When I Woke Up, I Had Three Romantic Partners - Chapter 29.2

One answer?

What answer?

What did she miss?

“I…”

Chi Jinqing looked out at the bright sunshine outside the window, but her heart felt somewhat empty. Why did she cross time and space to come here?

She stared at her hand; her expression slightly dazed. Eight years had taken away her youth. She woke up in this body, without her youth, knowing no one. Everything in the past was overturned. She only remembered Si Jiamo.

But Si Jiamo didn’t want her.

Si Jiamo only remembered being abandoned by her and had always resented her. What was the meaning of her staying?

Sometimes she would wonder if, back then, she had held onto the other person, hadn’t been so willful, and hadn’t cared so much about losing everything in a lie, would she not be like this now?

Could she and Si Jiamo have been happy together all this time?

Whenever she thought this, everything she had experienced over the years, as told through the diary, would give her the answer: no.

If the only person making a change was herself, they wouldn’t have made it to the end.

“Si Jiamo, honestly, have you ever, for a single moment, believed in me unwaveringIy?”

Si Jiamo’s heart ached. This question was like a sharp arrow piercing straight into her chest, making the pain unbearable. She wanted to pull it out, but the arrow had already gone through her chest. Pulling it out directly would only tear her flesh, causing a secondary wound that could not be stitched up.

But if she didn’t pull it out, the arrow would take her life.

Chi Jinqing received no answer, and she gave a self-deprecating, tearful smile: “See? Even you understand that you never believed me from the start. You never believed in my feelings. So, what is the point of you asking me if I ever loved you?”

“If even you don’t believe that I would say I loved you, why do you repeatedly come back and ask me?”

“I…”

Si Jiamo couldn’t refute it because the truth was exactly as Chi Jinqing said. She couldn’t believe Chi Jinqing had loved her. She lacked confidence and didn’t dare to believe that Chi Jinqing would love her.

The scene she saw back then was forever etched in her mind, impossible to forget. Whenever she tried to believe in Chi Jinqing’s love, that image, and every word Chi Jinqing had said back then, would repeatedly play in her mind. Her memory constantly told her that Chi Jinqing didn’t love her, that Chi Jinqing had never loved her.

Everything Chi Jinqing showed back then was fake, nonexistent. She never loved her.

So she tortured herself and Chi Jinqing.

Because she didn’t dare to believe that anyone could love her.

Only now did she realize that she was the one who had been unstable from the beginning.

“Si Jiamo, you’ve always wanted me to change. Our relationship isn’t something that can be fixed just by me changing. If you’re unwilling to believe me, I can’t treat you like I did back then either. Since that’s the case, why not break up first?”

Chi Jinqing’s voice was choked with emotion, but she still managed to speak every word clearly: “We didn’t seriously break up back then; it just ended vaguely. Let’s say it properly this time.”

Chi Jinqing’s voice trembled, her eyes red, her expression stubborn: “No…”

“Chi Jinqing, no…”

Chi Jinqing: “Si Jiamo, I’m talking to you very seriously right now, listen to me.”

“Let’s break up.”

Chi Jinqing’s voice was very soft, but every word struck Si Jiamo’s heart deeply, causing her unbearable pain and making her unable to tolerate it.

“I don’t accept it, Chi Jinqing, I’m telling you, I don’t accept it.”

Si Jiamo collapsed onto the sofa, gripping her long hair, her whole person becoming sensitive and stubborn, like a madwoman.

She murmured: “I didn’t accept it back then, and I won’t accept it now. A-Jin, you can only be mine.”

Facing Si Jiamo’s madness, Chi Jinqing remained the same. Her voice was very soft, like a fragile object that couldn’t be spoken to loudly, yet every word was heartbreaking: “I am not just yours, Si Jiamo. You should have understood that fact long ago.”

Si Jiamo’s voice slightly trembled, laced with humility: “A-Jin, you can’t do this to me…”

“Stop joking, A-Jin…”

Chi Jinqing: “I’m not joking, Si Jiamo. Do you really think we can go back to the past?”

Judging from what she had experienced since she came here, it was clear what her twenty-six-year-old self had gone through. If Si Jiamo had truly wanted to change, she would have changed long ago.

And now she was still talking about wanting to go back to the past?

“You never believed me.”

“Let’s just leave it at that.”

Chi Jinqing resolutely hung up the phone. Her phone slipped from her trembling hand and fell to the floor with a crisp sound, but Chi Jinqing had no energy to care.

Making this decision took all her strength. From this moment on, she was truly alone.

In this world, no one would remember her at eighteen. Everyone would remember her at twenty-six.

Si Jiamo was unwilling. Even if it meant using everything she had, she would not let Chi Jinqing leave her side.

She only had Chi Jinqing.

She called the number again. It rang but no one answered. She persistently kept calling, refusing to hang up. The phone rang countless times, but the other end never connected.

Chi Jinqing didn’t want to answer her call. She quietly watched the noisy phone. Her ringtone was the theme song Si Jiamo sang when she played a little princess at twenty.

She had used it until now. Si Jiamo’s youthful voice was distracting her over and over, but she didn’t answer. She just listened to it.

After half an hour, the ringtone finally stopped. She thought Si Jiamo had finally given up, but she clearly underestimated Si Jiamo’s patience. In less than three minutes, the ringtone started again.

Chi Jinqing sat on the bed, sighing wearily.

Although her memory was still stuck at eighteen, she could now feel some of her twenty-six-year-old self’s exhaustion and sadness.

She got up, picked up the phone, blocked the number, and set her phone to reject calls from unknown numbers. Finally, it was quiet.

Si Jiamo, who found she couldn’t get through after calling again, had bloodshot eyes: “…”

Blocked?

She changed to another number and called, only to find that she still couldn’t get through.

That was impossible. Chi Jinqing shouldn’t know this number. Why couldn’t she get through?

Thinking of a possibility, she called He Ming in, her face very cold: “Call Chi Jinqing.”

He Ming felt that the current Si Jiamo was a bit dangerous. Trying to overcome her fear, she asked quietly on behalf of Chi Jinqing: “Sister, did Sister Chi do something wrong?”

Si Jiamo: “None of your business.”

Seeing Si Jiamo’s extremely miserable expression, He Ming could only pray that Chi Jinqing wouldn’t answer the phone. Perhaps the heavens were touched by her little prayer, because the call didn’t go through.

She checked her phone. Great, she had been blocked too.

She breathed a sigh of relief, then awkwardly turned to Si Jiamo and said, “Sister, Sister Chi blocked me.”

Si Jiamo’s face was ashen, as if all color and support had instantly drained away. She waved her hand: “Go down.”

He Ming held her phone, looking at Si Jiamo’s lost appearance. She worried: “Sister, are you okay?”

“Or I could go find Sister Su. She can definitely get through to Sister Chi’s phone.”

Su Yunhui was Chi Jinqing’s agent, so no matter how angry she was, she shouldn’t have blocked Su Yunhui.

“No need.”

Si Jiamo’s fringe covered half her face, obscuring her eyes so He Ming couldn’t read her expression. She felt caught between a rock and a hard place.

If Si Jiamo continued like this, she would have to go find CEO Si.

“Go down. I’m fine.”

Si Jiamo covered her face with her hands and took a deep, weary breath. She was really tired. Her stomach also hurt, cramping painfully, making her want to throw up.

He Ming: “Then… Sister, you should rest first?”

“Mm.”

Si Jiamo’s voice was so faint that He Ming almost didn’t hear it.

He Ming checked the time. It was already noon. Si Jiamo hadn’t eaten since last night. If she didn’t eat now, she would get an upset stomach.

Si Jiamo didn’t like eating in the first place. Her meal times were irregular, not to mention she often forgot to eat. He Ming had been with her for several years. Although she was just an assistant, she understood many of her small habits.

“Sister, should I order you lunch first?”

“You haven’t eaten all day. Your stomach can’t handle it.”

But Si Jiamo was in no mood to eat now. She didn’t even have the strength to lift her hand, and she didn’t want to reply to anyone: “No need. Go out.”

He Ming looked at her, then turned and closed the door.

The next moment, she went to the CEO’s office and knocked on the door of the CEO of Siyi Media.

The person who received her message called the chief office assistant, explaining the situation. The assistant understood: “Alright, I will convey this immediately.”

Hanging up, the CEO of Siyi also sighed deeply. Their cash cow was indeed a cash cow, but her temper was truly difficult. If anything, really happened, CEO Si would surely kill them.

“Just wait.”

He Ming nodded and waited on the side.

The assistant who received the message picked up the documents that needed signing, straightened their clothes, and knocked on Si Zhongkui’s office door.

Knock, knock.

“Please come in.”

Although the family affairs were very busy, Si Zhongkui still had to go to work to handle official duties, spinning around all day. Recently, due to her parents’ divorce, the entire Si Group was in turmoil, and everyone was worried about whether their stock would depreciate.

Si Zhongkui had been so busy during this time that she couldn’t even go home. She almost implicated Su Lin in being busy with her, but for the sake of her mother’s physical and mental safety, she took on everything herself, letting Su Lin stay home to help care for their mother while she fought at the company.

Yet, there was still someone insensitive enough to come and find her at this time.

Si Zhongkui took a deep breath, finished signing the documents, put down her pen, and waited for the person outside to come in.