Fell In Love With My Older Sister’s Friend - Chapter 111

In every sense, Yi Liang was brave enough.

She was not a perfect lover, but it wasn’t her fault, truly not her fault.

No matter what she did, she seemed unable to meet Xu Luwei’s standards, but if there were no standards to begin with, how could she possibly try hard enough to meet them?

From the very beginning, it was just a moment of indulgence for Xu Luwei while she was drunk. Their relationship could not be made public; it could only unfold frankly in a small room. Xu Luwei could not offer a commitment, only the next day.

Yi Liang was very understanding after being rejected, she never asked to make their relationship public on social media again.

After a night of intimacy, she would quietly eat the breakfast left on the bedside table, hug the pillow next to her, feeling the lingering fragrance of Xu Luwei, feeling wronged enough to cry, yet satisfied enough to smile.

Xu Luwei said, “Don’t make things so hard for yourself. I’ll pay for your tuition, okay?”

She spoke carefully, afraid of hurting Yi Liang’s self-esteem, her tone laced with guilt, as she was actually just trying to compensate.

But Yi Liang didn’t hesitate for a second. She rushed forward and hugged her: “No! All the younger partners support the older sister; how could I possibly take the older sister’s money?”

She handed over a cup of hot wolfberry and chrysanthemum tea, which she had personally picked in the suburbs, and looked at Xu Luwei with eyes full of heartache: “Sister works overtime every day, it’s so hard on you, you need to replenish your energy.”

Xu Luwei said softly, “Okay, then feed it to me.”

The girl acted as if she had received an incredible award, excitedly bringing the cup to Xu Luwei’s lips, but then changed her mind.

She took a big sip herself, then leaned in to kiss Xu Luwei.

Xu Luwei tasted the flavor of the chrysanthemum and wolfberry tea slightly bitter, but completely dissolved by the softness of Yi Liang’s lips and tongue.

Yi Liang liked to keep her eyes open when kissing Xu Luwei, watching the change in her expression, whereas Xu Luwei preferred to close hers.

She closed her eyes because Yi Liang’s gaze was too burning and pure; she couldn’t bear it.

She wasn’t eighteen anymore; she no longer had that reckless fervor to respond to Yi Liang.

Later, Yi Liang asked her, “Have you ever loved me? Have you ever thought about the future?”

Xu Luwei nodded.

She had genuinely considered it, but that was all just consideration.

It wasn’t an issue with her parents or family background; it was purely her own issue.

From the start, she only wanted a momentary indulgence, and even when she realized she couldn’t control her feelings and had started to like the other person, she could still pretend coldly that nothing had happened.

She had her career, her parents, her sister love occupied a very, very small part of her life.

But Yi Liang only had her. She loved Xu Luwei with the fiery passion of eighteen, without reservation.

Xu Luwei enjoyed the feeling of being loved with all her heart and soul, yet she was left utterly desolate when Yi Liang left her without looking back.

But this was the retribution she deserved. Yi Liang was wonderful Yi Liang was so good. She deserved to meet someone even better for her.

Not to have her sincere affection met only with regretful endings.

Yi Liang showed Xu Luwei a video of herself dancing at a bar, the girl on stage radiating brilliance, with a proud flame in her eyes.

Xu Luwei praised, “So beautiful.”

Yi Liang tilted her head up proudly, asking reservedly, “Does Sister want to come see a live performance?”

Xu Luwei shook her head, apologizing guiltily, “Sorry, perhaps I’m not really suited for bars.”

Yi Liang drooped her eyes as if deflated, like a punctured balloon, and after a moment, softly said, “Oh.”

She knew that in Xu Luwei’s heart, she ranked far behind work, image, and other things.

Seeing the dejected Yi Liang, Xu Luwei hardened her heart, not comforting her, but merely explaining with a sigh, “I really want to go, it’s just…”

After her single sentence, Yi Liang immediately cheered herself up, turning around to pat her back and soothe her: “It’s alright, I know Sister has her difficulties. I won’t make things hard for you again next time, okay?”

Xu Luwei rested her head on Yi Liang’s warm shoulder, feeling secure, yet also like she was standing on the edge of a cliff, ready to shatter into pieces at any moment.

In truth, there weren’t that many unavoidable circumstances she was just accustomed to cruelty. What Yi Liang wanted, she could not give.

I am truly sorry. If tomorrow were the day I died, I would embrace you without hesitation and jump into the flames.

But there is such a long life ahead, after a thousand derivations and calculations, our ending is just three words: Not suitable.

Not suitable, not suitable, not suitable these three words enveloped Xu Luwei like a curse, tormenting her conscience at all times, even making her feelings for Yi Liang restrained and hesitant.

She wasn’t afraid of losing her own heart she was afraid that if she appeared too eager, Yi Liang would become even more unable to control herself and invest more emotion in her.

Only under the cover of night could she reveal her full emotions. When she couldn’t control herself and let out a sound, she thought: I love Yi Liang.

But this was a mistake from the start, a mistake destined to end.

Even pouring out all the strength in her body was merely prolonging the inevitable.

Because from the beginning, she had never thought of a lifetime together.

Yi Liang wasn’t without her moments of feeling wronged. Young girls in love often have tempers, and she would show her unhappiness, attempting to get Xu Luwei to appease her.

Xu Luwei would immediately buy her expensive gifts without hesitation, apologize with gentle words, and take her out, but for the promise Yi Liang truly wanted, she could only give vague responses.

Later, Yi Liang stopped asking and stopped wanting anything, but she still pretended not to notice Xu Luwei’s attitude and continued to love her wholeheartedly.

Lin Qingyue tried to gently caution her during a casual chat: “Do you know that Xu Luwei can never love you as much as you love her?”

“I know,” Yi Liang smiled, tears instantly welling up, but she held her neck high with pride, refusing to bow her head, “But I still want to love her with all my might.”

She was still too young, always naively believing that if you put in your full effort, you would receive a corresponding reward.

Or perhaps, she knew everything she knew the complexities of the adult world, knew that interests came before feelings but she stubbornly refused to change.

Yi Liang was brave; she was not afraid of being hurt, so she was willing to expose her entire heart, clean and pure, handing it all over to Xu Luwei to hold.

We all want to become the Xu Luzhi in a relationship, but in the end, we all become the Yi Liangs.

When summer arrived, they broke up.

It was Yi Liang who first blocked Xu Luwei, yet it was Xu Luwei who proposed the breakup.

The reason was merely the weak four words: Incompatible personalities.

Xu Luwei returned to Lincheng for vacation, surrounded by her father, mother, sister, and also Lin Qingyue.

But Yi Liang remained in Weicheng, working to earn money.

It was like waking up from a dream. Xu Luwei continued to play the role of the dignified and elegant daughter and sister in front of her family. Only in the dead of night, driven by uncontrollable physical urges, would she instinctively recall Yi Liang.

Recalling the girl’s burning warmth, her uninhibited possessiveness.

Xu Luwei discovered her sister’s crush on Lin Qingyue and tried to prevent this unrequited love from starting.

Because she had experienced it, she knew how difficult an age gap could be, and how easily a relationship that began only on the basis of looks could hurt both parties.

Even if it brought pain, they would still want to embrace each other, but there would be no future.

A future that was too distant seemed like an infinite function, infinitely approaching zero, impossible to touch.

But Xu Luzhi turned out to be different from what she imagined. The girl was more capable, more persistent, and more steady, able to gradually obtain what she wanted.

In comparison, it seemed like everything was Yi Liang’s fault.

But Xu Luwei knew what kind of family conditions had built up all of Xu Luzhi’s talents, whereas Yi Liang still had to work to earn her tuition.

Later on, Xu Luwei finally understood why Yi Liang was so nonchalant and unrestrained.

The largest family in Weicheng was surnamed Yi.

Yi Liang was the illegitimate child of one of the daughters of the Yi family. Her father had run away early, and her mother raised her alone.

Later, her mother passed away from illness. Unable to bear the internal strife within the large family, she started selling things at a roadside stall, relying on herself.

Xu Luwei asked with heartache, “Why don’t you go back?”

With Yi Liang’s intelligence and capability, inheriting some of the fortune shouldn’t have been a major issue; she shouldn’t have to live such a difficult life.

Yi Liang raised her head proudly, her phoenix eyes bright: “I don’t like it there, and I don’t need them.”

She could support herself she would have a bright future, just not right now.

Right now, she couldn’t offer Xu Luwei even a tiny bit of support or commitment that wasn’t something an ordinary female university student could achieve.

No matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t cross the gap of time to embrace her it was simply helpless.

Xu Luwei thoroughly recognized Yi Liang’s spirit of “a jade shard is better broken than remaining whole.”

Many people would think she was foolish; Xu Luwei thought so too at first. But she quickly realized that it was precisely this dazzlingly burning, phoenix-like Yi Liang who had attracted her at first sight.

The cruel words she spoke caused her heart great pain, because love had long been deeply rooted. It had nothing to do with poverty or wealth she simply loved this person.

They wanted to be together forever, but it was too difficult, too difficult. Among the world’s many paths, not a single one belonged to them.

The few days on the island were like a dream. Xu Luwei hadn’t expected Yi Liang to travel thousands of miles to find her, yet it felt as if she had anticipated it all along.

Far removed from the rules and regulations of the human world, it was as if only the two of them existed, indulging without restraint, entwined.

In her passion, Xu Luwei also spoke very seriously about wanting to walk the path with Yi Liang until the end.

But once she sobered up, when the sky brightened, she could only end up with an empty pillow beside her.

They had agreed just these few days. After a few days, they would truly break up completely.

Amidst a sea of people, they would never see each other again.

At the auction, Xu Luzhi bought that string of gemstone necklaces inlaid with beautiful gardenias. Xu Luwei’s heart stirred, and she bought a gold bracelet studded with small diamonds.

She truly had considered giving Yi Liang a commitment.

Yi Liang said, “Give it to me next time we meet.”