’t want Qiu Shuang to be with her out of guilt, nor did she want to be her second choice. She was too greedy.

Lu Chen knew that if Qiu Shuang realized her feelings, even if Qiu Shuang didn’t like her, she would feel guilty. She didn’t want to make things difficult for Qiu Shuang.

Chen Jining returned to see this scene: a girl wrapped in a quilt and a gentle-faced Lu Chen.

“It seems I came back at a bad time.”

Lu Chen smiled, easily diffusing the joke.

“Our Shuang Shuang has always been quite delicate. I’m afraid I’ll have to trouble you to ‘take care’ of her in the future.”

Chen Jining raised an eyebrow and looked at Qiu Shuang.

“Of course. As her girlfriend, I will definitely take good care of her…”

The atmosphere inexplicably became tense. Qiu Shuang placed the remaining porridge on the table. Seeing this, Lu Chen excused herself, saying she had things to do, and left.

Chen Jining watched her retreating back, the light in her eyes dimming. Then she turned back to Qiu Shuang, who was still in the quilt.

“You are a very special person, Qiu Shuang.”

“Oh?”

Chen Jining smiled, swallowing the rest of her unspoken thought. She truly had an inexplicable ability to arouse people’s possessiveness and competitive drive.

The period of the contractual relationship with Chen Jining was quite pleasant, but the other woman’s outward display of great intimacy was troublesome for Qiu Shuang.

On the third day of their ‘relationship,’ Chen Jining noticed this issue: the girl’s strange avoidance and the stiffness of her body after being touched.

“High sensitivity?”

Chen Jining bet that Qiu Shuang must be easy to bully. For someone so sensitive, a little touching would probably…

Meanwhile, she was contemplating a problem. Chen Jining could feel her gaze increasingly drawn to the other woman. Honestly speaking, Qiu Shuang was a very nice person.

Pretty little treasures really attract perverts…

Chen Jining licked her canine tooth. Furthermore, she had never been a runner-up in her entire life…

Perhaps she should break up with Qiu Shuang. She couldn’t afford to fall deeper. Chen Jining was well aware that if things continued like this, she would devour the other person and transform her into someone else. It sounded thrilling, but it was highly unethical.

Chen Jining considered herself a rational person. She couldn’t accept the day her rationality would collapse, and she feared unplanned changes.

Just like how she inexplicably made that request to have the girl as her contractual girlfriend in the first place, she didn’t even know why.

Then, she foolishly took the other out on dates and behaved intimately in front of outsiders.

Chen Jining questioned her inner self. Was what she felt now truly what she claimed back then: merely to avoid annoying juniors?

Chen Jining didn’t know. She lowered her head to look at her phone, then looked back at the other person. She actually didn’t know why she was inexplicably assigned to the same dorm as her.

The empty four-person room only housed the two of them, making it feel especially spacious.

Although the answer had appeared the first day she met the other’s best friend—it was the best friend who had secretly paid money, hoping for Qiu Shuang to get a single room.

Thinking of this, Chen Jining sat on her own bed, quietly watching the sleeping Qiu Shuang. The prodigal first love, the devoted best friend… Such a Qiu Shuang didn’t seem to need someone like her, who appeared cold and robotic, did she?

Chen Jining wanted to control the emotions deep within her, but the mere thought of Qiu Shuang being with someone else made her heart ache, a painful feeling like difficulty breathing. She felt her eyes sting, and in the dead of night, she silently shed tears.

Chen Jining was truly unwilling. She didn’t want to be just a contractual girlfriend anymore. Yet, this semester was quickly coming to an end. Winter was approaching, but would spring be far behind? She thought of her original plan: she was going abroad to study.

As her contractual girlfriend, could the other person wait for her? Or what other excuse did she have to stay by her side?

“Qiu Shuang, what should I do about you…”

In the days that followed, Qiu Shuang didn’t understand why Chen Jining’s attitude became strange. The other person seemed to engage in more intimate gestures, and although she always seemed to use the annoying juniors as an excuse, Qiu Shuang still didn’t understand. She could only conclude that perhaps the senior was unusual, and this was how she showed closeness?

Qiu Shuang didn’t understand. If she couldn’t figure it out, she wouldn’t think about it anymore.

At the arcade, Qiu Shuang wore her bag, which contained a charging cable and mineral water. She watched the senior stubbornly trying to grab a doll at the claw machine.

“Senior, what are you doing?”

“Catching a doll. Couples seem to do this sort of thing.”

“…Whatever makes you happy.”

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