When I Woke Up, I Had Three Romantic Partners - Chapter 46

Xiao He was a little worried: “But, Sis, didn’t the doctor tell you to rest well? Modifying the script like this isn’t good for your recovery, is it?”

She was a little afraid that Chi Jinqing might get too deeply immersed in the role and be unable to come out of it, which would then worsen her condition.

Si Jiamo hadn’t thought that far, but based on her previous experience watching Chi Jinqing act, Chi Jinqing wasn’t the type of person who would easily empathize with a role in a play.

So, it shouldn’t be such a coincidence, right?

Chi Jinqing chuckled softly, saying, “It’s fine. Acting is different from real life; there aren’t that many similarities.”

Xiao He said, “Since you say it’s fine, Sis, then it must be.”

“Oh right, Sis, how about I sleep with you tonight so I can take care of you? We can’t hire a caregiver here, and your situation isn’t suitable for one to handle…”

Si Jiamo interrupted her, “No need. I’ll move in tonight. You temporarily move into my room.”

Xiao He looked at Chi Jinqing, then, remembering that she couldn’t see, she asked, “Sis, did you agree?”

Due to the partition earlier, she hadn’t heard their conversation and didn’t know what Chi Jinqing had decided.

Chi Jinqing didn’t offer too much explanation on the matter: “Mhm.”

Xiao He: “Okay then.”

They couldn’t rent another room right now, and she couldn’t afford it anyway.

When night fell, Chi Jinqing wanted to take a shower because she had sweated a lot on the way, but now there were only her and Si Jiamo. If she wanted to bathe, she would have to ask Si Jiamo for help.

She fell silent.

Seeing her like this, Si Jiamo probably understood what she was thinking. She actively supported her and said, “Just tell me if you want to take a shower, and I’ll help you. You don’t have to feel embarrassed; it’s not like we haven’t seen each other before.”

“I don’t want to wash anymore.”

Chi Jinqing sat still on the bed. Since she couldn’t do anything else right now, she could only stare blankly, listen to books, or listen to music.

Si Jiamo: “Just wash up. You definitely won’t be able to sleep if you don’t.”

While it was true, the thought of needing Si Jiamo’s help made Chi Jinqing completely lose the desire to take a shower.

Si Jiamo knew Chi Jinqing was bothered by her, so she thought for a moment and reassured her, “If you really don’t want me to help, then let me just help you into the bathtub, and I’ll blindfold myself. You can handle the rest yourself. How about that?”

Chi Jinqing: “…”

That worked too.

She reluctantly agreed: “Mhm.”

“Alright, come on.”

Si Jiamo supported Chi Jinqing as she slowly got out of bed and walked. Once Chi Jinqing was in the bathroom, Si Jiamo set the water and then found a silk scarf to cover her eyes.

She pulled Chi Jinqing’s hand and placed it on the silk band over her eyes: “Feel it. I’ve tied it securely.”

“You can undress now.”

Chi Jinqing pursed her lips, feeling the silk band on Si Jiamo’s face. Despite this, the thought of exposing herself in front of someone still made her feel shy.

This was an uncontrollable emotion, and it wasn’t just because the other person was Si Jiamo.

But since she had agreed, she couldn’t go back on her word.

So, she took off her clothes and, under Si Jiamo’s guidance, sat down in the bathtub.

She suppressed her shyness: “You can leave now.”

Si Jiamo swallowed hard: “Then call me when you’re done washing.”

She almost fled the bathroom in a panic. Chi Jinqing didn’t notice, but Si Jiamo herself knew that the silk scarf was very thin, and with the pulling just now, it had loosened. She was able to see.

But she didn’t say anything; she just silently accepted it.

So, everything that just happened was fully within her sight.

Chi Jinqing took a quick bath. Si Jiamo heard the water stop through the door and asked, “Are you done?”

Chi Jinqing: “Mhm.”

Chi Jinqing walked out, leaning against the wall, drying herself. Just as she was fumbling to put on her clothes, Si Jiamo walked in, saw Chi Jinqing struggling to dress, and reached out: “Let me.”

This single sentence exposed Si Jiamo’s secret, but Chi Jinqing didn’t overthink it. She handed over the clothes: “Thank you.”

Si Jiamo: “Mhm.”

The difficult time passed. Back by the bed, Chi Jinqing sat while Si Jiamo blew her hair dry.

Si Jiamo’s fingertips lightly brushed against Chi Jinqing’s hair. Her gaze was focused on Chi Jinqing’s head. After a while, she softly said, “I don’t think I’ve ever blown your hair dry.”

The time they were together was brief; they hadn’t had time to do many things together. Now, on the contrary, they were doing all the things they hadn’t done before, which was quite novel.

Chi Jinqing lowered her eyes: “…There was no need.”

Si Jiamo didn’t stop her hands: “A-Jin, sometimes people make many wrong decisions, and these decisions lead to many wrong outcomes. But do we really have to let this pain continue to exist in our lives?”

Chi Jinqing didn’t fall for that: “If you’re here to talk nonsense, you can leave.”

Since she had decided to separate, she wouldn’t go back to this kind of relationship. She wasn’t the one who made the mistake, so why should she pay for it?

Si Jiamo: “…”

She said the wrong thing again.

That wasn’t what she meant.

“I didn’t mean that…”

Chi Jinqing: “I don’t care what you mean, Si Jiamo. If you’re unwilling, you can leave. There’s no need to repeatedly try to impose your thoughts on me.”

“And don’t think that just because I’m sick now and need someone to take care of me, by choosing to take care of me, you can do whatever you want and inject your ideology. I’m just sick, I’m not useless.”

Si Jiamo stopped what she was doing, turned off the hairdryer, and pressed her hand to her forehead: “I didn’t intend to control you, nor did I intend to take advantage of this to change you into something else. I just wanted our relationship to be a little closer, even as friends.”

“I’m sorry, we can’t be friends. We only have a transactional relationship.”

Chi Jinqing gripped the blanket, her expression calm: “When the transaction ends, our current relationship will also end.”

“I know you don’t like Su Yunhui and Zhuge Wei. I’m not someone who understands nothing. I know who is good to me and who is harmful to me. You don’t need to worry too much.”

Si Jiamo: “…”

“Then what exactly can I do to make you believe that I sincerely want to be with you and not because of anything else?”

Chi Jinqing’s attitude was resolute: “You don’t need to demonstrate anything, because I won’t believe anything you do.”

“If you have nothing else, then switch Xiao He back. If you mind my body being seen by others, Xiao He can also blindfold herself just like you did. It makes no difference anyway.”

Si Jiamo gritted her teeth, threw down the hairdryer, and burst out, unable to bear it any longer: “Chi Jinqing!”

“What do you think I am? Can anyone just replace me?”

“I like you. I want to start over with you. I know I did many things to hurt you in the past, and I know that there were unbearable mistakes in our relationship. You can punish me, you can curse me or hit me, but you cannot insert a third person into our relationship.”

Chi Jinqing retorted, “Isn’t that what you’ve been doing all along?”

Her expression gradually became agitated: “You say I’m inserting a third party into our relationship, but have there been few third parties between us? Count them yourself! Since we signed the contract and got back together, how many people have been inserted between us?”

“None of them were brought in by me. It was you, you yourself, Si Jiamo! You’re the one who made this matter complicated and disgusting from the very beginning!”

She took a deep breath. As she said these words, her heart was still filled with anger, sadness, and disgust.

Chi Jinqing never imagined that one day she would say such things to Si Jiamo through gritted teeth, nor did she imagine that they would reach this point.

In her mind, she still saw Si Jiamo’s pained, repressed, and slightly bewildered expression from when they first broke up at the age of eighteen, not knowing what had happened. Si Jiamo was indeed deeply hurt by her back then.

So she had thought of many ways to explain, and even felt panic, because she had genuinely developed feelings.

But many things happened later, and she couldn’t remember them clearly.

“You’re treating me as the twenty-six-year-old Chi Jinqing because you understand her, but here…”

Chi Jinqing pointed to her head: “This is the eighteen-year-old Chi Jinqing. She doesn’t know what happened or why things turned out this way.”

“If I were just suffering from amnesia and not transmigrating, it would definitely be because of you—because only you would make me willing to forget everything and return to the age of eighteen, to the year we just broke up.”

“Si Jiamo, even now you haven’t figured out where the problem lies. You only think about making me forget everything that happened over these years, and then abandon all the problems, sadness, and pain, and start over with you.”

Chi Jinqing said with profound distress: “But I’m a person. I’m not a game that can be cleared and restarted.”

“Until all the problems are sorted out, I will absolutely not start over with you.”

She pushed Si Jiamo, urging her away: “Get out. I don’t want to see you for now.”

Si Jiamo’s body stiffened, and she opened her mouth: “…”

So, that’s what A-Jin thought?

She never considered herself to be the twenty-six-year-old version of herself?

So, her self-proclaimed understanding of A-Jin was also a misunderstanding, because the person she understood was only the Chi Jinqing she had been with for several years, not the eighteen-year-old Chi Jinqing.

Was this what Qin Song meant when she said Si Jiamo might not fully understand Chi Jinqing?

Si Jiamo suddenly felt a sense of dejection. She didn’t know what expression to show Chi Jinqing anymore. Now, her once-proud belief that she could control everything turned out to be nothing more than a joke.

She actually didn’t understand anything.

Her lips trembled slightly: “I’m sorry…”

“I’m sorry, A-Jin. I took advantage of knowing everything and never carefully considered the difference between you and the past. I failed you.”

“I’ll go back and think carefully. Please don’t be angry, okay?”

Chi Jinqing lowered her gaze, her expression showing little change. She pondered for a long time, and just as Si Jiamo reached the door, she asked softly, “Si Jiamo, who do you like more, me or her?”

Si Jiamo’s hand on the doorknob paused. The air instantly became heavy.