I Just Want to Spoil and Run Away with the Abused Female Lead [Quick Transmigration] - Chapter 42.1

“I can end this world for you right now. If you choose another world later, don’t develop any feelings for the female lead. Is that okay, Rao Rao?”

Suddenly being called “Rao Rao” by the woman, Shi Xingrao felt a turmoil in her heart. Who could understand? Her wife was actually fragmented, with many pieces. She was fond of Lin Shuangran, but what about the others.

Shi Xingrao was genuinely a bit frustrated, her mind oscillating between the thought that she was a scumbag and whether she should be relieved that all the people she had ever felt something for were actually the same person.

In the end, Shi Xingrao simply looked at the woman who felt both familiar and unfamiliar and said, “Let me sort out my thoughts, okay?”

“Or you could explain to me how this situation came to be.”

Seeing that Shi Xingrao no longer seemed intent on pursuing other matters, Yu Chen breathed a sigh of relief. Based on her recent deeper understanding of Shi Xingrao, this person responded better to softness than to force, and it seemed this observation was now confirmed.

“It’s just that you can’t fall in love with characters in the small worlds. My fragments are in there. Does that make a little more sense? If you get involved with them, it’s the same as getting involved with me.” Yu Chen tried to explain vaguely, hoping to gloss over the details.

Shi Xingrao might respond to softness, but she wasn’t easily fooled. “Are your fragments in every small world?”

Shi Xingrao stared at the woman, whose clear, mountain-stream-like eyes flickered with just the right amount of unease. The woman’s fingers curled slightly, but she maintained her composure as much as possible. “No, not every world.”

Shi Xingrao narrowed her eyes. “So, the two worlds I’ve experienced so far both have your fragments?”

The woman grew even more flustered, lowering her gaze and nodding. “Yes, that’s right.”

She was beautiful, and even her flustered state was captivating. She appeared cool and aloof, but when questioned, her unease made her seem easy to bully.

Shi Xingrao couldn’t help but wonder: Was this the noble and aloof Main God that the systems spoke of? She didn’t seem all that noble or aloof. In fact, Shi Xingrao felt an urge to poke the Main God’s cheek.

Probably no one could resist a cold, elegant beauty suddenly softening.

Especially when that beauty was very likely her wife.

Shi Xingrao continued her interrogation. “Did you deliberately pull me into this quick-transmigration bureau?”

The beautiful woman’s eyes reddened at the corners with anxiety. She bit her lower lip and spoke as if resigned. “Yes, I did it on purpose.”

Shi Xingrao lowered her gaze. Deliberately pulling her into the quick-transmigration bureau, deliberately placing her fragments in Shi Xingrao’s world this woman was truly cunning.

Shi Xingrao really wanted to poke her now, to make this seemingly soft but scheming beauty cry. This woman had been toying with her like a monkey, hadn’t she?

Shi Xingrao remained silent for a long while. Yu Chen gently bit her lip. Why wasn’t the fish taking the bait? Didn’t Shi Xingrao like the soft type? Was her acting not soft or vulnerable enough?

For the first time, Yu Chen began to doubt her acting skills because of Shi Xingrao’s reaction.

“Are you secretly in love with me?”

Shi Xingrao suddenly threw out this question. Yu Chen’s heart began to beat violently, her chest pounding until it settled on one word yes.

It felt as if she had returned to that evening when Shi Xingrao had cornered her under the wisteria trellis, annoyed by her chattering, and kissed her.

Yu Chen averted her gaze, still feeling a little upset. Shi Xingrao was truly heartless she didn’t even remember their kiss and even called her scary.

Sometimes, she really wanted to pin this ungrateful little thing down on the bed and kiss her until she couldn’t speak.

“Are you shy? Why are you so easily flustered? Weren’t you bold when you pulled me in here? Weren’t you confident when you dated me under someone else’s name? Oh, wait you were shy, weren’t you? You even refused to let me hold your hand.”

Yu Chen: “…”

Everything made sense now. The main god who had dragged her into the fast-transmigration world had done so out of affection. She had even scattered fragments of herself across the mission worlds to romance her.

Shi Xingrao curled her lips into a smirk. “Why so quiet? Isn’t that right? What’s with your twisted sense of humor, scattering so many fragments? Did you want me to two-time?”

Yu Chen, flustered, blurted out, “No! I never wanted you to two-time! They’re all me, what’s wrong with you liking a few more versions of me?”

Shi Xingrao: “.”

Truly her wife that line of thinking was next-level.

Before Shi Xingrao could tease her further, Yu Chen pouted and complained, “Don’t tell me you didn’t like it? Can you honestly say you only liked Lin Shuangran? Didn’t you feel anything for Lin Yi or Shen Yishu?”

The woman looked like an aggrieved little bunny, her eyes red with a mix of anger and hurt as she stared at Shi Xingrao.

Shi Xingrao: “…”

Yu Chen continued, “And it’s not like I wanted it this way! The fast-transmigration bureau ran into some issues. The only way to stabilize the unstable worlds was to scatter fragments of myself into them. You can think of each fragment as an energy source maintaining stability in its respective world.”

“If you’d thought about it carefully, you’d have noticed that the emotional energy yield in the fast-transmigration bureau is extremely low. Emotional energy is what powers the entire system. If it weren’t for this crisis, I wouldn’t have resorted to such a desperate measure.”

Shi Xingrao blinked slowly. “Really?”

Yu Chen gazed at her pitifully. “Do you think I’m lying, Mangmang? If it weren’t for the emergency, I would never have chosen to split myself apart.”

Shi Xingrao completely accepted her explanation and, for some reason, even felt a little sorry for Yu Chen. On the surface, she was a god presiding over the fast-transmigration bureau, but in reality, she had to fragment herself just to keep the system running. The bureau must be really strapped for resources if even the main god had to go to such lengths.

Shi Xingrao reached out and gently poked Yu Chen’s hand. “Don’t be upset. I won’t tease you anymore, okay?”

Her touch was light, like a tiny hook gently tugging at Yu Chen’s heart. Steadying herself, Yu Chen replied, “I’m not angry. So… do you still want to leave the fast-transmigration world?”

Instead of answering, Shi Xingrao asked in return, “If I complete a world, will a fragment of you return? Are Lin Shuangran and Lin Yi the parts that have already come back?”

“I was originally planning to take Lin Shuangran away once I finished all my tasks, but then you pulled this stunt.”

Yu Chen had long known that once Shi Xingrao set her mind on something, even if she later encountered someone who stirred her heart, she would cut her losses in time. She had always been aware that she couldn’t keep this hidden from Shi Xingrao for long. But now, hearing Shi Xingrao say she wanted to take away a part of her, the feeling was entirely different.

Once Shi Xingrao made up her mind, she would choose with unwavering determination.

“Raorao, Lin Shuangran is only a part of me. But loving someone isn’t just about loving one part of them. Lasting, eternal love means embracing all of them.”

“Just like how you dislike the way Lin Yi speaks, that’s still a part of me. You dislike Shen Yishu’s moodiness, but that’s also a part of me. If you continue with your missions, you’ll discover even more of my flaws.”

“Even so, would you still choose me?”

The emotions in Yu Chen’s eyes were complex. She was twisting the logic, gambling that Shi Xingrao would develop feelings for her because of Lin Shuangran.

Why is she so insecure? Is this really the main god of a fast-transmission bureau? Was she raised being emotionally manipulated? Countless thoughts swirled in Shi Xingrao’s mind, but in the end, pity outweighed all her doubts.

And besides so what if she was a bit of a scoundrel? She was genuinely moved by those fragmented parts, and at times, she couldn’t help but be captivated by those pieces.

No matter which fragment it was, she could feel their deep love and reverence for her. And the source of that reverence was the woman standing before her.

“I choose you. No matter what version of you I encounter, I believe I’ll accept it.”

“Just wait for me to piece you back together.”

Shi Xingrao had given the answer Yu Chen wanted to hear, yet Yu Chen couldn’t shake the feeling that it was unreal. She even wondered if she had truly heard those words or if it was all just her imagination.

Shi Xingrao had chosen her.

Yu Chen simply stared at Shi Xingrao, slightly dazed.

Seeing the woman across from her looking bewildered, as if unable to believe her words, Shi Xingrao’s lips curved imperceptibly into a faint, almost roguish smile. “Main God Sister, do I seem like the irresponsible type?”

At this moment, Shi Xingrao felt that as long as the other person didn’t reveal herself to be Yu Chen, she could accept anything.

Shi Xingrao added, “Is there anything else you’ve been hiding from me? If you come clean now, I can accept it. But if I find out later that you’ve deceived me, I’ll really be angry.”

Yu Chen: “…”

Well, there were quite a few things she had lied about. For instance, the small worlds weren’t actually malfunctioning she had fabricated that to deceive Shi Xingrao. She knew that even if Shi Xingrao didn’t intend to stay with her, out of pity, she would remain to help piece the fragments back together. That way, Yu Chen would have a second chance.

For example, her current pitiful and aggrieved demeanor was entirely an act.

For example, the fast-transmission bureau wasn’t actually running low on energy.

And for example she was actually Shi Xingrao’s arch-nemesis.

Shi Xingrao might not get angry about the first few lies, but Yu Chen was certain that if Shi Xingrao found out she was Yu Chen, she would turn around and leave in the next second. Shi Xingrao would think she had orchestrated this entire elaborate scheme just to mess with her.

After a moment of silence, Yu Chen ultimately decided to lie. “I haven’t deceived you about anything else.”

Yu Chen was an excellent actress, her gaze sincere as she looked at Shi Xingrao. Shi Xingrao narrowed her eyes slightly. Fine, I’ll trust that she wouldn’t lie to me.

If the other party was truly deceiving her, she could only say their acting was so good they could win an Oscar.

Shi Xingrao: “Then can you show me what you look like?”

Yu Chen: “…”

If Shi Xingrao saw her, their story would end right there.

Yu Chen quickly lied again, “No, that won’t do. The fragments haven’t returned yet. My face isn’t looking good right now you can’t see it. If you saw what I look like, you might really stop liking me.”

Shi Xingrao didn’t overthink it. Since the fragments were in other worlds, there probably were side effects like this. Besides, as a girl, it was normal not to want others to see her at her worst. Shi Xingrao accepted this quite easily.

After all, she was her wife. Once she pieced her wife back together, her wife would definitely show herself to her.

“Then I’ll go back to doing tasks?”

Yu Chen remained silent. How should she put it? She felt as if she and Shi Xingrao were in a relationship, yet also as if they weren’t. It was a strange feeling, like two people on a blind date, and after the date, Shi Xingrao was rushing off to work. Hmm, and Shi Xingrao was technically working for her.

Yu Chen blinked softly, “Are you in such a hurry to do tasks?”

Shi Xingrao turned her head in confusion, looking at her wife, who, despite wearing a mask, still vaguely appeared as beautiful as a flower. “? Aren’t you in a hurry? Don’t you want to be pieced back together?”

Yu Chen: “…”

To be honest, she really wasn’t in much of a hurry.

Not only was she not in a hurry, she was even a little worried that Shi Xingrao would end up piecing together a rival and have a mental breakdown.

Rather than letting Shi Xingrao go back to tasks, she wanted to spend more time building their relationship.

Yu Chen tentatively suggested, “Do you want to come to my room and see the glowing cat?”

“The glowing cat can do somersaults.”

Shi Xingrao: “?”