You Are the Star I Cannot Touch - Chapter 19

Chapter 19: Be Confident

Gu Xizhi looked at Qu Shijin’s change of clothes, and four words came to her mind: “epitome of beauty.”

She belonged to the gentle and shy type of woman, quite soft. Wearing the green dress made her whole demeanor much gentler. Her looks were not exceptionally striking, but enduring—the more you looked, the more beautiful she became, especially those bright, watery eyes, which were very captivating.

“Let’s go, come with me to dinner.”

“I… don’t want to.” She didn’t want to wear such expensive clothes to dinner, feeling she couldn’t pull it off, and with Gong Yutong, no less.

“Qu Shijin,” Gu Xizhi looked at her. “You’re graduating, you know that, right?”

“I know.”

“You have to learn to package yourself. Don’t let outsiders see your true circumstances. If there’s something you don’t want outsiders to see, then you have to hide it. Even if you wear this outfit to dinner, as long as you’re confident enough, who would know you’re poor? No one would know, or rather, no one would pay attention to you, unless someone has a deep relationship with you or is your business partner. Qu Shijin, after graduation, the first thing is confidence.”

“You’ll look for a job after graduation, whether it’s a small company or a large one. You get in based on your ability, and without ability, it’s only small companies. Annual meetings, cocktail parties, every company will host them. Are you not going? Or are you scared? Qu Shijin, it’s normal to be unfamiliar when you first arrive at a company, but if you’re timid, then you’ll be their target for bullying. You should know that old employees bully new ones, right?”

“I know.”

“Although you are weak and afraid around me, Qu Shijin, when you’re not by my side, you’re resilient, optimistic, cheerful, confident, and full of vigor. You are very strong, working so hard for your sister. Why did you change from how you used to be when you came to me? Are you afraid of me? Ask yourself, have I ever humiliated you or done anything excessive?”

“No.”

“Be yourself, no matter who you’re facing. You are you, whatever your personality is, let it show. No matter who you face, everyone is human. What are you afraid of?”

“I… understand.”

“The places I take you to and the people you meet, and some of the things I tell you before you find a job, will be very helpful for your job search. These things you can’t learn in society, and no one will tell you, but you will benefit greatly. The people and events I’m exposed to are things you might never encounter in your lifetime. If I were you, with such a good opportunity, you should use me to climb up.”

“I don’t want to use you.”

Gu Xizhi was amused. She was truly naive. “Even if our relationship ends and we never see each other again, what you’ve learned through me will be very helpful for your entire life. Qu Shijin, people must have ambition. Even if a kidney source is found for your sister, she still needs good care. Do you have the money to give your sister a better life? So you need to plan carefully for your future. I’ll help you get familiar with society, hoping you won’t go astray in the future.”

“Thank you, I will study hard.”

“Your ‘thank you’ is so insincere.”

Qu Shijin kissed her and quickly backed away.

“That’s much better. Let’s go, be confident.”

“I… I’m afraid I can’t do it.” She looked at Gong Yutong with fear.

“Take it slow, no rush.” Gu Xizhi stood up. “Let’s go. I’m taking you to eat delicious food.”

“Mhm.” Qu Shijin followed Gu Xizhi. When they arrived at the location and got out of the car, Qu Shijin looked at the gate, which was luxurious. Although it couldn’t compare to Huayu, it was genuinely luxurious.

“Relax. Let’s go in. There’s food on the fifth floor. Your cooking is pretty good. Go taste it and see if you know how to make it.”

“I can’t.”

“No one ‘can’t’; it’s only whether you want to do it or not, understood?” The two of them entered. There were naturally many people inside, and they all greeted Gu Xizhi.

Gu Xizhi returned the greeting and went straight to the fifth floor. They could smell the aroma even at the door.

The two of them entered and went directly to a private room. Gong Yutong was leaning by the window, drinking, and Tang Xiaowan was biting a chicken drumstick, lost in thought. She was eating absentmindedly.

“What’s wrong with her?” Gu Xizhi asked, seeing Tang Xiaowan looking forlorn.

“I don’t know.” Gong Yutong took a sip of wine, looking at the lights outside. Thousands of lights, yet none belonged to her.

Tang Xiaowan thought of Chi Yue’s soft lips. She really wanted to pin her down and kiss her a few more times, but she couldn’t beat her. It wouldn’t be so easy next time. Thinking of this gave her a headache. What should she do? She wore a worried expression, continuing to think of a solution. She saw Mu Yan.

Mu Yan entered and hooked her arm around Gong Yutong’s. “Little Yutong,” her voice was soft and weak, and her entire body leaned against Gong Yutong.

Tang Xiaowan looked at Mu Yan. Shameless, persistent. That wouldn’t work. The ultimate goal was to kiss her. Was it worth it? Although she hadn’t met Chi Yue many times, Chi Yue had a bad temper. If she got into a fight with Chi Yue, she might end up dead. Should she forget it and try someone else? After all, it was her first time kissing someone, right? It felt good. Everyone had their own unique qualities and should be different. She looked at Gong Yutong. “Yutong, how about you let me kiss you once? Let me see what you taste like.”

Gong Yutong “…” Another crazy one.

“What? Dream on. She’s mine.” Mu Yan looked at Tang Xiaowan. How dare she try to kiss her? Was she tired of living? “I’d rather turn her into a specimen than let you kiss her.”

“Are you the one who decides?” Tang Xiaowan looked at Mu Yan. “You’d turn her into a specimen? Can you even beat her?” She couldn’t beat her either. If she could have beaten her, she would have bullied her in school a long time ago. Maybe she would even be her wife by now. Now she was her friend, and the result was still good. As long as she was by her side, it was fine. However, Gong Yutong was not someone she had the guts to marry. She only talked big.

“I…” She couldn’t beat her either. She really didn’t know who could beat her. “But she’s not yours either. At least I’ve kissed her, and you haven’t.”

“Is that so? I just don’t want to. We’re friends, so I wouldn’t.” She stopped talking nonsense. She needed to go find a woman and try it out. She opened the door, and Chi Yue was standing right there. Talk about wishing for someone to appear!

Chi Yue didn’t waste words. She came in and immediately started fighting.

Tang Xiaowan initially didn’t want to fight, as her intentions were impure—she wanted to take advantage. But Chi Yue was genuinely attacking. Tang Xiaowan didn’t show weakness, and the two truly began to fight.

Being able to eat this meal was a luxury. Gu Xizhi pulled Qu Shijin further away. It was a good thing the private room was large.

Mu Yan was utterly confused. Why was Chi Yue fighting now? What was going on? What had happened between the two of them?

How could Tang Xiaowan be a match for Chi Yue? She was beaten quite badly. She clutched her stomach. “Chi Yue, I only kissed you! Do you have to kill me?”

Gong Yutong raised an eyebrow, feeling a little sympathy for Tang Xiaowan. She was in big trouble.

Mu Yan froze for a few seconds. “Tang Xiaowan, I’ll kill you!” How dare she kiss her!

Tang Xiaowan saw Mu Yan’s stance. This was a threat to her life. Startled, she quickly got up and pushed the nearest Gong Yutong toward her. Gong Yutong was quick to react and could definitely control Mu Yan.

The scariest thing was the sudden silence.