The Pursuit of Love After Divorcing My Cold Omega - Chapter 66

She Yearns for the Omega’s Comfort

The watch in Yu Kunian’s hand contained the lingering scent of her own mint pheromones, a message she had intended to leave for Song Wenzhi.

For Song Wenzhi, Yu’s soothing pheromones were perhaps more effective than any inhibitor. Yu had thought that in her absence, should any accident occur, this watch could provide a temporary sanctuary for Song Wenzhi.

But now, Song Wenzhi had no use for it.

Since she and Song Wenzhi had never completed a permanent marking, Song Wenzhi could accept the pheromones of other Alphas in the future. This watch was now essentially useless.

Yu Kunian recalled meeting Xia Weichi earlier that day. That Alpha had carried the scent of coconut candy, a fact that filled Yu Kunian with an immense, helpless rage. Whether or not Xia Weichi had done it as a provocation, the goal had been achieved: Xia Weichi had witnessed Yu Kunian’s total defeat firsthand.

Looking at the wristwatch in her hand, Yu Kunian felt she had no reason to keep it.

The rut caused her to react violently to all external stimuli. Whether it was Li Ci’s unfamiliar pheromones from before or this un-gifted present that represented the end of her marriage to Song Wenzhi, it was difficult for the Alpha to remain calm. She was unwilling to admit that things had soured; she didn’t want any object to exist solely to remind her that her marriage was completely shattered.

And so, Yu Kunian threw the watch. It struck the corner of the table in front of her, letting out a sharp, loud crack.

The crystal shattered instantly, spider-webbed with prominent cracks. As shards of glass fell into the dial, the watch hands were forced to a stop, symbolizing that it would never be used again.

The originally stored scent of mint slowly wafted out. Though they were her own pheromones, the scent emanating from the watch was much gentler than her current state.

Yu Kunian stood still. Her outburst brought no emotional relief; instead, as she watched the broken watch, her eyes grew even more somber. She remembered their closeness in the research lab, how she had drawn in the Omega’s pheromones… it felt like yesterday, yet she suddenly realized a vast amount of time had passed.

In another watch, Song Wenzhi’s pheromones were stored.

Yu Kunian had originally intended to smash that one as well, but she picked it up and stared at it for a long time. As if possessed, she turned the dial to release the pheromones.

The scent of coconut candy was intensely familiar and brought a sliver of emotional respite. In that moment, she greedily craved more, wanting to demand the Omega’s soothing pheromones just as she had before.

That coconut candy scent that had originally belonged to her, which she could once obtain unconditionally, could now only be sipped from a wristwatch. She carefully felt the sweetness of the pheromones, yet the longing in her heart only intensified, leaving her unsatisfied.

The amount of pheromones stored in the watch was small. It was impossible to use it to get through an entire rut. To prevent the scent from being used up all at once, the release valve was set to emit only a tiny amount—barely enough to provide relief for twenty or thirty minutes.

If used continuously, the total amount in the watch would last half a day at most.

Therefore, Yu Kunian had to use it sparingly. After one release, she relied on that faint Omega scent to alleviate the agony of her rut. In this moment, her chaotic thoughts realized with startling clarity just how dependent she was on the smell of coconut candy, and how much her instincts hungered for the Omega’s pheromones.

Even as her own thick mint scent swallowed the coconut candy whole, she could still feel it. She could find a modicum of comfort relying solely on such a faint trace of soothing pheromones.

So, this watch could not be smashed. She had to keep it safe.

Yu Kunian slid it onto her wrist, her fingertips lightly brushing the cracked crystal. Her gaze grew hazy, as if veiled by a mist; the corners of her damp eyes flushed red. The Alpha lowered her gaze, and a single tear struck the floor.

The bitterness in her throat welled up completely at that moment, consuming her without end.

She yearned for the Omega’s comfort. Every second, she missed the Omega’s scent. But this was not the home where she and Song Wenzhi had lived; there was no trace of Song Wenzhi here.

The shadow of the divorce agreement lingered in her mind. Rage and longing intertwined, and Yu Kunian could no longer distinguish if what she had done was right or wrong.

She tightly gripped the wedding ring the Omega had returned in her palm. Yu Kunian slowly returned to the bedside. She sat down and opened her hand; the mark of the ring in her palm glowed red. The wedding ring felt scalding hot, yet the wind by her ear was freezing.

For the first time, she felt the cold wind was bone-chilling, as if it were piercing through her heart.

The Alpha lay sideways on the bed. The scent of coconut candy had almost entirely vanished. She was like a fish out of water—parched, struggling, and in pain. A rut had never been this agonizing. Yu Kunian closed her palm over the ring again. She lowered her eyes and pressed her lips against the knuckles of her clenched fist, pretending she was kissing Song Wenzhi’s hand as she once had.

Yu Kunian closed her eyes and remained motionless. As the sky grew dark and the room fell into shadow, she drifted between sleep and wakefulness. She murmured in a low, dream-like voice:

“Song Wenzhi…”

Yu Kunian relied on that faint scent of coconut candy to barely scrape through the entire rut.

During this period, she only released the pheromones twice. She cherished the remaining uses of the watch because she knew that if they were used up during the rut, she would never smell coconut candy again. she would have no chance to replenish the Omega’s pheromones, and she couldn’t bear to let them run out so quickly.

She couldn’t bear to let Song Wenzhi disappear from her world so soon.

Yu Kunian didn’t know what was wrong with her. She thought that after the divorce, she would use time to wash away the memory of this marriage. But clearly, things were not going as she expected; in fact, the opposite was happening.

Song Wenzhi’s imprint on her heart grew more intense, like a searing brand that deepened with every passing second.

Throughout the days of her rut, Song Wenzhi’s silhouette remained in her mind. The Alpha’s restless, irritable pheromones filled the entire room. No one dared to visit her for fear of being affected; only Yu Dai could approach to bring food and water, though she never received a response when she spoke.

Seeing Yu Kunian like this, Yu Dai’s face gradually filled with worry. She didn’t want to see Yu Kunian so despondent; a single rut seemed to have crushed the Alpha. She had never seen Yu Kunian like this. Previously, no matter what happened, Yu Kunian would fight harder the more she was set back. This time, it felt as though she had been utterly defeated.

But regarding the divorce, things had already reached this point. Yu Dai was helpless. She had thought that since it was irreparable, it would be better to move on early, but Yu Kunian’s stubbornness was exasperating.

Even when the rut ended and Yu Dai stopped confining her, Yu Kunian still refused to leave the room. Yu Dai had no choice but to call Jiang Qiu, hoping that as someone familiar with Yu Kunian, she could offer some advice.

Jiang Qiu was also surprised when she saw Yu Kunian. After just one rut, the Alpha looked haggard. Her eyes held only a deep, heavy darkness, and her loosely pinned hair was messy—gone was her usual composure and sharpness.

Because of the lingering mint scent in the room, Jiang Qiu frowned. Standing before Yu Kunian, she said, “Kunian, this is too much.”

“I don’t know why it’s like this.” Yu Kunian also felt she was being ridiculous. She could muster no interest in anything, and her mood remained perpetually low.

Now, she couldn’t even understand herself.

Jiang Qiu sighed and sat down beside her. “Kunian, becoming like this just because of a divorce… is this still you?”

Yu Kunian lowered her eyes and whispered, “What is ‘me’ supposed to be like?”

“The marriage was just an act, a plan we decided on. Now, the divorce is just an unexpected turn, but everything else is still under your control. For you to be this depressed simply because of a divorce… it doesn’t look like you.” Jiang Qiu was puzzled. From the very beginning, this was just a plan, a fake performance. “You have other things to do, have you forgotten?”

After meeting Song Wenzhi, she had long since stopped being herself.

The corners of Yu Kunian’s eyes were tinged with red. Her lips trembled slightly before she said, “She was… originally part of my plans for the future.”

The Alpha had included Song Wenzhi in her future, but she had never imagined the Omega would leave.

These few days apart had been so agonizing that the days of suffering felt infinitely long. She thought Song Wenzhi wasn’t important—that the Omega was just a passerby in her life—but she couldn’t seem to accept losing her.

Why?

Yu Kunian wanted to ask: “Why?”

Why her? Why Song Wenzhi? She had countless questions seeking answers. The longing of the past few days rushed in like a tide, drowning her. Yu Kunian felt she was about to perish in it. The Alpha had even thought it was just the emotions of the rut making her crave Song Wenzhi’s comfort, but now that the rut was over and she was alone in her room, she realized that wasn’t the case.

“Kunian, did you get too deep into the role? You approached her with a purpose from the start. Your pursuit of her was an act; it was fake. Have you really forgotten?” Jiang Qiu frowned, looking at the Alpha before her. She truly couldn’t believe it, after all, she and Yu Kunian had formulated the plan together. “You’ve been inside for too long. You’re going to make yourself sick in this room. You need to go out for a walk; maybe then you’ll forget.”

It wasn’t that Jiang Qiu didn’t believe in Yu Kunian’s sadness, but she felt that too much had happened recently. The divorce was so sudden that it was possible she just couldn’t accept it for the time being. If Yu Kunian simply couldn’t accept the failure of the marriage, then it had nothing to do with Song Wenzhi herself; it could be faded with time and the dulling of her indignation.

Yu Kunian shook her head. “I don’t want to go out.” She still wanted to be alone.

Jiang Qiu urged, “There’s a charity gala recently. Many owners of foreign biotech companies have been invited. You should start planning for yourself again.”

Yu Kunian said nothing. Her fingertips twitched. What Jiang Qiu said made sense, but she had no heart for planning lately.

Seeing Yu Kunian remain silent, Jiang Qiu sighed again. “Kunian, you’ve really become a stranger to me.” The old Yu Kunian was never distracted by anything other than her career. Some called her indifferent, others called her cold-blooded, but now, she was completely different.

Jiang Qiu paused for a moment before adding: “I don’t know what you’re thinking, but I do know one thing—Professor Song, Song Wenzhi, left Lihua City with Xia Weichi on the day you signed the divorce papers. They’ve gone abroad.”