The Moon Upon My Heart - Chapter 33

Chapter 33: Confession

“You are the first priority in my life plan.”

If the person locked in that embrace hadn’t been Shen Wangshu, but someone else, hearing Ji Fengyue speak such spine-chilling words in such a contradictory tone might have made their hair stand on end, leaving them frozen in fear.

Fortunately, it was sufficiently understanding and sufficiently dense—Shen Wangshu in her arms.

“Right. Because after the accident, I regretted it so, so much. I regretted being friends with you; I regretted dragging you down with me in death. So after being reborn, I made up my mind to stay away from you. Perhaps you would have had a difficult time after the college entrance exams, but I was certain you could pull through on your own perhaps with someone else’s help…”

Ji Fengyue’s arms were so tight that Shen Wangshu felt she was nearly being strangled, yet she continued.

“I always felt that you didn’t actually need me. Your ‘best friend’ didn’t have to be me; there would have been someone else.”

“It wasn’t that it had to be me; you just needed someone to fill that role.”

“But I wavered. Because I couldn’t bear to let go. It wasn’t that you needed me—it was that I needed you.”

“That night, I didn’t sleep at all. I was hesitating, but in the end, I gave up on the idea of leaving. Because I would never again meet a friend who cares for me, protects me, and treasures me as much as you do.”

“Ji Fengyue, if I were truly determined to hide my identity and run away from you, I wouldn’t have raised my hand in English class. My oral English skills were practiced alongside you; you should know that better than anyone.”

As Shen Wangshu finished, she heard Ji Fengyue let out a low chuckle again, and the laughter grew louder: “I know. Xiaoyue, thank you. I can finally be at peace.”

“As long as I don’t change, you won’t leave my side, right?”

“I won’t change. I am proud of my steadfastness and obsession. Success is right before my eyes; I will absolutely never give up.”

It turned out her Moon didn’t want to leave either. Step by step, she had walked into her arms of her own accord.

Once Ji Fengyue finished laughing, Shen Wangshu asked: “Are you that happy?”

“Mm, of course.” Ji Fengyue nodded, meeting Shen Wangshu’s eyes earnestly. This dense block of wood… even at this stage, she still thought they were just “best friends.” Yet, even for a “friend,” she was willing to bare her soul, which only made her seem endearingly serious.

“You’re a doctor. What’s your solution?”

“To be honest, I don’t think this is an illness, and I don’t want treatment.”

Shen Wangshu’s eyes widened, and she glared: “No way. You must treat it!”

Ji Fengyue shook her head: “I can’t think of a cure, and there’s no need, because this won’t affect my life.”

“But your reaction just now was very severe!”

“That was hemophobia! If you don’t cure it, how can you be a surgeon in the future? What about your career, your life plan? You call that ‘not affecting your life’?”

Ji Fengyue blinked mischievously: “Who said I’m going to be a doctor in the future?”

“First, I don’t have hemophobia. It was only because it was your blood that I was afraid. Second, after being reborn, I don’t plan to work in a hospital again; the profession of a doctor doesn’t suit me. Finally, my life plan has been progressing steadily and won’t be affected by this minor issue.”

“Xiaoyue, thank you for worrying about me. But rest assured, I know my priorities. At the same time, I hope you remember this.”

“You need me, and I need you.”

“You are the first priority in my life plan. Nothing else is more important than you.”

These words were like a clap of thunder, exploding in Shen Wangshu’s mind.

She was completely stunned. It was as if the world had been muted, leaving only Ji Fengyue’s focused, almost scorching eyes.

She blinked in disbelief, her throat dry. She opened her mouth to speak, but her “wicked” friend gently pressed a finger against her lips.

“Xiaoyue, don’t say anything mood-killing right now,” Ji Fengyue’s voice carried a hint of a sly smile. “Otherwise, I might do something even more unbelievable to you.”

Shen Wangshu really wanted to ask: What else could you possibly do? What she had already said was unbelievable enough. Shen Wangshu was currently doubting reality; she felt as if she were in a dream, perhaps a dream she hadn’t woken up from after falling asleep on the mountain. It was too hard to believe.

Her goal, her role model, the person she had liked for fifteen years… was saying she was the top priority in her life plan?

Was she lying? Impossible Ji Fengyue wouldn’t lie to her. Was it just to make her happy? There were a thousand ways to do that; why say this? So it had to be a dream. That was the only possibility.

“Xiaoyue, can you give me a hug?”

“Ah…?” Shen Wangshu’s reaction was half a beat slow, but Ji Fengyue had already moved in. She pulled her “Moon” into her arms again not with the urgency of before, but in a gentle, calm, and deeply cherished embrace.

“Xiaoyue, after knowing this, will your psychological pressure be greater?”

“Uh, n-no.”

“That’s good. I’m relieved. So now, we need to talk about your insomnia.”

“You can fall asleep if you’re with me, right?”

Her voice was so tender that, for the first time, Shen Wangshu felt her ears go numb, and even her neck began to feel hot.

“Mm… yes…”

“Stay with me from now on. Be a good student at school during the day, come back and do our own things in the study after school, and when it’s time to rest, we’ll lie in bed together preferably in an embrace and enter dreamland together.”

Ji Fengyue seemed to be chuckling softly. Why did she have to say these things right against her ear? What a mischievous person.

“Xiaoyue, can you promise me? As long as circumstances allow, stay with me always, okay?” Her soft lips intentionally brushed against the edge of Shen Wangshu’s ear, her warm breath fanning across sensitive skin, while the warm embrace provided an endless sense of security.

Shen Wangshu’s mind was a total blank. She couldn’t think of anything else; she only felt that summer was quite annoying. Why were they both wearing short sleeves? When pressed together this tightly, wouldn’t every reaction be noticed?

“Xiaoyue, promise me, okay?”

“Xiaoyue?”

Feeling a warm, slightly damp lip touch her earlobe, Shen Wangshu snapped back to reality. Her face flushed crimson as she frantically pushed Ji Fengyue away: “Fine, fine! I’ll do whatever you say!”

“You… don’t lean in so close…”

“Pfft. Xiaoyue, your reaction is so cute. I love it.”

Hanging her head, Shen Wangshu who was embarrassed to the extreme—heard her laughter and was instantly struck by a surge of “shame-induced rage.” She scurried into the bedroom, not forgetting to look back and glare.

“Don’t you dare follow me! Handle the stuff on the table yourself, and don’t come looking for me before bed!”

Would this solve the post-traumatic psychological disorders of both? Shen Wangshu didn’t know, but for now, she definitely didn’t want to talk to that wicked idiot!

However, when dinner time arrived and Ji Fengyue knocked on the door to call her, Shen Wangshu obediently responded.

The new hairstyle Ji Fengyue had given her was truly fitting. The shoulder-length cut with the ends slightly curled inward made Shen Wangshu’s face look delicate. Combined with her serious expression, anyone who saw her would think she was a submissive, well-behaved student.

In any case, Ji Fengyue was exceptionally satisfied, feeling that her beloved was ten thousand times cuter now than in her blurred memories of high school.

“Why are you smiling like that? Is there a grain of rice on my face?”

Ji Fengyue shook her head with a grin: “Because you’re cute. I like you a lot.”

Shen Wangshu huffed. Wicked person, always teasing me on purpose.

“You said at noon that you don’t plan to be a doctor in this life. Are you still going to take the medical school entrance exam?”

“Yes. With the knowledge accumulated from my past life, retaking medicine is a very cost-effective choice.”

Shen Wangshu looked thoughtful: “Then what do you want to do in the future?”

“Make money. If a loved one falls seriously ill, the best solution isn’t to be the doctor, but to have the money to let the world’s top doctors use the most cutting-edge biotechnology to treat the patient,” Ji Fengyue added, “Sufficient medical knowledge and connections in the medical field are also indispensable.”

“You mean… you’re going to use your past life’s knowledge and information gap to become a medical tycoon in this life?”

Ji Fengyue just smiled without speaking. Shen Wangshu let out an “Oh” and buried her head in the meal cooked by the future big boss.

In this new life, Ji Fengyue was working toward a new goal, but what about Shen Wangshu herself? She didn’t know. Originally, she didn’t have much material desire; having a harmonious little home with the person she liked was her greatest wish.

However, watching Ji Fengyue move forward, Shen Wangshu couldn’t help but feel that if she remained in place, she wouldn’t be worthy of her, and in the future, they might not even be able to be friends.

Many times in the past, the driving force pushing Shen Wangshu forward had been Ji Fengyue. As long as she watched her charge toward a goal, Shen Wangshu would find the strength to change. So now, should she also follow closely in this person’s footsteps and seriously consider the future?

“Xiaoyue, there’s no rush. We have a long, long time. It won’t be too late to think about it when you actually feel like changing.”

Shen Wangshu shook her head: “I don’t want to fall too far behind you. If the gap between our future social classes is too great, we might not be able to be friends anymore.”

Ji Fengyue’s mouth twitched. This dense block of wood hadn’t taken her words to heart at all. This dummy really didn’t have a single romantic cell in her body. I give up!

“Xiaoyue, do you remember what I said at noon? I don’t want to hear you say things like ‘won’t be able to be friends’ or ‘might separate in the future’ ever again. I’ll get angry.”

“Huh? Ah… sorry. I didn’t forget, I just subconsciously thought of the worst-case scenario.”

Ji Fengyue leaned her head on her hand and sighed: “Xiaoyue, although your concerns aren’t without merit, don’t forget my feelings. Even if you want to run, I won’t let you go, so rest easy and stop overthinking.”

“…Oh.” Shen Wangshu’s ears felt hot again. She stopped thinking and lowered her head to eat.

It was a meal of three dishes and one soup that Ji Fengyue had worked hard on; the taste was excellent, and the portions weren’t too large, carefully prepared for two people’s appetites.

Perhaps because the psychological pressure had vanished, Shen Wangshu had a better appetite. It was strange; Ji Fengyue hadn’t actually provided any practical solutions and had even shown a more severe “psychological disorder,” yet Shen Wangshu felt inexplicably at ease and no longer worried about her.

It must be because of Ji Fengyue’s vow-filled attitude. Yes, that had to be it.

Thinking of this, Shen Wangshu instinctively looked up. Her wicked best friend was still staring at her. When their eyes met, she broke into a wide smile. Shen Wangshu reflexively looked down.

She thought that Ji Fengyue had changed long ago, becoming completely different from before. Such a tender gaze and smile had never appeared in the past.

Such a change… must be a good thing.

After dinner, Shen Wangshu was forbidden by Ji Fengyue from using the computer or reading in the study for a long time.

Under the pretext that “you must rest well during your period,” Ji Fengyue dragged Shen Wangshu to bed early. Fortunately, she didn’t make any more intimate moves, otherwise Shen Wangshu really wouldn’t have dared to let her hold her.

Perhaps because of the accumulated fatigue from before, or because it’s easy to feel drowsy during a period, after being cradled in Ji Fengyue’s arms, Shen Wangshu was soon overcome by sleepiness.

Her eyelids were heavy, and her normally overactive mind became slower. It was still quite early and the bedside lamp was still on; Shen Wangshu unconsciously snuggled into Ji Fengyue’s embrace, using her arm to block the light. Before long, she was sound asleep.

Ji Fengyue maintained this posture, motionless, until she was certain Shen Wangshu was completely out. Only then did she move her stiff, numb body. She first reached out to turn off the light, then slowly and gently wrapped her arm around Shen Wangshu’s waist, letting her lean against her chest. She held her in a position where Shen Wangshu was almost lying on top of her, ensuring she slept comfortably.

The person sleeping on top would be comfortable, but for the person underneath, it was absolute torture. Ji Fengyue didn’t care; she was even exceptionally happy. The smile on her face hadn’t vanished since Shen Wangshu proactively snuggled into her arms. If Lin Xuxi could see her, she would surely get goosebumps from that radiant grin.

Ji Fengyue had never been this happy. She was certain that Shen Wangshu definitely liked her too. It was just that this “wood” was too dense and didn’t understand romantic feelings, which was why she repeatedly used “family” to describe their relationship.

Family? Of course, they were destined to become family. They would be the most suitable partners for one another; no one would ever separate them again.

However, how was she going to make this unromantic, “clueless-about-love” block of wood catch on? This was a problem that was both a headache and exceptionally sweet.

In the darkness, Ji Fengyue’s eyes were incredibly bright. A long, long time passed before she slowly closed them, pressing her cheek against her beloved’s, and gradually entered a deep sleep.