I Got A Girlfriend After Losing My Memory (Transmigration) - Chapter 40

Tao Ran’s breath caught in her throat. She tried to detect any trace of coercion in Tang Fuzhi’s eyes.

But there was none.

Tang Fuzhi was incapable of lying or concealing her emotions. Tao Ran couldn’t deceive her.

At that moment, Tang Fuzhi’s eyes held nothing but the desire Tao Ran had ignited and a fierce sincerity.

Tao Ran suddenly felt her strength drain away.

What have I done…

Tao Ran snapped back to reality, her gaze falling on Tang Fuzhi’s naked form. Her lips were swollen and flushed, clearly having been kissed too hard. The delicate skin of her neck was covered in marks, including a distinct bite mark from Tao Ran’s earlier loss of control.

Traces of yesterday’s marks still lingered on Tang Fuzhi’s collarbones and chest, while her slender waist bore a mix of fresh and old wounds. Tao Ran’s handiwork was etched across her pale skin, bringing her a secret thrill but also a pang of guilt.

A lingering droplet of moisture on Tang Fuzhi’s lips seemed to accuse her of what she had just done.

She had almost… forced herself on Tang Fuzhi…

Tang Fuzhi couldn’t read Tao Ran’s thoughts, but she could feel the desire burning in her own body. She tightened her legs around Tao Ran’s neck, playfully protesting, “Tao Ran, I want…”

Tao Ran knew exactly what she wanted. After all, the “evidence” of her transgression still lingered on Tang Fuzhi’s lips.

Now that her mind was clear, Tao Ran was far from the unrestrained woman she had been in her moment of passion.

She couldn’t help but consider the consequences, like… what if Tang Fuzhi regained her memories?

The Tang Fuzhi before her trusted her completely, but that trust was built on deception, on the fact that Tao Ran was the only person she had.

What if she remembered?

These were the questions Tao Ran had to face.

But she couldn’t maintain a purely physical relationship with the younger woman forever. Releasing Tang Fuzhi, she pulled her into a tight embrace.

The warmth of her body, the delicate fragrance of white tea, and her feverish breath all proclaimed one thing: this woman, right here, right now, was hers.

Tao Ran’s heart pounded in her chest, her lips parted slightly, and her voice trembled with anxiety and fear. “Tang Tang, let’s get married.”

I’m giving you a chance to reject me, to stop me, to leave me.

Tao Ran closed her eyes, her body stiffening as she awaited Tang Fuzhi’s judgment.

The last time she had felt this way was when she learned Tang Fuzhi had gone missing. But back then, she had known exactly what she wanted: to find Tang Fuzhi, to make her stay.

But this time, she didn’t even know what answer she wanted.

Emotionally, she longed for Tang Fuzhi to say yes. Rationally, she yearned for Tang Fuzhi to reject her, to stop her from acting so impulsively.

Her body felt faintly feverish, and Tang Fuzhi’s skin against hers was equally warm, like two furnaces. Their desire was merely suppressed, not resolved.

Time stretched out like an eternity, yet also seemed to vanish in seconds. The silence was absolute, broken only by the pounding of their hearts.

Thump-thump-thump

Finally, her judgment arrived.

“No.”

Tang Fuzhi rejected her.

Tao Ran didn’t know whether to feel devastated or relieved. Tang Fuzhi had stopped her from acting rashly, but had also plunged her into despair.

She couldn’t help but mock herself.

See, Tao Ran? Even with amnesia, Tang Fuzhi would never choose you.

Even when you had the advantage, she still wouldn’t choose you.

But Huo Yuan was different. Even without ever meeting him, Tang Fuzhi would actively seek him out, pushing her toward him.

Tao Ran knew Tang Fuzhi couldn’t possibly love Huo Yuan, yet she still felt jealous. Jealous that Huo Yuan didn’t have to do anything for Tang Fuzhi to seek him out and push her toward him.

Tao Ran couldn’t understand why.

Tao Ran hugged Tang Fuzhi even tighter, as if trying to meld her into her very bones. Their naked bodies pressed together, Tao Ran’s palms against Tang Fuzhi’s warm skin, her ear against Tang Fuzhi’s heartbeat, her nostrils filled with Tang Fuzhi’s unique white tea fragrance.

She had given Tang Fuzhi the chance to reject her, yet now she was the one trembling with fear, terrified of losing her.

Tang Fuzhi, feeling the hug tighten painfully, tried to push Tao Ran away, but then remembered her hands were bound. She could only twist her body in protest.

Tao Ran’s heart grew colder.

So, Tang Fuzhi can’t even tolerate my embrace anymore.

“Tang Tang, don’t push me away. Don’t reject me,” she pleaded.

She had given Tang Fuzhi the chance to reject her, yet now she was begging Tang Fuzhi to take back that rejection.

How… despicable.

Tao Ran felt a wave of self-loathing.

Tang Fuzhi, unaware of Tao Ran’s inner turmoil, continued to struggle, twisting her body almost into a pretzel until she managed to expose her bound hands to Tao Ran.

The waistband, made of thin cotton and linen, had been tied so tightly to prevent her escape that it had left a red mark on the girl’s delicate wrist, a stark contrast against her pale skin.

“Who proposes like this? Tying someone up?” Tang Fuzhi pouted, her hands aching terribly.

Yet Tao Ran saw a flicker of the past in that moment, the girl’s delicate, coquettish expression like she was teasing her, her eyes focused only on her annoyance at being restrained.

“You…”

Tao Ran wanted to ask what she truly felt, but faced with those pleading eyes and the red marks on her wrists, she suppressed her questions. First, she had to free her.

Released from the belt, Tang Fuzhi rubbed her wrists, feeling much better, as if her whole body had been liberated.

Tao Ran, ever perceptive, reached out to massage her wrists. The woman’s warm hands and practiced movements greatly eased Tang Fuzhi’s soreness.

Tang Fuzhi lowered her gaze, watching Tao Ran’s earnest expression, and her heart softened.

“Tang Tang, would you reconsider?” Tao Ran’s long, curled lashes lowered slightly as she focused on massaging Tang Fuzhi’s wrists.

A faint, haughty smile curved Tang Fuzhi’s lips, her eyes glinting with amusement. “Reconsider what?”

As expected, Tao Ran’s massage grew unconsciously firmer, as if she were growing nervous. “The marriage proposal.”

The smile in Tang Fuzhi’s eyes widened, but fortunately, Tao Ran’s head remained bowed, preventing her from seeing the girl’s deliberate teasing.

Tang Fuzhi was deliberately teasing Tao Ran.

Hmph, who told Tao Ran to be so fierce with her? Though she had enjoyed it a little, the pain had been very real.

“But we’re both girls,” Tang Fuzhi said. “We can’t get married.”

She had looked it up online after seeing so many male-female couples at the amusement park.

While China had largely moved past discrimination against same-sex relationships, same-sex marriage remained illegal.

“We could have a wedding in China and then get legally married abroad,” Tao Ran said, her voice calm despite her heart pounding wildly.

“Hmm…” Tang Fuzhi pretended to hesitate, deliberately tormenting Tao Ran.
The wait felt agonizingly long. Tao Ran felt like a condemned prisoner awaiting the guillotine, each second stretching into an eternity. She finally understood what it meant to count every second as a year.

“It’s not entirely out of the question,” Tang Fuzhi said, her voice barely audible.

Almost before the words had left her lips, Tao Ran’s head snapped up, her beautiful peach blossom eyes wide with disbelief. “Really?!”

The corners of Tang Fuzhi’s mouth curled upward involuntarily as she watched Tao Ran’s excitement bloom at her words. “Why would I lie to you?” she retorted, feigning indifference.

“But you’re the heir to the mighty Tao Group! How could you propose to a girl without even a ring?”

Tang Fuzhi was utterly, utterly, utterly dissatisfied with this proposal!

“In TV dramas, proposals always involve a gorgeous bouquet of flowers, a custom-made ring, and a picturesque setting bathed in perfect sunlight.”

“Who proposes like you? Tying up your girlfriend, teasing her relentlessly, kissing her all over, and then proposing without even a flower or a ring!”

As Tang Fuzhi continued to grumble, Tao Ran showed no sign of displeasure. Her smile only widened as she threw her arms around Tang Fuzhi, her excitement palpable.

“Alright, now will you listen to my explanation?”

Tang Fuzhi wasn’t one to let misunderstandings linger, especially now that Tao Ran had proposed and was already thinking about marriage. Some things needed to be cleared up immediately.

She refused to enter an engagement with Tao Ran while harboring any unresolved issues.

Tao Ran’s heart, which had been pounding with excitement, immediately cooled as if doused with a bucket of cold water. She released Tang Fuzhi, her gaze now filled with suspicion.

“So, after you’ve explained everything, does our marriage still count?”

She was afraid, afraid that Tang Fuzhi’s nod had been merely to placate her.
Seeing Tao Ran’s anxiousness, Tang Fuzhi, who had initially intended to retaliate for Tao Ran’s teasing, now felt a pang of genuine tenderness.

She wrapped her arms around Tao Ran, burying her face against Tao Ran’s soft, full lips. Her cheeks flushed slightly as she murmured, “Of course not. If you want to marry me, you’ll have to propose properly first. You can’t just bully someone and then expect to take them home like a prize. That’s too easy for you.”

The young woman’s playful words carried a hint of dissatisfaction, a subtle rebuke for Tao Ran’s hasty, impulsive proposal. This very discontent revealed Tang Fuzhi’s lingering expectation of a proper proposal.

Expecting a proposal meant expecting to be with her.

Once Tao Ran’s emotions had stabilized, Tang Fuzhi finally pulled away, meeting her gaze as she explained, “I went to see Huo Yuan only to find out the status of your engagement with him.”

Their eyes locked, each seeing only themselves reflected in the other’s pupils.

Tao Ran said calmly, “You could have just asked me.”

She had set Tang Fuzhi as a VIP contact, ensuring she wouldn’t miss Tang Fuzhi’s calls even if her phone was on silent.

Tang Fuzhi pressed her lips together, the faint scent of cedarwood from Tao Ran still lingering on them, as cool and aloof as a flower blooming on a high mountain peak. It was as if she hadn’t just been acting like a madwoman moments ago.

“There’s another reason. I want to see if I can get anything about what happened three months ago out of Huo Yuan.”

“He doesn’t know. Only you have the answers.”

Tao Ran had already questioned Huo Yuan about it three months ago and confirmed he knew nothing. Otherwise, she would never have maintained their business partnership, even if it was just a superficial one.

Tang Fuzhi gazed at her own reflection in Tao Ran’s eyes, her voice tinged with confusion. “Why are you so angry?”
Why be angry? I haven’t done anything wrong.

When Tang Fuzhi went to meet Huo Yuan, she had anticipated Tao Ran might be a little upset, but she never imagined she would erupt in such a violent rage, almost losing control.

Why?

Tao Ran lowered her gaze to the young woman’s amber eyes, clear and transparent as glass. Every thought in her heart was written plainly in those innocent eyes, utterly pure.

I’m the one who’s impure.

I’m just so afraid.

Afraid that what happened three months ago would repeat itself, that Huo Yuan would say something he shouldn’t in front of Tang Fuzhi, afraid Tang Fuzhi would regain her memories, afraid she would realize everything now was a lie.

She wasn’t her girlfriend.

The car accident had been an attempt to escape her.

Just thinking about this truth made Tao Ran feel like a tiny person was hacking at her heart with a dull knife.

Fear of losing her, fear of being pushed away.

“I’m afraid of what happened three months ago happening again.” That was true, but not the whole truth.

Tao Ran disliked lying, but that didn’t mean she wouldn’t. The highest form of deception was telling the truth, or rather, telling the truth in a way that benefited her.

As expected, her act of playing the victim earned her Tang Fuzhi’s sympathy.

The naive girl hugged her tightly again, reassuring her, “It’s okay. I don’t know why I did that three months ago, but I would never do something like that now.”

Tao Ran lowered her gaze, savoring the girl’s comfort without a shred of guilt.

This was her final chance.

If Tang Fuzhi didn’t regain her memories before the wedding, Tao Ran would claim her entirely for herself.

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