The Pursuit of Love After Divorcing My Cold Omega - Chapter 59

Yu Kunian, Do You Love Me?

The two words “divorce” were something Yu Kunian never expected to hear from Song Wenzhi’s mouth.

How piercing those words were. They caused the Alpha to freeze instantly on the spot, as if her system had crashed. Her gaze fell upon Song Wenzhi; Yu Kunian opened her mouth, but no sound came out.

She wanted to look into Song Wenzhi’s eyes, but those eyes avoided her gaze.

Song Wenzhi suppressed the sadness in the depths of her eyes and hid her grief, forcing herself to be resolute and forcing herself to stop looking at Yu Kunian. The Omega was afraid her heart would soften, and afraid of being deceived by Yu Kunian once again. She no longer knew which of the Alpha’s words were true and which were false.

She no longer had the energy to distinguish between them.

Yu Kunian walked toward her, and only after the initial shock did she finally ask: “Zhizhi, are you serious?”

Song Wenzhi pinched her fingertips, feigning composure. “I have thought it over deeply.”

Yu Kunian frowned, her pupils trembling slightly. She spoke in disbelief: “Why do we have to divorce? Zhizhi, you can’t. I told you, don’t listen to what Yu Dai and Yang Jin said. I don’t need the Li Group.”

She thought it was because of the things Yu Dai had said last time—that the Omega was making this decision to save Zhaoming Bio.

But Song Wenzhi shook her head. “Yu Kunian, it’s not because of the Li Group.”

“Then what is it because of?” Yu Kunian immediately asked her. “Zhizhi, weren’t we doing just fine? Why divorce? I will handle the company matters. Zhizhi, trust me.”

“Yu Kunian, I told you, don’t lie to me,” Song Wenzhi said.

Yu Kunian’s frown deepened. “I haven’t lied to you, Zhizhi.”

“You’ve even lied to yourself, Yu Kunian.”

“What have I lied to you about?” Yu Kunian’s emotions could no longer remain stable. Looking at Song Wenzhi, she couldn’t help but feel a few flashes of inexplicable irritability. “Zhizhi, when did I lie to you?”

Facing the Alpha’s questioning, Song Wenzhi remained silent for a long time. She kept her gaze cast down steadily, then asked: “Yu Kunian, why did you marry me?”

Yu Kunian seemed caught off guard by the question. It took a long while before she said: “Because it was suitable, and the pheromones were a match.”

“And that’s all?”

“What else would it be for?” Yu Kunian asked back, her face showing confusion. She became a bit more impatient with Song Wenzhi’s questioning and blurted out: “I can solve all your problems for you, Zhizhi. I am your best choice. Marriage, for both you and me, is something we can benefit from.”

She assumed Song Wenzhi knew that this marriage was nothing more than a mutual extraction of interests.

Song Wenzhi said: “Yu Kunian, to you, is marriage a transaction?”

Because she could easily solve troubles, she was the most suitable person for the Omega. Because their pheromones matched, she wasn’t the “only” one; the promises of the past had now become the most powerful evidence against her. Any Omega with matching pheromones could have been the Alpha’s choice. Such mechanical thinking never spoke of emotion.

Since the words had already been spoken, Yu Kunian found it difficult to take them back. She could only continue: “If there is no benefit to be gained from marriage, why engage in it?”

Song Wenzhi felt as if she no longer recognized Yu Kunian.

The current Alpha was a thorough businesswoman, judging everything as a transaction and analyzing whether profit could be made from it. Yu Kunian’s marriage to her was merely to rebel against an arranged marriage, merely because of necessity.

“Yu Kunian, when I married you, I never thought about what interests I could gain.” It was because she liked Yu Kunian; she loved Yu Kunian; she wanted to spend her life with Yu Kunian.

Song Wenzhi had never felt the warmth of a home since she was a child, and she wanted to form a family with Yu Kunian. She only wanted Yu Kunian. She didn’t seek returns, and she certainly didn’t think about “interests.”

But Yu Kunian said calmly: “But the fact is, marriage is for the maximization of interests—Zhizhi, just because you don’t seek them doesn’t mean you haven’t received benefits.”

Song Wenzhi froze entirely.

“Zhizhi, we aren’t children anymore. Before making any decision, analyzing the pros and cons is the norm, let alone for marriage. It is very necessary to calculate whether there is a situation where the disadvantages outweigh the benefits.”

“Then… why choose me?”

“To tell the truth, I don’t know, Zhizhi.” Yu Kunian felt that choosing Song Wenzhi seemed to be an instinct, and she couldn’t explain exactly why; she just settled on Song Wenzhi.

Such an ambiguous answer made Song Wenzhi not even dare to ask whether she had brought the Alpha the interests she had anticipated.

Before this, the Omega had actually harbored an absurd, extravagant hope. She hoped to hear Yu Kunian sincerely ask her to stay; she hoped the Alpha would personally tell her of a deep love; and she prayed that Yu Kunian could explain that the lies were due to unavoidable circumstances…

But she didn’t expect that Yu Kunian’s marriage lie was because of “interests.”

And she indeed had benefited.

Song Wenzhi was disappointed in herself, and disappointed in the Yu Kunian she thought she knew. The current Yu Kunian seemed to truly reveal herself—the cold blood of a merchant, the indifference of President Yu. That Alpha who was always calculating interests would not even spare her own marriage.

This was not the home Song Wenzhi had imagined. Her marriage should not be occupied by weighing pros and cons at every turn; it shouldn’t be handled with such clear-cut, ledger-like officialdom as Yu Kunian calculated.

Marriage is not a company; it is not composed of one project after another, and it won’t yield a predetermined reward just because a project is completed.

Song Wenzhi realized that the gap between her and Yu Kunian was not just their families, but also their way of thinking. She could not accept Yu Kunian’s model of marriage.

“But based on the analysis, we are the most suitable, Zhizhi. Why divorce?” The Alpha said, “No matter what, I don’t want to divorce you.”

Song Wenzhi didn’t speak. She could no longer trust Yu Kunian.

Nor could she bring herself to repeat the words she had heard—words spoken personally by the Alpha. That would be no different from rubbing salt into her own wounds.

Precisely in such an atmosphere, in such a confrontation, Song Wenzhi was exceptionally stubborn, unwilling to discuss the reasons further.

To have her personally expose the reality of that deception—that would be too cruel for her.

Looking at Song Wenzhi’s complex expression, Yu Kunian felt the Omega was likely acting on impulse. She sighed and stepped half a pace closer. “Zhizhi, you need to calm down—”

“The one who needs to calm down is you.” She interrupted her.

Song Wenzhi looked up, her gaze darkening as she looked at this somewhat unfamiliar Alpha. At the very beginning, she had indeed mentioned divorce with the intention of testing her. She only wanted an explanation, an answer that could satisfy her. But now, she had obtained the truth spoken by Yu Kunian while her emotions were unstable.

“Yu Kunian,” Song Wenzhi’s gaze landed on her, calm yet questioning: “Do you like me?”

This question came unexpectedly, but it was also within the realm of reason. When Song Wenzhi asked it, she didn’t even know if the answer she would get would be true or false. If… if Yu Kunian said she liked her, would she even believe it?

Song Wenzhi didn’t know; she didn’t dare think about it, yet she asked it impulsively anyway.

What she didn’t expect was that Yu Kunian didn’t answer. She seemed to freeze because of the question, remaining silent for a long time. Song Wenzhi suddenly curled her lips into a bitter smile. To her, this silence was nothing less than a denial—it was a coldness so deep that Yu Kunian wouldn’t even bother to lie to her.

Song Wenzhi’s lips trembled, her smile full of bitterness. The distress in her heart was beyond words. For a moment, she looked at Yu Kunian’s face and slowly took half a step back.

The Omega lowered her head, and in that instant, her tears couldn’t help but burst forth. Her deliberately lowered sobs were still hard to hide. Song Wenzhi’s tears slid down her cheeks, her breathing quickened, and she continued hurriedly: “Yu Kunian, the debt you settled for me, I will raise the money to pay you back as soon as possible.”

Song Wenzhi didn’t want to owe Yu Kunian anything.

The determination to divorce only truly solidified at this moment. She didn’t want to live in such pain in the future.

It was better to break it off early to avoid washing her face with tears every day and becoming resentful and wretched.

Song Wenzhi was unwilling to be married to an Alpha who didn’t like her. Even though she loved Yu Kunian so much, and even though she would suffer multiplied pain from pheromone instability after leaving her, she didn’t want to force it—not in the slightest.

The suitcase beside her was pulled away by the Omega. Song Wenzhi walked forward with a heart more pained than ever before. Her vision was blurred, yet she still walked straight past the Alpha. Yu Kunian reached out and hooked her fingertips; the Alpha lowered her head weakly and helplessly, finally speaking: “Zhizhi, must a marriage involve ‘liking’? We are very suitable. Let’s not divorce.”

Song Wenzhi shook off her hand and left the home without saying a word.

So heartless.

So resolute.

Yu Kunian stood frozen in place. Her hand seemed to still hold Song Wenzhi’s warmth, but the Omega’s scent had already vanished, disappearing completely from their home.

The Alpha needed time; she wanted just a little more time.

To think—what is “liking”?

What exactly did the “liking” in Song Wenzhi’s mouth refer to?

Yu Kunian had never thought about this question. She never even knew what qualified as “liking.” Yu Dai and Yang Jin had never told her what kind of feeling that was supposed to be.

Having lived since childhood in a family with an atmosphere resembling that of colleagues, Yu Kunian had never cared about any Omega. She thought that marriage was two people coming together to live; as long as the two were suitable, as long as they could each get what they needed and gain mutual interests, then they should be married.

She didn’t need a business-like partner like Li Ci. She felt Song Wenzhi was very good. They were suitable for marriage; even their pheromones were such a match, as if destined.

Beyond that, Yu Kunian didn’t know what other reason there could be.

Was so-called “liking” like this?

—Yu Kunian didn’t know, but she felt it wasn’t. It shouldn’t be like this.

Yu Kunian couldn’t figure it out; she couldn’t find the answer.

She only knew that everyone was forcing her to divorce, and now even Song Wenzhi had joined in—and she wasn’t even clear on the reason. The Omega’s mention of divorce was too sudden, so sudden that Yu Kunian hadn’t even reacted before she spoke, her thoughts a mess as she opened her mouth.

All her emotions turned into a chaotic mess after Song Wenzhi left. Yu Kunian walked out and stood in the living room. Looking at the bottles of wine on the table originally intended for a “candlelight dinner,” a sudden surge of anger rushed up.

Nothing was going her way. Everything was forcing her to compromise.

But she could not divorce.