You Are the Star I Cannot Touch - Chapter 40

Chapter 40: Calm Down

“Where’s Xiao Yan?” Chi Yue searched around but couldn’t find Mu Yan.

Xiao Yan, all she knows is Xiao Yan. Tang Xiaowan was in a bad mood. Xiao Yan, Gong Yutong. Should I help Mu Yan out and slip a little something to those two, and then… Sigh, it probably wouldn’t work. Gong Yutong is abstinent, completely impervious. That trick is useless. What other methods are there?

“Sweetheart, over here!” Mu Yan jogged over, her face full of excitement, and pulled Gong Yutong along with her.

Tang Xiaowan was curious, so they followed.

Mu Yan covered Gong Yutong’s eyes, then let go, and fireflies flew out from her hand.

“Isn’t it beautiful? I caught them for a long time,” Mu Yan looked at the fireflies, smiling happily. “Will you catch them for me in the future too?”

Gong Yutong glanced at Mu Yan, then at the fireflies. “You like it?”

“Mmm-hmm, don’t you think it’s very romantic? Can you spare a day for me on May 20th?” She recalled that the happiest birthday she ever had was when Gong Yutong gave her a necklace, which was why she confessed, only to be rejected.

Mu Yan turned to look at her, then wrapped her arms around her neck. “Sweetheart, just one day, okay? I’ve never asked you for anything, but this time, I’m begging you to give me one day, to spend one day with me, okay?”

“Mmm.”

Mu Yan froze for a moment. She agreed. She actually agreed. She was ready to use direct flirting and threats, but she agreed just like that. “You’re not messing with me, are you?”

“No.”

“Are you sure?” She still didn’t believe it.

“Have I ever broken a promise to you?”

“No.” She looked at her, her fox-like eyes curving into a happy smile. “Sweetheart, you’re so good.” She hugged her, not forgetting to act spoiled, and then looked at her with eyes full of affection and kissed her.

Chi Yue took a photo of what just happened. She thought Mu Yan would surely like the scene. She took many photos. When she looked again, she almost threw her phone. She had misread it, so she looked again.

For just a moment, when Gong Yutong looked at Mu Yan, her eyes were filled with tenderness, indulgence, and deep affection.

Chi Yue looked at Gong Yutong again, who was still cold and emotionless. If it weren’t for the photo, she absolutely wouldn’t believe that this perpetually cold person could have such a gentle side. And she… she seemed to understand something. Gong Yutong does have feelings for her. She likes her. But why? Why isn’t she willing to be with her?

A rumbling sound of thunder.

Mu Yan was no longer afraid, but she still instinctively hid in Gong Yutong’s arms.

Gong Yutong held her. The wind was picking up. It looked like it was going to rain soon.

Chi Yue observed. If Gong Yutong didn’t protect her, Mu Yan wouldn’t instinctively hide in her arms. If Gong Yutong didn’t care about her, she wouldn’t instinctively protect her. She hides it too well. If it weren’t for the photo, she really wouldn’t have noticed. Sometimes she treats her well perhaps because Xiao Yan was exceptionally kind to her during their student days, which is why she returns the kindness. But that photo, her gaze… this person is truly terrifying. A person who doesn’t show their emotions is the hardest to deal with, because you can never see her heart or her feelings.

Gu Xizhi pulled Qu Shijin, afraid the wind might blow her away, so she was half-pulling, half-hugging her.

Tang Xiaowan pulled Chi Yue. The wind was really strong.

At this moment, one could clearly see the instinctive actions they took—whether they cared about the other person or not, they would immediately think to protect them.

“I’m going to find my brother. You go back first. It’s going to rain soon.” Gong Yutong took off her jacket and tied it around Mu Yan’s waist to prevent her from being exposed.

“I’ll go with you.”

“No need.” She pushed her towards Chi Yue. “Take her back.”

“I won’t!” Mu Yan looked at her, very stubborn. “The path here is bad, and it’ll be dangerous when the heavy rain hits. I want to stay with you. Yue’er, let go of me!”

“Mu Xiaoyan.”

Mu Yan, scolded by Gong Yutong, felt extremely wronged. Tears fell one by one, then another, as she stubbornly looked at her, biting her lip.

Chi Yue reached out to wipe them away. She truly didn’t understand why every time she saw Gong Yutong, as long as Gong Yutong was in trouble or raised her voice, Mu Yan would feel wronged and cry. She had never cried in front of Chi Yue. Sometimes she was seriously injured without making a sound, but if she was injured and saw Gong Yutong, she would act incredibly wronged, calling out in pain, acting as wronged as possible.

“Can you just…?” Chi Yue looked at the tears, which flowed like an unending kite string. She didn’t know how to comfort her.

“Yutong, I want a hug.” Mu Yan looked at her.

Everyone “………”

“Sweetheart, I want a hug.” Mu Yan reached out her arms this time.

Tang Xiaowan watched, her heart shattering. How could anyone refuse this? This was too heart-wrenching. Refusing would be inhumane. Gong Yutong isn’t human to begin with. What a shame for such a stunning beauty, but she’s obsessed with… Tang Xiaowan looked on in horror. Gong Yutong…

Gong Yutong reached out, hugged her, and wiped away her tears. “Let’s go.” The rain had started to fall.

“Mmm.” Mu Yan followed Gong Yutong, holding her hand, very happy. She almost skipped as she walked.

“I’m not blind, am I?” Tang Xiaowan asked. “Xizhi, what’s going on?”

“If we wait any longer, the rain will get heavier. What’s going on?” Gu Xizhi pulled Qu Shijin. “Let’s go back.” She also didn’t understand what was going on, since Gong Yutong had been acting abnormally lately.

“Let’s go.” Tang Xiaowan pulled Chi Yue. “It’s getting heavy.” She ran, pulling Chi Yue along.

Gong Yutong found Gong Shaoyu and almost kicked him twice. Her little brother was quite calm, not rushing back. He should be rebellious at his age. She took him back, and Mu Yan followed Gong Yutong to her tent.

As soon as Mu Yan entered, she started taking off her clothes. Gong Yutong watched at first, then silently turned her head away.

Her decade of self-control had been hard-earned. It wasn’t that she was cold or abstinent. When faced with a temptress like Mu Yan, not everyone could maintain control. But she was, after all, Gong Yutong, enduring for ten years, though she almost broke this time too.

She swore that when they finally got together, she would repay her for all the control she’d had to exercise for these ten years. It was too tormenting.

Form is not different from emptiness, emptiness is not different from form; form is emptiness, emptiness is form. She silently repeated this a few times to calm herself down.

“I’ll help you take it off.” Mu Yan slipped her hands under his shirt at her waist.

“No need.” Gong Yutong pushed her away.

Mu Yan was persistent, pushing her onto the mat and sitting on her waist to undress her. Last time in the bathroom, she fainted; this time she wouldn’t. Definitely not. So, she skillfully took off her top, resulting in two streams of nosebleed.

Gong Yutong pushed her away, tossed her a pack of tissues, and swiftly undressed and redressed herself.

By the time Mu Yan’s nose stopped bleeding, Gong Yutong was already fully dressed. Mu Yan wanted to bite herself to death. Next time, she vowed to finish watching even if she got a nosebleed. Seriously… her blood pressure soared, and she almost passed out.

Gong Yutong dried her own hair, then grabbed Mu Yan’s hair to dry it for her.

Mu Yan felt her gentleness. She remembered being rejected after confessing in her first year of high school, but she still persistently clung to her. Gong Yutong didn’t say anything and treated her the same as in ninth grade. Even when others bullied her, Gong Yutong was the first to stand up. She protected her, very fiercely. She also cared for her a lot. It was because of all this that she remained hopeful, feeling that Gong Yutong had feelings for her, but just wouldn’t be with her. She had never hurt her; even when she eventually physically restrained her, it was very gentle. Sometimes, it made her easily lose herself.

Gong Yutong turned off the hairdryer. “You can go back now.”

“It’s raining so heavily outside. I’ll definitely get soaked if I go out.”

Gong Yutong didn’t say anything and lay down.

Mu Yan also lay down, then moved closer to her, softly biting her earlobe. “Sweetheart, I want it.”

Gong Yutong rolled her eyes. “I’m not going to give you a raise.”

Mu Yan “……… You’re not short on money, are you?”

“I’ve lost a few hundred million recently. Do you think I’m short on money?”