You Are the Star I Cannot Touch - Chapter 9

Chapter 9: Kissed

Mu Yan looked at the large bruise on Gong Yutong’s waist, and as she massaged it, tears began to fall. Her heart ached. She had never been willing to hurt her in the slightest, she couldn’t bear to. She would rather hurt herself than hurt her. How much more when the injury was so large and caused by herself? Her heart ached and she was full of remorse. She had been too reckless.

No one knew how much she loved her, or to what extent. She could forgo food and water, she could forgo herself, but she could not live without her. She was her life, more important than her own life. What supported her to live for the past ten years was her, what supported her return from hell was her. Even when her injuries were severe and doctors thought she wouldn’t live, her will was strong. She wanted to live, she wanted to be with her. With this willpower, she had lived until now. When she couldn’t hold on, thinking of her helped her persevere. She was her faith, her spiritual pillar.

She also didn’t want to see her hurt. Even when she caused the injury herself, she would be full of remorse afterwards. She hated her, but she also loved her, and felt sorry for her. Looking at the wound on her waist, her heart hurt even more. She wanted to protect her and prevent her from being harmed, but this time, she was injured because of herself. The more she thought about it, the more she hated herself, and the tears kept falling against her will. She only cried over things related to her, and only she was worth her tears.

Gong Yutong felt a warmth on her waist. She was lying on her stomach, then she turned around and looked at her, “Are you… okay?”

“I’m sorry, I should have protected you, but I hurt you instead, I’m sorry.” She cried even harder as she said this, “I won’t hurt you again, I definitely won’t. I promised to protect you, but I failed. I’m sorry.”

Gong Yutong sat up, “I don’t need your protection, just take care of yourself, stop crying.” She wiped away her tears.

“I’m useless,” she only knew how to cry, but she hadn’t seen the other emotions in Gong Yutong’s eyes for over twenty years. If she had seen them, she would probably be happy.

She pulled her into her arms.

Perhaps it was the embrace she had yearned for for too long, not only did her tears not stop, but Mu Yan cried even more fiercely. Why was she crying? Only she knew clearly. Ten years of love, grievances, and various emotions made her cry. She also had vulnerable moments. Ten years, the other person had not responded, and there were times when she couldn’t hold on. Fortunately, she hadn’t humiliated or hurt her, she just ignored her, otherwise… her heart would truly ache, it would lead to despair. She had lived for so long, without warmth, without anyone caring or loving her. Her being alive was only because Gong Yutong was alive, she was there. Otherwise, she would have killed herself long ago. But she feared she couldn’t hold on for much longer, people get tired.

Gong Yutong didn’t comfort her, allowing her to cry. Ten years, that time was truly long. No one could read the emotions in her eyes, and only she knew what she wanted to express.

Mu Yan cried herself tired and fell asleep. She picked her up, gave her a bath, and put her on the bed, then changed into her own pajamas.

She knew Mu Yan had woken up while she was bathing. Perhaps she was indulging in this feeling, and she didn’t expose her, closing her eyes. But no one noticed the fingernail marks on her palm, left there to keep herself awake and to restrain herself.

Mu Yan opened her eyes. She didn’t know if the person next to her was awake. She tentatively leaned closer, then slowly reached out and embraced her. Tonight, she just wanted to hold her. This was the first time she had truly shared a bed with her. Ten years, she didn’t even know how she had managed to get through it. Her scent was so nice, and her embrace was so warm. She liked it so much, she wanted to hold her like this forever.

What she wanted was truly not much. She wasn’t greedy. She only wanted Gong Yutong, but even this small request she couldn’t fulfill.

Gong Yutong’s eyes were closed. She wasn’t asleep, nor did she stop her.

Early the next morning, Gong Yutong woke up. Mu Yan was already gone. She didn’t pay any attention to her and went to the company herself.

Mu Yan’s re-entry into the Gong Corporation attracted the attention of some people because she was wearing Gong Yutong’s clothes. Her clothes were all specially made by her own people, and couldn’t be bought. They naturally recognized them at a glance and gossiped softly. Mu Yan ignored them and went straight upstairs. Her being a secretary had already caused them to discuss, and with the added clothes, they could guess whatever they wanted. The more chaotic the rumors, the better, she wished everyone would spread that she was hers.

Gong Yutong rubbed her waist. Last night, she even hugged Mu Yan while giving her a bath. She was truly sick to hug her, otherwise her waist wouldn’t hurt so much today.

Mu Yan saw the door open and walked right in, placing breakfast in front of her. “I’ll help you massage it. You should try to lie down more.”

Gong Yutong looked her up and down. She was 176cm, and Mu Yan was 166cm. Her clothes on Mu Yan… she was smart to choose a short one, otherwise, it would probably be dragging on the floor. She was quite adept at taking her clothes.

Mu Yan held her waist and massaged it. Last night, her waist was already in such a state, yet she still hugged her to bathe. Thinking of this, she regretted it again. This was the first time she had cried in so many years, and it was in her arms. Thinking about it, there was an unspeakable bitterness. This person truly had no heart, or rather, she genuinely didn’t like her. Sometimes she knew she was not normal, other times she was quite normal. However, the rumor was that she didn’t like women. Thinking of this, she hated that she was a daughter, otherwise, she would definitely like her.

She lowered her head and saw Gong Yutong’s long eyelashes, and those red lips, then she kissed them.

Gong Yutong shuddered. She was thinking about work, and then her lips felt warm, Mu Yan was kissing her again. She tried to push her away, but Mu Yan grabbed her restless hand and continued to kiss. Her waist hurt, she really couldn’t exert any more force or kick her, otherwise, she would truly be confined to the bed.

Tang Xiaowan and Gu Xizhi came in and saw the dignified CEO Gong being pressed and kissed.

“Holy cow… Gong Yutong, you can’t be serious. You’re being suppressed by someone else. How embarrassing would that be if it got out? The previous time was an accident, but this…”

Mu Yan really wanted to go over and kick Tang Xiaowan. Couldn’t she stop ruining her good moment? She let go of Gong Yutong.

Gu Xizhi frowned, always feeling that something was not right. With Xiaoyu’er’s personality, how could she be kissed? And… something was off.

Gong Yutong’s face was dark, she didn’t know what to say.

“You guys talk, remember to eat breakfast,” Mu Yan retreated, not forgetting to close the door.

“What’s going on?” Gu Xizhi still asked the question in her heart. “How did she become your secretary? And wearing your clothes? What was that just now? This is not like you.”

“Nothing is going on. She’s a doctor, and I wanted her to treat my waist. But she cried for a long time, and stayed at the villa. I couldn’t be completely heartless, after all, without me, she wouldn’t be living in such pain. Her obsession is truly deep. She forced the HR General Manager, that’s how she became my secretary. I can’t protect his family and him twenty-four hours a day. As long as she doesn’t do anything reckless, it’s fine. As for just now, do you think I can kick Mu Yan away in this state? I still want my waist, it’s about to break.” She should go lie down on the bed. Anyway, nothing would happen to the Gong Corporation if she didn’t go to work for a day or two, otherwise, what were they for? It’s just that there are some things she doesn’t want to wait for anymore, she needs to get them done quickly. If she drags it out… sigh.

“Alright, why don’t you rest for a while?” Gu Xizhi looked at the breakfast on her desk. This Mu Yan was really good to her. Sometimes, she was quite envious. Why couldn’t she find someone as devoted as Mu Yan?

If Gong Yutong knew what Gu Xizhi was thinking, she would definitely think she was sick too. Don’t look at Mu Yan being normal now, when she’s not normal, she only wants to turn you into a specimen. Who wouldn’t be horrified by that?

“I’m fine. What did you need? So early in the morning?”

Gu Xizhi sat helplessly on the sofa. “Ask Miss Tang.”

Gong Yutong’s waist instantly hurt even more, and her head also ached. Sending one away, and another one comes. Will she ever have a good day? Actually, logically, they shouldn’t have ended up together. Different backgrounds, different family statuses, different personalities, but they still did. With Tang Xiaowan, it stemmed from Tang Xiaowan’s brazenness, rudeness, bossiness, and unreasonableness. With Gu Xizhi, it was purely because she was shameless.