Transmigrated as the Disabled Alpha Wife of the Black Moonlight and She Said She Loves Me - Chapter 49.2

She loved seeing Nianning smile, loved watching her genuinely happy and carefree. Whenever Nianning was happy, she felt happy too. Huo Jianan’s lips curved slightly, and a long-suppressed smile finally returned to her worried eyes. Hidden deep within her heart was a secret so shameful she couldn’t even admit it to herself—she hoped Ruan Nianning would one day joyfully become her true lover and wife.

Ruan Nianning suddenly screamed in her sleep, tears streaming down her face. “I deserve to die, I deserve to die…”

Huo Jianan jolted awake, her heart clenching painfully. She gripped Ruan Nianning’s pale hand, murmuring soothingly, “Nianning, Nianning, it was just a dream. None of it happened, none of it happened.”

Whether Ruan Nianning heard her or simply exhausted herself, she drifted back into a restless slumber.

Early the next morning, Huo Jianan’s body shuddered violently as she awoke.

The newly bought quilt on the bed had been thrown aside, leaving the mattress empty.

Huo Jianan jolted awake, reaching out to feel the bed’s temperature. The sheets were cold—Ruan Nianning must have left some time ago.

Damn it! She actually fell asleep! How could she have slept?!

She sat up abruptly, and a light beige down jacket slid off her body—Ruan Nianning’s jacket.

Huo Jianan picked up the jacket, paused for a moment, then suddenly shouted, “Xiaoman! Xiaoman!”

Xiaoman rushed out from the neighboring room. “Young Miss, what’s wrong?”

“Nianning’s gone!” Huo Jianan’s voice cracked. “We have to find her quickly!”

Nianning was emotionally fragile right now, consumed by guilt and shame. What if she did something rash?

The thought made Huo Jianan want to beat herself to death! Why did she have to fall asleep?!

It was 5 a.m. in winter, and the sky was still dark. Outside the old house, two paths diverged: a narrow mountain trail and a stone-paved path along the river.

Aware of her leg disability and limited mobility, Huo Jianan instructed, “Xiaoman, take the mountain path. I’ll take the river path and search along the bank.”

Xiaoman hesitated, concerned. “Young Miss, how can you manage alone? It’s dark, and what if you slip and fall?”

“Don’t worry about that now! Finding Nianning is the priority!”

“Please be careful, Young Miss. Call me if anything happens.”

“Go quickly. Don’t worry about me.”

The two split up. Xiaoman quickly headed up the mountain, while Huo Jianan glanced both ways along the stone path by the river. To the east lay the village, and to the west was the direction leading out of it.

Huo Jianan turned her wheelchair westward.

The wheels clattered rapidly over the stone path, the metallic rhythm mingling with distant bird calls to pierce the serene dawn air.

Beyond Xiyan Village stretched a vast bamboo forest. The morning air was bitterly cold, its icy bite seeping through even Huo Jianan’s down jacket—how much worse must it be for Ruan Nianning, who wasn’t wearing one?

She propelled her wheelchair anxiously along the stone path, her gaze sweeping the surroundings as she desperately searched for Ruan Nianning.

After what felt like an eternity, she finally spotted a figure ahead on the path, standing motionless by the river, lost in thought. As the sky lightened, Huo Jianan recognized the slender, tall figure in the dark gray sweater, exuding an air of detached apathy—Ruan Nianning.

“Nian…” Huo Jianan’s heart surged with joy, but she held back from shouting, afraid of startling her. She slowly maneuvered her wheelchair closer.

The wheels clattered like a series of bright, ringing bells.

Ruan Nianning suddenly snapped back to reality and turned around, seeing Huo Jianan. “What are you doing here?”

“Nianning, it’s cold this morning,” Huo Jianan said, taking off her down jacket. “Put this on and let’s go back.”

Ruan Nianning pressed her pale, bloodless lips together, remaining silent as she turned back to stare at the river surface.

Huo Jianan moved closer, forcing a natural smile. “Please put on the jacket. You’ll catch a cold and need another injection.”

Her voice was gentle, full of tender care.

Ruan Nianning froze, then turned to look at the pale down jacket in Huo Jianan’s hands, at her coaxing, warm smile. She gritted her teeth, tears welling up again. “Stop following me! I told you not to bother with me! Just let me die!”

Huo Jianan acted as if she hadn’t heard, shaking out the jacket. “Nianning, let’s go back, okay? Tell me what’s wrong. There’s nothing we can’t solve together.”

“This is something you can’t solve!” Ruan Nianning burst out, her voice trembling. “I killed that Huo Jianan! Do you know what kind of person I am? I’m a venomous, ruthless woman. I don’t deserve your kindness.”

“It’s precisely because I know who you truly are that I can’t bear to watch you torment yourself like this. You’re kind-hearted, loyal to your friends, hardworking, persevering, and have your own aspirations…”

“Stop! That’s not me! I’m someone who will stop at nothing to achieve my goals! Do you know why I wanted to become a star? It was to shine brightly and attract Huo Jianan’s attention. She did notice me, so I took the initiative, made her fall in love with me, made her obsessed with me, and then smoothly married into the Huo family. Then I used her, exploited her feelings for me, and used her to retaliate against the Huo family!”

Ruan Nianning laughed mockingly. “Listen to that. That’s the real me—vile, shameless, despicable, and depraved. I’m a venomous and treacherous woman!”

“No, you’re not. Don’t deny yourself like that.”

“Huo Jianan, you’re the one who’s deluded! Look at me clearly—I am this kind of person!”

“Nianning, please stop. I know you feel you’ve committed unforgivable sins, but now that I’m here, everything has changed. None of what happened in the book has occurred. You haven’t harmed your grandmother, have you? You haven’t brought down the Huo family, have you?”

Ruan Nianning slowly hunched over, covering her face with her hands as she broke down, her entire body trembling. She wept, talking to herself, “You’re not her anymore. She’s gone. Who can I atone to now? What should I do? I can’t forgive myself. She was my enemy’s daughter, but I never wanted her to die. I truly never wanted her to die. I knew my enemies were only Huo Zhujun and Xu Weiyi! I thought it through—I would divorce her after taking revenge and give her enough money to settle her life.”

“I know, I know,” Huo Jianan said, stepping forward and draping a down jacket over Ruan Nianning. “Nianning, let’s go back. We can talk about this later, okay?”

Ruan Nianning suddenly wailed, “No! No! Don’t you understand? I’m a damned, wicked woman!”

She violently shoved the jacket off her, struggling against the fabric covering her. “Go away! Don’t bother with me!”

“Nianning, please come back with me! I’m begging you!”

“No! I won’t go back!”

In the chaos, Ruan Nianning yanked hard on the jacket. Huo Jianan, holding the other half, was pulled sideways. Normally, her wheelchair would automatically follow the movement, but now, on the cobblestone path, the wheels were caught in the gaps between the stones.

Huo Jianan’s body lurched, tipping her wheelchair. With a cry, she plunged straight into the river. Ruan Nianning, caught by surprise as she was dragged down by the weight of her down jacket, had no time to react and fell into the icy water alongside her.

The winter river water was bone-chilling, stabbing into their bodies like knives. Ruan Nianning couldn’t swim and immediately began gulping water. Huo Jianan knew how to swim, but her paralyzed legs rendered her powerless, leaving her to rely solely on her arms.

Ruan Nianning flailed and sank, her pale face disappearing beneath the surface. A stream of bubbles escaped her nose as her long hair drifted listlessly in the water like seaweed. Panic surged through Huo Jianan, an unprecedented terror gripping her heart.

“Nianning! You can’t die! Nianning!” Huo Jianan stroked the water with one arm, desperately lifting Ruan Nianning toward the surface with the other.

Ruan Nianning finally gasped for air, but the river water quickly flooded her nose and mouth, choking her. “Cough… Jianan, stop trying to save me. Just get yourself out.”

“No! I will save you!”

“I’m a sinner. This is heaven’s punishment. Ugh… Just swim up quickly.”

“No, I will save you!”

“What punishment? Have you really killed anyone? Nianning, trust me, I’ll definitely save you.”

“Let go… Let go… I deserve to die, but you can’t. You have to get out of here.”

Huo Jianan, drawing on an unknown source of strength, clutched Ruan Nianning with one arm while swimming desperately with the other. With her legs paralyzed and carrying another person, she could only rely on one arm to propel them forward, each stroke an excruciating effort. But Huo Jianan cared for nothing else; there was only one thought in her mind: she had to save Ruan Nianning!

Fortunately, the river wasn’t too wide. Huo Jianan nearly sank several times, but she stubbornly, painfully dragged Ruan Nianning to the riverbank. However, the bank was steep. If her legs weren’t paralyzed, she could have easily climbed out with a strong kick.

Facing the nearly vertical, over-a-meter-high bank, Huo Jianan found herself trapped again. She had exhausted her strength; she simply couldn’t lift the person in her arms up and over.

“Nianning, Nianning…” Ruan Nianning had swallowed too much icy river water. Soaked to the bone, her disheveled hair clung to her face, her complexion a pallid, water-logged pallor. Huo Jianan called to her several times, but Ruan Nianning didn’t respond.

The early morning wind chilled Huo Jianan’s soaked body like falling into an ice cellar. Ignoring the bone-deep cold, she frantically searched her pockets for her phone. Her clothes, heavy and clinging to her like lead, revealed the phone was missing—she must have dropped it into the river at some point.

Deep in the bamboo grove, by the riverbank, Huo Jianan and Ruan Nianning were trapped, with no one else around.

The shore was right in front of them, yet for someone with paralyzed legs, it might as well have been a world away.

Huo Jianan supported Ruan Nianning with one arm while grasping at the shore’s weeds, rocks, and mud with the other, clinging to anything she could reach. But with her lower body useless, a single arm couldn’t bear the weight of both of them.

She gritted her teeth and tried again and again, slipping back each time.

“Jianan, forget about me. Just get yourself out of here,” Ruan Nianning murmured, her consciousness flickering.

“What are you saying? You’re my wife. How could I ever abandon you?” Huo Jianan’s lips curved into a determined smile, but her eyes reddened, a mist of tears blurring her vision as hot tears welled and swam in her eyes.

She hated her powerlessness, resenting her paralyzed legs more than ever.

“Darling, don’t worry. I’ll definitely save you!”

Huo Jianan mustered all her strength and tried again, but they slipped down the muddy slope once more. Her snow-white, delicate arm was scraped raw, bleeding profusely and covered in cuts.

As Huo Jianan gradually lost her strength, silent tears welled up in her eyes and dripped onto Ruan Nianning’s pale, cold face, leaving trails of warmth.

“Let go of me. You can make it on your own. Just hold on. Someone will come.”

“No! We’re both so light. I can hold on. Someone will save us!”

“Let go of me. You can’t last long with just one arm…” Ruan Nianning tried to pry open the arm Huo Jianan had wrapped around her waist.

“Don’t, don’t do this! I can hold on!” Huo Jianan, her eyes bloodshot, clung to a clump of weeds on the bank, struggling desperately. “I can hold on, Ruan Nianning! You can’t give up!”

“It’s not worth it… I’m not worth being saved.”

“You’re worth it! I say you’re worth it, and that’s final! No one else can say you’re not, not even you yourself!”

Huo Jianan shouted hoarsely, tears streaming down her face and splattering onto Ruan Nianning’s cheeks. “Ruan Nianning, I like you! I love you! It took me two lifetimes to finally fall for someone—how could you even think of giving up on me?!”

As she struggled upward again, Huo Jianan glanced at the watch on her left wrist. Suddenly remembering something, she opened the hidden compartment on the watch face and pressed the small red button.

“Nianning, we’re saved! Help will be here soon.”

Ruan Nianning felt like a stranded fish gasping for air, her body weakly convulsing. She could feel Huo Jianan bracing her against the rocky shore with her hips and chest. Finally, they stopped sliding, gaining a moment to catch their breath.

A faint warmth spread across her chest—Huo Jianan’s thin but stubborn body heat.

Her damp hair clung to her face, long lashes glistening with tears or river water, and her pale skin was smeared with mud and water plants, a picture of hardship and dishevelment.

Seeing her open her eyes, those anxious eyes lit up with relief. “Nianning!”

Ruan Nianning shifted her gaze and saw her hands clutching the weeds on the steep bank, both her hands and arms covered in cuts, blood trickling down her pale skin in rivulets.

With her hands and waist, she had carved out a narrow foothold, anchoring herself firmly against the slippery slope.

“How could you be so foolish? I’m a wicked woman, yet you still saved me?”

“You’re not wicked, and I’m not foolish. You’re my wife, and I would never abandon you!”

“I’m not a good wife! I wanted to harm you!”

“But you never did, did you? You told me to follow my own path because you didn’t want to hurt me. Nianning, everything has changed. The ending from the original book won’t come true anymore. In that version, the original Nianning committed suicide, atoning for her sins against Huo Jianan with her death. But you’re a different Nianning now, and I’m a different Jianan. You haven’t harmed the Huo Family, Grandmother Huo, or me. There’s still time to change everything.”

Ruan Nianning froze, staring blankly for a long moment. Suddenly, she burst into tears, her pale lips trembling uncontrollably as crystalline tears welled in the corners of her eyes.

“Is it really true? Do we really have a chance?”

“It’s true. Everything is just beginning. The new story will be written by us.”

Huo Jianan lowered her head, summoning an unexpected courage as she kissed Ruan Nianning’s cold lips, warming them with her own warmth. “Nianning, in this life, we’re different. You won’t seek revenge against the Huo Family anymore. Everything has changed. We’ll be deeply in love. I love you, so please, for my sake, live properly again, okay?”

Ruan Nianning’s sobs intensified. “I feel utterly worthless. I don’t deserve your love.”

“You’re not as bad as you think. Yes, your current state is a bit rough, but that’s exactly why I love you. If you were perfect, I might not love you as much.”

Ruan Nianning whimpered, her arms slipping around Huo Jianan’s waist as she clung tightly, tears streaming down her face. “You’re insane! How can you still like me when I’m such a mess?”

“Just think of me as a pervert. I don’t care. I love you, and I won’t allow anything to happen to you!”

Ruan Nianning froze, her heart aching and swelling. “Can we really start over?”

“We already have. Nianning, let’s start over from the moment we fell in love, okay?”

She kissed Ruan Nianning again, this time deeply. Pressing her lips against Ruan Nianning’s, she kissed with unrestrained, domineering passion.

The fragrance of night-blooming lilies, the freshness of grass, the earthiness of soil, and the saltiness of tears mingled in the kiss.

Ruan Nianning tightened her arms, holding Huo Jianan close. The sun hadn’t risen yet, but she could already smell the sunlight—clean, clear, and warmly embracing everything.

It was as if a ray of sunlight had pierced her heart, warm and gentle.

A bitter ache filled Ruan Nianning’s heart as tears slowly rolled down her cheeks. “Jianan, do you know? I love you!”

When Xiaoman hurried to the scene, she found the Young Miss and the Young Madam kissing passionately while submerged in the river. Unsure if this constituted an emergency, she scratched her head, debating whether to interrupt them and pull them out of the water.

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