I Heard That I am a HeartBreaker - Chapter 39

Silence was the Cam bridge tonight, the sound of teammates cursing in a ranked match. Qi Sijiao sighed, then obediently picked up her phone and finished the remaining half of the game. As for whether her parents were still alive after the match, that wasn’t important for now…

“Senior Sister, I’m done. Can you tell me what happened now?”

Qiu Shuang could only briefly recount what happened in the club today.

After listening, Qi Sijiao felt something was off. She had been observing Gu Lingxi lately and had noticed the latter seemed to be doing some handover work in the student council, clearly intending to step down from the President position.

She didn’t know who orchestrated this incident, but it was a good thing. At least with this matter hanging over her, Gu Lingxi would have to remain in the President position for a while, and she shouldn’t even think about getting closer to her Senior Sister.

“This incident isn’t too big, but it’s not too small either. They even managed to find a blind spot in the surveillance; the perpetrator definitely put a lot of thought into this… It has nothing to do with Senior Sister. Don’t worry about it anymore. Since Senior Sister Gu is dealing with it, let her handle it, as she is the primary person in charge.”

Qiu Shuang nodded in agreement. She wasn’t very familiar with the students from the College of Arts. She knew that a Senior Sister who could make it to the finals must have some fame, but Qiu Shuang genuinely didn’t know her.

She herself was living in a dire situation, constantly under pressure from all sides, so how could she have the spare time to worry about others’ private matters? In the end, one could say this Senior Sister was unlucky, although attributing such matters to fate is essentially a form of bullying.

But the incident had already occurred. Qiu Shuang only hoped the Senior Sister had been prepared and had a backup plan, but she heard that dance costumes were not cheap.

And for her clothes to be stolen, and to have to rely on outsiders for supervision, it suggested that this Senior Sister was likely not from a wealthy family, probably just an ordinary person. Alas…

“Perhaps it’s a bit of ‘The fox mourns the death of the rabbit’… Senior Sister Gu is quite wealthy, so there should be a replacement method. I just feel sorry for that unlucky Senior Sister.”

Qi Sijiao quickly nodded in agreement after hearing Qiu Shuang’s words. Yes, yes, that’s right. Gu Lingxi was indeed rich, even richer than her.

Anyway, a person’s energy is limited, so let Gu Lingxi deal with the outfit for the time being.

Serves you right for trying to steal my Senior Sister!

Qiu Shuang didn’t know what Qi Sijiao was thinking, but she was genuinely tired. This day of school felt like a shrew wandering through a melon patch, with fresh gossip and strange people popping up every day.

The night in China, the early morning in Germany. Chen Jining, far away in Germany, fell into contemplation late at night. She looked at the contact pinned at the top of her phone screen and fell silent. She thought she could forget.

In reality, even though she numbed herself by studying obsessively every day, never stopping for a moment, she still couldn’t forget the person.

She would recall the dolls they had won together, the things she had helped her with, and the tears that person shed when she was sad.

Chen Jining thought maybe she had truly fallen, and at the same time, she felt a little unwilling.

She should have told Qiu Shuang; she should have told her, you are wonderful, you deserve everything beautiful, and all those terrible things that happened were not your fault.

She regretted it. She thought she hadn’t done well enough, hadn’t done enough. She should have genuinely pursued her before proposing that agreement, not letting her get hurt, and not saying goodbye in such a cruel manner.

However, all of this was fundamentally impossible. Without the agreement, Chen Jining would never have gotten to know her. These were impractical fantasies. She was very clear about herself; Chen Jining would not give up her dreams, nor her future.

Everyone has their own life script. Chen Jining would not give up coming to Germany, nor could she force Qiu Shuang to move to a strange country with her and change her life plan.

Perhaps this is just how fate is. Love should not be the main theme of one’s life. One should prioritize building a better self. But when Chen Jining saw the profile picture in the chat window, she couldn’t help but click into it repeatedly.

During every daytime in Germany, and every late night in China, she quietly browsed her Moments (Friend circle), thinking of which Chen Jining smiled, seemingly mocking her own behavior.

This was truly a blessing; Moments never had view records.

She felt she couldn’t wait any longer. Chen Jining desperately wanted to board a plane, go back, and embrace her, but she couldn’t. She understood Qiu Shuang. Qiu Shuang didn’t love Chen Jining. Perhaps she had provided a lot of warmth during the first phase of her college life, but that wasn’t love.

Love is fair. If one side’s love is overflowing, the scale of fairness will tilt, and then both will fall.

Chen Jining also knew that the other person didn’t love her, so she shouldn’t do that. She should complete her studies here, become a better version of herself, and then stand before her openly and pursue her.

The more Chen Jining thought about it, the less she could sleep. She climbed out of bed and began to write a name. This was a new activity she had added, or perhaps a way to comfort herself.

On every night she missed Qiu Shuang, she would silently write her name. By the end, Chen Jining even felt that the two characters “Qiu Shuang” were so unfamiliar.

Missing her, it turned out, had unknowingly filled the entire room.

“Qiu Shuang… I miss you very much.”

But sometimes I wonder, do I really love you? Do I love your beautiful appearance, your fragile tears, or your gentle inner eyes? I’m not sure. Perhaps I love the melted version of myself, the one who entrusted everything to you and became more human…

At this moment, Qiu Shuang, who was sleeping soundly, did not know that the person who crossed half the world, and whom she believed had long since exited her life, was missing her from the distant other side.

Qiu Shuang felt like she was having a nightmare, as if mosquitoes were biting her. Impatiently, she waved her arm and seemed to hit something very soft. Immediately after, the strange feeling stopped.

Qiu Shuang woke up very early. She didn’t know why, but she noticed that Qi Sijiao seemed to be in a strange state as soon as she woke up. Qiu Shuang felt pretty good today, and she had a meal appointment, so she figured Qi Sijiao could finish her games after she returned…

Qiu Shuang silently got dressed, preparing for her appointment. Today was the day she had agreed to have dinner with Lu Chen. It was actually a bit shameful; ever since being harassed by those few people in a cycle, she really hadn’t found the time. Now she finally had time, and it felt like a long time since she had gotten together with Lu Chen.

Lu Chen seemed unchanged from before, which relieved Qiu Shuang.

The two talked as usual, just like in high school. Sometimes Lu Chen felt that Qiu Shuang was a wonderful person. She could go a long time without contacting someone, but quickly, time would pass, and when you shook hands and talked with her, she would be exactly as before.

It was as if the time when you lost contact hadn’t flowed but had been frozen forever to the moment you said goodbye.

Who could reject a person who never forgets you and always treats you with the most genuine and beautiful attitude?

“How was your internship? I bet you were very happy because you learned a lot.”

“It was alright. I definitely learned a lot of knowledge outside of textbooks. Overall, it was quite pleasant.”

In fact, there were a lot of bad things during that time, but Qiu Shuang was unwilling to tell Lu Chen about them. Although they were good friends, on one hand, she didn’t want the other person to see her vulnerable side, and on the other hand, she didn’t want to bring that kind of sensitive emotion to her.

In social interactions, constantly venting one’s negative emotions to the other person is unfair, because no one is born to be your emotional trash can.

Lu Chen noticed the concealment. She always thought Qiu Shuang was a strange person, like a magical treasure. At that time, she didn’t understand how, with her laissez-faire attitude, she managed to get into their top high school. From her behavior, she didn’t seem like a wealthy person either.

It wasn’t until she later saw her name hanging in the first column that she realized. Qiu Shuang was indeed a genius and excellent in her studies, but why was she so downcast?

Lu Chen didn’t understand. What she saw was always just the occasional sigh of the head teacher and the sympathy in the eyes of the subject teachers.

So what was the truth? It didn’t seem important anymore. It seemed to be hidden under jokes, concealed within seemingly gentle eyes, hidden in the depths of a cold, buried core, and would never be unearthed again.

Lu Chen had long known how Qiu Shuang got this internship opportunity. She could sense that she seemed to be excluded by those people, but this seemed to be a good thing. Perhaps Lu Chen was good at hiding herself, or something else.

In their so-called “Rival Counter-Attack Operations,” it seemed no one ever included her or added her name to the plan. She was an outsider, so she could stand at the highest point and see everything about everyone.

Gu Lingxi, who was close to Qiu Shuang, was the sister of the company’s CEO. Therefore, the “kind Senior Sister” who offered her the job, as Qiu Shuang called her, must have been Gu Lingxi, who used her direct internal recommendation. This kind of recommendation is usually reserved for confidantes, so it shocked Lu Chen that Gu Lingxi used it.

Lu Chen felt that Gu Lingxi was a bit too confident, thinking an internship opportunity would be enough to win over Qiu Shuang?

Emotionally, this was too frivolous. From a business perspective, it was too foolish.

What a bunch of foolish rivals.

“You must thank that Senior Sister properly for getting this internship opportunity, Shuangshuang. I also brought some local specialties. You can give them to the Senior Sister then. They are not very precious, but they are rare, and it’s a small token of appreciation.”

Qiu Shuang nodded. She had already tasked Song Ya with handling this matter, and now Lu Chen had given her something as well.

“That’s really too much trouble, Lu Chen… Thank you.”

For everything you’ve done.

“Shuangshuang, we never need to say thank you between us.”

Lu Chen looked at her. She didn’t want Qiu Shuang to thank her for her help or repay her. Only guilt could constantly restrain a person. She wanted her to get used to her, depend on her, and even take her efforts for granted.

This way, Lu Chen could continue to stay by Qiu Shuang’s side, no matter in what way.

“Shuangshuang, we will always be each other’s most important… friend.”

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