When I Woke Up, I Had Three Romantic Partners - Chapter 47

Si Jiamo was complicated for a moment. She didn’t know how to answer the question. In her heart, whether it was the twenty-six-year-old Chi Jinqing or the eighteen-year-old Chi Jinqing, they were both Chi Jinqing. They were simply the same person at different points in time.

But for the amnesiac Chi Jinqing, she was not the same person as her twenty-six-year-old self. She hadn’t experienced the suffering that the twenty-six-year-old Chi Jinqing had gone through.

However, she was forced to endure the hurt inflicted by the twenty-six-year-old Si Jiamo, so she was confused, she didn’t understand, and she wanted to know the difference between herself and her twenty-six-year-old self.

Si Jiamo opened her mouth, wanting to say something, but couldn’t speak.

If she had to say it, she naturally preferred the eighteen-year-old Chi Jinqing, because at that time, she must have liked her.

But she was unsure about the twenty-six-year-old Chi Jinqing.

However…

If she admitted it, would the past years, the harm she had caused the current Chi Jinqing, be offset?

No, they would only pile up.

This damage would repeatedly hurt Chi Jinqing in both time periods.

Si Jiamo fell silent, but Chi Jinqing laughed.

The corners of her eyes were slightly red, and the hot tears seemed to melt her eyes.

She didn’t know why she was crying, or why she was laughing. She only knew that her heart ached so much. That kind of sour pain pierced her heart like needles, churning her into numbness.

“Ah Jin…”

Si Jiamo’s voice was clearly very close, but in Chi Jinqing’s heart, it was so distant.

Just like this time that couldn’t be erased, this harm that couldn’t be wiped away.

“You should go back.”

Chi Jinqing wiped away her tears and turned her back to Si Jiamo, not letting the other person see her vulnerability and sadness. She shouldn’t be like this; she should be the one who could still smile proudly even if she lost everything.

“I’m sorry, I can’t regard you as two different people. After all, you experienced my youth, and she experienced my growth.”

Si Jiamo’s voice was hoarse. Facing Chi Jinqing’s unreasonable request, she tried hard to analyze her own feelings, but ultimately failed. In her heart, they were all one person.

Past and present, all she wanted was Chi Jinqing.

“The past me had many flaws and imperfections, and did many things that made us both very miserable, but it won’t happen again in the future. I will change.”

“The past me cannot be changed, but I will do my best for the future.”

Chi Jinqing shook her head. She didn’t want to focus on this matter anymore. Everyone said that love could nourish a person, and it could also wither a person, especially first love.

First love could change a person.

Her first love had changed her, but she didn’t want to drift along anymore. She had to find herself again and no longer be lost.

When Xiao He was called downstairs, she was a little confused. They had just separated, so why were they already having a fallout?

Si Jiamo stood at the door and pursed her lips: “Please take care of Ah Jin tonight. I’ll take over tomorrow.”

Xiao He: “…”

“You and Sister…”

Si Jiamo: “We have a lot of unresolved issues, and other things are also problematic, but for now, those are fine.”

She didn’t want to overly describe her relationship with Chi Jinqing to others. These were private matters.

For people with their kind of job, you either keep it bottled up and never say anything, or if you do say it, you have to be prepared for it to be exposed.

Xiao He: “…Oh.”

When she went downstairs and returned to the room, Chi Jinqing was facing away from the door, her long hair, which hadn’t been blown dry very well, hanging down quietly. When Xiao He came back, her footsteps were different from Si Jiamo’s. Although Chi Jinqing’s eyes were not good, her ears were still sharp.

“Xiao He.”

Her voice was slightly hoarse. Xiao He quickly offered a cup of warm water, holding it up to Chi Jinqing’s mouth before saying, “Sister, I’m back.”

Chi Jinqing took a large gulp: “Mm.”

“Stay by my side from now on, don’t leave.”

“I’m not used to others taking care of me. I’ll give you a bonus. You don’t have to worry about me being useless. In a few days, I’ll be able to…”

“Sister!”

Xiao He tightly grasped Chi Jinqing’s hand, her voice filled with sadness: “You have been very kind to me, Sister. Even without a bonus, I will help you. Don’t push yourself so hard. Get some rest. I’m here for everything.”

She softly said, “Now that Sister Qin Song is not here, only I am with you. If you need anything, just tell me. I will try my best to improve like Sister Qin Song.”

Chi Jinqing’s voice choked up: “Xiao He…”

Xiao He hugged Chi Jinqing tightly, resting her chin on the top of Chi Jinqing’s head. This was the first time she had seen such a vulnerable Chi Jinqing in private. Aside from what was performed in front of the camera, she had truly never seen Chi Jinqing like this.

In the past, no matter how broken Chi Jinqing was, she would never show it in front of outsiders. She was always silent, appearing very steady, as if nothing could defeat her.

Xiao He used to admire Chi Jinqing the most and wanted to become her. Chi Jinqing was her driving force. Her biggest dream was to be like Qin Song, working hard to turn Chi Jinqing into a top star in the entertainment industry.

To let her appear before everyone and let everyone see this wonderful Chi Jinqing.

But seeing the current vulnerable and helpless Chi Jinqing, who could only rely on her and still tried hard to show her own worth, proving that she wasn’t useless.

This kind of Chi Jinqing made her heart ache deeply.

“Sister Chi, don’t be afraid. I’ll be with you.”

“Besides me, there’s also Sister Qin Song. Even though she’s left, she’s still in touch with me, and she’s caring for you in places you can’t see.”

Xiao He tried her best to make Chi Jinqing feel her sincerity: “Although there’s rarely true affection in this circle, and mostly mutual benefit, you gave your sincerity to us, and we will return our sincerity to you.”

“Sister Chi, there are many beautiful things in this world. We like you because you are you, not the perfectly packaged version of you.”

The water cup in Chi Jinqing’s hand fell, dropping onto the bed, wetting the sheets and duvet cover, and also wetting her clothes, but she didn’t feel it. She hugged Xiao He’s waist, burying herself in her embrace and silently weeping.

Since waking up, aside from being forced to engage in unfamiliar professions and doing various things she disliked, the greatest harm she had suffered still came from Si Jiamo.

Other than that, there was only Su Yunhui.

Everyone else was very good to her, making her less miserable. Perhaps her past self was excellent, which was why so many people were willing to be kind to her. Even though she was willful and injured, her people were still willing to stay with her.

It didn’t matter that love was gone; she still had friendship.

She couldn’t live just for others; she also had to consider herself.

“Sister, just cry it out. Crying out all your grievances will make you feel better.”

Xiao He gently patted Chi Jinqing’s back. At this moment, she felt that Chi Jinqing was less like an older sister and more like an un-grown child.

Chi Jinqing cried enough, was tired from crying, and was also sleepy. She yawned wearily.

“Sister, the bed is wet. I’ll have someone come to change the bedding. Please sit over there first. Don’t be afraid, I’ll be here the whole time.”

“Mm.”

After venting everything she had been unable to express inside, she felt much better.

She sat obediently to the side, waiting for others to come and change the bedding. Then, Xiao He blew Chi Jinqing’s hair dry again before watching her fall asleep.

Chi Jinqing, who should have been unable to sleep while being watched, quickly fell asleep under Xiao He’s gaze this time. Perhaps it was because this body had gotten used to it, or perhaps she was too tired, or more likely, because she felt that Xiao He was safe.

Waking up the next day, Chi Jinqing found that she felt much better. Yesterday she had felt nauseous and wanted to vomit, and her head was a little dizzy, but today her mind was much clearer, and the nausea in her heart was also less.

Of course, more importantly, she felt that her control over things was much better. The sudden panic and fear of not being able to see clearly yesterday had lessened a lot.

The low mood, the self-pity, and the tendency to give up everything had also improved considerably.

She shared this description with Xiao He, who was also very happy. This proved that everything was developing for the better, and Chi Jinqing would soon return to her former spirited self.

Xiao He was very happy for Chi Jinqing.

She paced around with her phone, immediately sharing the news with Qin Song. Qin Song, who had been staying up late waiting for news, also breathed a sigh of relief. She sent a voice message to congratulate them.

Chi Jinqing was infected by their happiness, and a slight smile appeared on her face.

“Mm, it will get better.”

“Thank you. I am very lucky to have you accompanying me.”

Qin Song heard Chi Jinqing’s words through the phone and felt that her brain, which had been up all night, was much clearer, and her drowsiness had decreased.

“Actually, it’s mainly because you can see the positive side, Jinqing. Don’t push yourself too hard. Sometimes, that will only be counterproductive. You need to relax appropriately.”

Qin Song: “Even if you choose to retire one day, we will be your loyal fans, always following you.”

Chi Jinqing was incredibly moved. Was this what it felt like to be loved by people?

Was this what friendship was?

It felt so good.

When Si Jiamo woke up after a night, wanting to readjust her mentality and start pursuing Chi Jinqing again, she arrived at the door with Chi Jinqing’s favorite college breakfast, only to be quickly intercepted by Xiao He.

Xiao He was like a protective mother hen, alertly spreading her wings and firmly blocking the door, not letting Si Jiamo enter.

Si Jiamo: “…”

“I’m Si Jiamo, move aside.”

“I know.”

Xiao He stuck out her neck: “But you can’t go in.”

Si Jiamo: “Why?”

She raised the breakfast in her hand: “I’m here to deliver breakfast. You don’t need to be so defensive of me.”

Xiao He still wouldn’t move half a step, and said awkwardly, “Sister Si, I’ll be honest with you. My sister just got a little better this morning. She really can’t see you right now. Seeing you again will only make her sicker, because most of her illness is caused by you.”

“Please be merciful and stay away from her while she’s sick. Let her recover well, and then work hard.”

“As for everything else, after work is done, she has plenty of spare time to talk with you slowly.”