The Security Guard Who Won the Heart of the Unattainable Actress - Chapter 30.1

Chapter 30.1

They were pretty astonishing words, but when they came from Ran Mingyue’s mouth, Li Guang didn’t need to think. She couldn’t even process that Ran Mingyue had said something as explosive as asking for a kiss.

She… she just thought.

Wow!

She seemed to get it! She seemed to understand!

Ran Mingyue explained it so well.

But the next second, it hit her.

Hadn’t Ran Mingyue asked her if she wanted to kiss?

Ran Mingyue just watched as the person in front of her went through four or five different expressions in a matter of seconds. Finally, her ears started to turn red, and her lips moved slightly, as if she had something she wanted to say but didn’t dare.

After a long pause, Li Guang bit the bullet and looked at Ran Mingyue.

Ran Mingyue said, “What were you thinking when I said that?”

“I…” Li Guang became awkward. The soft sofa cushion felt like a fire grilling her backside, and she couldn’t answer.

It was a very easy question, but Ran Mingyue knew she was deliberately making it difficult for Li Guang.

She lowered her head. “Let me give you a hypothetical.”

“We’re a couple, and I ask you if you want to kiss. Would you say yes?”

“Yes!” With the role-play, Li Guang was immediately okay again. It was hard for her to make sense of emotional topics; her mind would go blank, especially when it came to Ran Mingyue.

“If we’re already together, isn’t it normal to kiss and hug?” Li Guang said naturally. She had never been in a relationship, so it was easy to talk theoretically.

“Okay. So you mean—if you were in a relationship, you would love to kiss and hug your partner, right?” Ran Mingyue asked.

“Oh, right, of course.” Li Guang nodded, but seeing Ran Mingyue’s gaze, she didn’t know how to respond. “I… I’m guessing that’s what I would be like.”

Ran Mingyue looked at Li Guang, hesitating in her heart, wondering if she should ask Li Guang about what she had heard earlier.

In her relationship with Li Guang, Li Guang was clean and pure; she didn’t understand anything.

So what was wrong with Li Guang saying she treated all the guests the same?

Nothing was wrong; there was nothing at all. The mistake was her own deluded thoughts, thoughts she couldn’t say out loud but that she couldn’t help but feel hurt by.

She should have kept those thoughts to herself.

Ran Mingyue composed her feelings of guilt and completed the explanation: “So, the intimacy between couples is based on both people agreeing. Even if one person says no, it doesn’t necessarily mean a complete rejection. You’ve probably heard the phrase ‘playing hard to get.'”

Li Guang nodded obediently, as if in class, her hands placed on her thighs. “I understand everything, Teacher Ran.”

No.

Ran Mingyue thought, Li Guang doesn’t understand.

Her focus wasn’t on the fact that she had said she wanted to kiss her.

Li Guang said, “Sister Mingyue, is there something you want to tell me, or… or did you misunderstand something?”

Li Guang spoke cautiously, wondering if she had done something to make Ran Mingyue unhappy.

When she was anxious, she would mess with her hair. She wasn’t wearing a hat, so her curly hair was as frizzy as she was.

“…” Ran Mingyue shook her head and said, “It’s not your problem.”

What did Li Guang do wrong? Li Guang simply didn’t like her back.

You can’t force love. You’ll just scare the person away.

Ran Mingyue was really scared. She wasn’t good at this kind of thing and couldn’t be direct. Ran Mingyue looked at Li Guang’s caution, but wasn’t she the same way? She didn’t know how to take the next step.

Li Guang was confused and uneasy. She couldn’t find the answers she wanted in Ran Mingyue’s eyes, nor did she know what Ran Mingyue was thinking.

Li Guang only knew that she was the one causing Ran Mingyue distress.

Ran Mingyue took a step back and abruptly changed the subject. “Do you want some water?”

“No, I don’t. Sister Mingyue, what’s wrong?” Li Guang shook her head. She couldn’t hide her thoughts; her confusion and unease were all over her face, especially in front of Ran Mingyue.

A moment ago, she felt like Ran Mingyue was a sharp thorn, but now the thorn suddenly retracted. Ran Mingyue’s step back seemed to be a rejection. Li Guang panicked and called out to her.

She instinctively reached out, and when she touched Ran Mingyue’s fingertips, she recoiled as if she had been shocked. Li Guang felt awkward and silly and didn’t know how to explain herself.

“Li Guang, you really don’t want to be involved with me, do you?” Ran Mingyue sighed. “Am I really that undesirable?”

“No! No. How could you think that…” Li Guang shook her head frantically, immediately denying it and repeating, “How is that possible?”

“Then do you believe me?” Ran Mingyue didn’t back down. This time, she took the initiative and took Li Guang’s wrist.

She crouched in front of Li Guang, looking up at her.

“Yes!” Li Guang nodded, answering seriously. Ran Mingyue’s palm was so warm.

Ran Mingyue asked again, “Is that for every guest?”

Li Guang nodded blankly.

Every single one.

Ran Mingyue didn’t like Li Guang equally distributing her affection to everyone, which made her feel like she wasn’t special at all.

“If everyone is the same, then we don’t need to continue this topic,” Ran Mingyue said, looking at Li Guang, her hand still holding on.

Li Guang said, “Sister Mingyue, then… what should I give you?”

Something special that was only for her.

But Li Guang said she treated everyone the same.

Ran Mingyue didn’t answer, and an awkward silence filled the air.

Even the place where their hands were held seemed to grow cold. Li Guang also sat on the sofa, her lips pursed, knowing she should leave now.

Ran Mingyue was angry.

When she felt that Ran Mingyue was unhappy, Li Guang also became unhappy.

She was angry with herself for always failing to express herself properly in front of Ran Mingyue. Everything she said seemed to be wrong, but she didn’t mean it that way.

She stood up and said, “Sister Mingyue, I’ll go now.”

Li Guang was like a child who had made a mistake, but she didn’t know what she had done wrong. She knew Ran Mingyue was unhappy, so every word she said was filled with shame, and her face showed it too.

Her steps were very light, one by one, walking the shortest distance in a straight line.

Li Guang left. Ran Mingyue was still standing by the sofa.

All she did was talk about Wen Yingzhi and Hua Yuzhi, but it brought out the resentment in her heart. But what was there to resent Li Guang for? She was completely unaware of her feelings. It wasn’t her fault.

It was her own problem.

Looking back, her outburst was a little inexplicable, and she hadn’t even explained it to Li Guang.

Li Guang must be angry too.

Ran Mingyue held her head, feeling a headache coming on. A headache from her own complicated emotions.

The crew said they should rest, but Ran Mingyue didn’t feel like resting at all.

She was so happy to see Li Guang, and now she had chased her away! She looked at the suitcase on her bedside table… it was Li Guang’s suitcase.

She had forgotten about it and hadn’t let Li Guang take it.

When Li Guang left, she closed the door for Ran Mingyue. After closing it, she didn’t leave. She lingered outside and suddenly remembered that Wang Rou had asked her to check on Ran Mingyue to see if she was okay. She had forgotten!

Should she go back?

Go back? But Li Guang didn’t want to. She had left because she felt Ran Mingyue didn’t want to talk to her anymore.

She waited outside Ran Mingyue’s door, looking at the spot on her wrist where Ran Mingyue had held her. She gently poked it with her other hand, and after a moment of hesitation, she made up her mind.

The room was knocked on again, and this time, the door opened quickly.

Ran Mingyue opened the door so fast that Li Guang thought she was waiting by the door just like she was. She curved her eyes, making them look like a crescent moon, and showed a somewhat fawning smile, her voice sweet as she called out.

“Sister Mingyue~”

Ran Mingyue couldn’t keep a cold face with a smile like Li Guang’s. “What is it?”

She slightly turned her body, honestly creating an opening for her to enter. Even if she was still a little moody, when she saw that smile, she felt her heart flutter, like a clock ticking erratically.

Li Guang said, “I just remembered there was something I didn’t do. I didn’t get my suitcase.”

“Come in,” Ran Mingyue said concisely.

“Thank you, Sister Mingyue. Sister Mingyue is so nice.” Li Guang praised her almost effortlessly. “I knew Sister Mingyue wouldn’t hold a grudge against me!”

She looked joyful, and her eyes were bright. Ran Mingyue recalled Wen Yingzhi saying Li Guang was like a cat, a curly-haired cat. But she found that sometimes Li Guang was also like a fawn—they were both animals that made people’s hearts soften just by looking at them, like little babies you’d want to protect.

After Li Guang came in, she went to her suitcase. When she turned around, she saw Ran Mingyue following right behind her.

Ran Mingyue said, “You…”

“What’s wrong?”

“The instant noodles in your suitcase, can Hua Yuzhi have them?” Ran Mingyue asked.

“Yes, oh wait, no!” Li Guang changed her mind, looking protective. “I’m not giving them to her.”

Ran Mingyue said, “Why not? You gave her some last time.”

Li Guang stammered, “Because you said I can’t be the same to everyone.”

Ran Mingyue’s eyes paused, and a wave of sweetness rushed through her heart, which had just been moody.

Just this little bit was enough to comfort her.

But the next second, all the desires in her heart seemed to be brought to the forefront, and her soft heart seemed to touch a rough grain of sand, rubbed until it hurt.

She wanted to know more.

“That’s not the kind of ‘different’ I want,” Ran Mingyue said. Her pupils were fixed on the person in front of her, and her eyelashes didn’t even tremble.

But what other kind of different could there be? In Li Guang’s confused eyes, Ran Mingyue knew she couldn’t explain it clearly.

Her once-warm palm gradually cooled down, and her restless heart slowly sank with it.

Li Guang held the handle of her suitcase, took two steps out, and then stopped and turned around to say, “Sister Mingyue, do you want them? I’ll give them to you.”

The question in Ran Mingyue’s heart had lingered for a long time, and now she couldn’t hold it in. She asked, “Li Guang, I kissed you back then, and you still don’t have any other thoughts?”

The air stood still with Ran Mingyue’s words, and Li Guang also froze. She stood there blankly, shaking her head blankly, and finally spoke the truth, “…I wouldn’t dare to.”

Li Guang hadn’t forgotten what Shang Wenya had said to Ran Mingyue in the car. Ran Mingyue was here to experience things for the variety show, not to fall in love. She couldn’t have any scandals.

Li Guang’s lips moved again, holding back what she wanted to say, and finally changed her words.

“Sister Mingyue, you are Ran Mingyue. I wouldn’t dare.” Li Guang knew her thoughts were never subtle. She only vaguely knew what Ran Mingyue wanted to ask, but—

What exactly did Sister Mingyue want? She still didn’t understand.

If she didn’t understand, she wouldn’t dare to want it.

Li Guang didn’t want to argue with Ran Mingyue. Li Guang wouldn’t argue with anyone. When she argued, she would just whimper and say ‘I’m so fierce,’ but in reality, she never won an argument.

Even her breathing was soft now.

Ran Mingyue remembered when they were playing the game, Li Guang said she didn’t have a title.

Who was it that didn’t have a title?

She had already missed her chance two years ago. At that time, she and Li Guang were on completely different paths. Now, it was obviously different. She had come back for the subtle possibility between her and Li Guang.

“I kissed you, Li Guang. That was a kiss. It can’t be ignored,” Ran Mingyue emphasized seriously. “Just because I’m Ran Mingyue, you wouldn’t dare? You’re not that timid. Or…”

Ran Mingyue once again walked in front of Li Guang, her serious gaze turning solemn. She placed her hand on Li Guang’s wrist and held it tightly. “Or do you think I’m just that kind of person? So casual?”

“I don’t!” Li Guang became a little angry and embarrassed, her voice rising, her emotions agitated. If she had been a little calmer and more observant, she would have noticed the cautiousness under Ran Mingyue’s serious facade.

“Sister Mingyue, you’re a big star, and my identity and position are completely different from yours. How can you expect me to dare to think that?”

Li Guang’s voice was a little louder, and she even felt a bit choked up. She wasn’t crying, but in this situation, it just happened.

She quickly cleared her throat a few times and lowered her voice, sounding a little wronged. “Are you just curious about me? I can’t give you any help. I can’t give you anything… what kind of experience could I possibly give you?”

“What nonsense are you talking about? Li Guang, am I really the same to you as everyone else? If I am, why did you give your personal channel to me? Why did you come up here to find me?” Ran Mingyue sighed.

Li Guang said, “These things are the same as what happened two years ago, aren’t they?”

Two years ago, Ran Mingyue kissed her because they were acting out a scene; it was Teacher Ran being professional. That kiss was just for work.

Now, two years later, Ran Mingyue kissed her again because of her immersive experience for this show. It was a preparation for her new movie with Director Qi; it was also for work.

What she did for Ran Mingyue, like Ran Mingyue, was also for work.

“No, it’s never been the same. You’re giving me too much credit.” Ran Mingyue leaned forward in front of Li Guang. “Listen to me, why can’t you believe me?”

Ran Mingyue’s hand slid down from Li Guang’s wrist, gently covering the back of Li Guang’s hand.

“I don’t understand, Sister Mingyue. I… I can’t explain this to you right now,” Li Guang’s voice was strained. “Aren’t you going to star in Director Qi’s new movie?”

Ran Mingyue said, “Who told you that?”

“I guessed.” Li Guang was talking nonsense. “You’re giving me too much credit… I’m very timid, so I’m afraid of getting involved with you in any other way. Sister Mingyue… we’re just classmates. What happened two years ago is in the past, right? That was just for a scene, wasn’t it?”

Li Guang’s words were incoherent, but Ran Mingyue understood.

Everything.

Li Guang was telling her that she didn’t believe her and that there was no possibility between them.

“You’re afraid of fire, so why did you still come to find me?” Ran Mingyue was unwilling. She glanced at their clasped hands. Li Guang didn’t realize they were holding hands.

“I had to,” Li Guang’s voice became dejected. “It was what I was supposed to do.”

Ran Mingyue let go of Li Guang.

The quiet atmosphere returned. Ran Mingyue suddenly spoke.

“On that night two years ago, why were you hiding and crying in the practice room’s changing room?”

“I’ll tell you that later,” Li Guang was stunned for a moment and didn’t let herself get lost in the memory. “I’m leaving. You should rest… Don’t be unhappy because of me.”

Ran Mingyue didn’t say a word.

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