I Don’t Need Them Anymore — Abandoning the Family That Never Loved Me, I Find Happiness in a Neighboring Kingdom - Chapter 4

Was that conversation my mother’s final farewell to me?

I knew I wasn’t loved. But I never imagined I was hated this much.

“Why did only my hair and eye color inherit grandfather’s traits? If I had to suffer like this, I never would have wanted to be born looking like this either!”

My overflowing tears soaked the sheets.

Someone like me will soon be discarded by Lady Edith too. No, even before that, the marriage proposal will likely be rejected.

If that happens, I’ll have nowhere to go. My fiancé was stolen, my parents don’t love me. My kind-hearted older sister, who everyone says is gentle, is too busy with her own affairs to even think of helping me.

It’s too painful. I hate this. Why am I even alive? If I hadn’t been born, mother wouldn’t have suffered.

So then, why was I born?

Just as mother said, was I only born for my sister’s sake, and once I lose my usefulness, do I have no choice but to die?

Would that make mother happy?

“…Lady Dahlia, are you all right?”

Nana and the others, who had entered the room, rushed over with worried expressions.

I’m not all right. But I mustn’t say such things. If I show weakness, it will only worry Nana and the others. If I can’t stop crying, then at least I should only do it when I’m alone!

“I’m fine. Thank you for your concern.”

As I tried to wipe my tears with my sleeve, a maid offered me a handkerchief.

If I asked Nana and the others, they might speak to my brother. But surely my father and the others have at least some capacity for thought.

They’ve probably had someone watching my brother, so approaching him without being noticed would be difficult.

At the very least, I must protect Nana and the others, so I can’t let them cross dangerous bridges.

Perhaps because I fell silent, Nana spoke up.

“I don’t know what Her Majesty the Queen said to you, but I think it would be better for Lady Dahlia to go to the Rofeus Kingdom.”

“…Why do you think that?”

Nana came here through the recommendation of the Rofeus royal family. Thinking she might know something we didn’t, I asked.

“My apologies. I cannot speak of the details at this time.”

“I understand.”

As I sighed, the maid presented me with a white envelope.

“It appears to be a letter from Lord Loin. We’ve confirmed it contains no dangerous items, but we haven’t read the letter.”

“…Thank you.”

What could he possibly be writing to me now?

I took the opened envelope, extracted the stationery, and read through it.

‘Even if you marry that monster prince, you’ll just end up killed. Rather than meeting a miserable death, wouldn’t it be better to choose a noble one?’

“How cruel.”

Loin is telling me to die. I thought our relationship was going well, but I was wrong.

Tears threatened to spill again, but I managed to hold them back since everyone was watching.

“Is something wrong?”

“…Just something unpleasant written here.”

When I answered Nana’s question, the maid hurriedly bowed her head.

“My apologies. It’s my fault for accepting it.”

“It’s not your fault!”

When I hastily denied it, Nana, her brow furrowed, asked me.

“It seems to be rather unpleasant content. Will you be sending a reply?”

“…No.”

Loin’s letter had a continuation.

‘I have something I want to give you. I’ve left it with Lady Ramula, so please be sure to receive it. It will be to your benefit. Also, please burn this letter after reading it.’

Whatever he wants to give me probably isn’t anything good. Moreover, why is he giving something he wants to give me to my sister instead of giving it to me directly?

The instruction to burn the letter is because he’d be in trouble if this letter remained.

I didn’t burn the letter, instead storing it in my desk drawer.

“I don’t have time to be distracted by Loin.”

After telling Nana and the others in a firm tone, I decided to begin preparations for my marriage.