After The Honest Person Was Discovered For Simultaneously Pursuing Three People - Chapter 65

Chapter 65: “When You Look at Me, Who Are You Really…”

After dinner, Xu Jun, as usual, takes a Transformer toy to coax Tao Ning into taking his medicine. This is the most effective trick he has found after calmly observing Tao Ning and deciding between rewarding him with candy or a toy.

The young man, holding a cup of warm water and taking his medicine, is very pleased with this trick. His light brown eyes stare at the Transformer, and in no time, he obediently finishes taking his medicine.

“Let’s go back to school.”

Just as Tao Ning is about to ask if they can stay a little longer, a soft tissue touches the corner of his mouth. Then a slender, slightly warm finger touches his lip. He is stunned, but Xu Jun acts as if nothing happened. His expression is indifferent, and he doesn’t explain.

There must have been something on the corner of his mouth. That’s what Tao Ning thinks, and he forgets what he was about to ask. He watches Xu Jun pack up his things and take him out. The Honda still follows them at a steady pace. But from the car window, those wolf-like eyes are unusually cold. He drives with one hand and says to the person on the phone in a cold voice, “Go check on Tao Ning’s roommate. Find out everything about his family background.”

The voice on the other end is Sun Er’s. “Yes.” After a moment, he asks with a hint of hesitation, “Brother Zhao, is this kid up to no good with the angelic sister-in-law?”

As long as he isn’t dealing with business matters, Zhao Jingqun is usually easy to talk to. The people who work for him like to call him “Brother Zhao” and can even crack a few jokes.

Sun Er continues to worry. “If you ask me, Brother Zhao, you really need to keep a close eye on sister-in-law. Sister-in-law’s looks could bring down a country. It’s likely that anyone would like her… But that’s just a young kid. How can he compare to you, Brother Zhao?”

Zhao Jingqun on the other end of the phone sneers and doesn’t say anything.

But Sun Er understands the meaning of that laugh. It means that the young kid is not even worthy of being compared to him.

The man in the car hangs up the phone, stares at the two people walking side by side in front of him, and extends his long, strong arm out of the window. His muscles are tense. He flicks the cigarette ash off his fingertips in a nonchalant way. The smoke instantly rises, enveloping his deep brows and eyes. One can only catch a glimpse of a hint of ruthlessness and jealousy.

By the time they get back, it is already early evening. Tao Ning and Xu Jun return to the dorm. Because of the tiring journey, Tao Ning takes a hot shower and is about to go to bed for a nap. But before his head even hits the pillow, Xu Jun wakes him up. “Tao Ning, your hair isn’t dry yet.”

Xu Jun stands at the head of the bed. When Tao Ning is about to fall onto the pillow, he scoops him into his arms with one hand.

But he doesn’t know that Tao Ning has not dried his own hair this whole time. And he is already very sleepy. In the man’s warm embrace, he dizzily grabs his hand and mumbles, “I don’t want to dry it… I want to sleep…”

Xu Jun lowers his head and looks at the thick, long eyelashes of the person in his arms. After a moment of silence, he says faintly, “You’ll get sick if you don’t dry it.”

His palm is suddenly held by the young man. He moves a few times in his arms as if to act spoiled, and blurts out, “Zha…” The young man becomes sluggish. His mind is half-awake. “…Will you help me dry it?”

The soft flesh on his chin is instantly pinched. Tao Ning is forced to look up. In the dim light of the dorm, Xu Jun’s cold and ascetic face is within reach. They are so close that they can even hear each other’s breathing. The cold and hot breath sprays on his face.

“Tao Ning, when you look at me, who are you really thinking of?”

The tears that seeped from the corners of his eyes from sleepiness are wiped away by the man’s fingers. Tao Ning’s pupils constrict slightly.

The man who is pinching his jaw refuses to let him go. The indifference behind the glasses melts like ice on water, revealing a bottomless abyss underneath. His tone is calm, but for some reason, it sounds horrifying. “Just now… whose name did you want to say?”

The ripples in his voice are clearly no different from usual, yet Tao Ning has the chilling feeling of being targeted by a venomous snake. A dangerous premonition makes the alarm bells go off in his mind. He slaps away the hand pinching his soft flesh and gets out of bed in a panic. “No, no one. I’m going to dry my hair.”

Xu Jun stares at his flustered back, his face expressionless.

Tao Ning hastily dries his hair a few times. His mind is in a mess. The hairdryer is just put down when it is taken away. Xu Jun traps him between the wall and his chest. His wet hair is picked up by a warm finger. The buzzing sound of the hairdryer sounds again.

His body is stiff and can’t move. Tao Ning has no choice but to let Xu Jun dry his hair for him.

Now, let alone sleepiness, Tao Ning is so awake that he can do ten sets of math problems. He is scared out of it by Xu Jun’s expressionless look.

Has he found out something?

Why would he ask those questions…

Not until Tao Ning is sitting on a chair, watching Xu Jun use a small knife to break the wax seal on the kraft paper, and then meticulously use a tissue to wipe off the remaining wax from the blade, and then hands the envelope to him.

The brown envelope is suspended in mid-air. Xu Jun’s cold eyes look over.

When he is about to touch the envelope, Tao Ning hesitates. At that time, he thought the envelope might contain dried flowers or a postcard, and he didn’t pay much attention to it. But now, Xu Jun is very unusual today. He has a feeling that things are not that simple.

If he finds out what’s inside the envelope, some things will develop in an irreversible direction.

Xu Jun says faintly, “You promised.”

“…Mhm.”

He takes the envelope hesitantly. Tao Ning’s slender hand trembles slightly. The rustling sound of the paper being opened is extremely abrupt in the quiet dorm. What he holds in his hand is not dried flowers or a postcard, but two very thin sheets of paper.

The strong handwriting penetrates the paper, as if the writer was holding the pen with great care.

“To Tao Ning: As if we’re meeting when you read this. May the letter bring a smile to your face.”

Xu Jun says, “Before you came, I already knew about you. But at that time, I didn’t pay much attention to it, until the elevator door opened on September 18th. Although you looked a little messy, you were the most vibrant person I had ever seen in my life.”

Tao Ning’s heart trembles.

Xu Jun continues, “But I knew I was wrapped in arrogance and disdained the affection in Fromm’s book. I thought that whether it was love or other superfluous human emotions, they were all too vulgar, let alone a matter of falling in love at first sight, which is so mysterious. But later, every time I saw you, I thought of the morning sun and the moonlight at night.”

“Even in my dreams at midnight, it was your smile.”

“Only then did I realize that I was also just a vulgar little person, attracted by your sinful skin, moved by your sincerity, and finally… becoming an admirer of your clothes in the clouds.”

“Observing your emotions and experiencing your feelings became my only pleasure. Later, because I felt bad for you being sick, I did my best to make money, just so that you could live without any burdens. But I don’t want this to become a burden to you again. I only hope to get your pity.”

“I just want you to understand…”

Tao Ning’s hands, holding the thin paper, are trembling, but Xu Jun’s cold voice continues to sound in his ears.

“How lucky I am to be able to like you.”

“Because I admire you, I am happy to do anything.”

“But—”

The envelope in his hand is snatched away. Tao Ning looks up. The ice is completely cracked. Through the clear glasses, he collides with a pair of eyes that seem to hold hot magma. With just a slight touch of their gazes, his body from top to bottom is about to be burned to ashes.

Tear!

The envelope is torn in half by the man. He stares at Tao Ning, forcing Tao Ning to only be able to see him. “I thought you were innocent and naive, so I didn’t dare to tell you about my admiration, afraid of scaring you. So I chose this compromise, thinking you would finally be able to notice it. Now I realize that your innocence makes me feel cruel, because you’re not incapable of feeling other people’s emotions. Song Yucong, and your ex-boyfriend named Zhao, who you call your cousin… You can accept them, but you ignore my existence. Why?”

When all the words fall, Tao Ning is as if he was struck by lightning.

He… where did he find out that Zhao Jingqun and he had that kind of relationship?

But Xu Jun still expressionlessly tears the envelope into pieces again.

Accepting such a large amount of information at once, Tao Ning’s throat feels as if it is blocked by these shredded papers. He is so speechless that he can’t say a word, because Xu Jun’s current appearance is really too scary. He reaches out to stop the person in front of him, who seems to have gone mad. “Xu… Xu Jun, don’t be like this. I… I thought…”

The hand that reached out is avoided by the man. Tao Ning is stunned for a moment. Just as he is about to pull it back, it is instantly grabbed by his iron-like hand. With a light thud, he is pushed against the wall by the man.

Xu Jun lowers his head and looks at the young man who is trapped in his arms with cold eyes.

He considers himself a person who is extremely restrained. He is never greedy and never gets in touch with things that are too addictive.

For example, drinking. For ordinary people, it’s something that can solve problems and become addictive, but for him, it’s only alcohol that he comes in contact with at business banquets, and that’s it. Even if he gets dead drunk, he is extremely restrained and doesn’t get attached to it. He would never think of relying on alcohol to solve his problems.

He gets in touch with even fewer recreational things.

Because he is rational and sober enough that he is unwilling to be tied down by things outside himself.

But now that he has Tao Ning trapped in his arms, this feeling of the world only having the two of them is too wonderful, like a deadly poison. He knows that touching it will make him fall into a bottomless abyss, but Xu Jun is happy to do it. He even has the extreme thought of hiding Tao Ning so that only he can see him.

He puts one hand on Tao Ning’s swollen lips. Xu Jun puts away his extreme thoughts and asks in a cold voice, “What did you think? That we were friends?”

Because he has been kissed so frequently these past few days, his red lips are so swollen that they are oozing with tempting saliva. Now, being touched by the man’s gentle fingers, Tao Ning feels a slight stinging pain. He wants to avoid it, but Xu Jun’s hand holds him tightly, not letting him struggle.

Tao Ning has no choice but to nod with difficulty under his cold gaze, but he only gets a sarcastic laugh in return.

Xu Jun’s hand, which was stroking his lips, turns into a hand that is pinching his soft jaw. He suddenly says out of nowhere, “That day, Song Yucong trapped you like this—” As he says this, he pushes Tao Ning’s legs apart, leaving no gap between the person in his arms and the wall and himself. “Like this.”

Xu Jun lowers his head. His thin lips are almost touching Tao Ning’s swollen lips.

“He trapped you in his arms and kissed you forcefully. The sound of the kissing was so loud that the entire room could hear it. Do you know what your friend—I—” Xu Jun sneers, saying each word clearly. “What was I thinking at the door? I was thinking, I wish I was the one who made you produce water from kissing you.”

He continues to laugh crazily. “That day on the phone, were you having sex with your ex-boyfriend?”

Tao Ning is stunned. His voice trembles. “You… Xu Jun… do you know… do you know what you’re saying?”

Xu Jun acts as if he can’t hear him at all. The cold rationality behind the gold-rimmed glasses is completely gone. A finger is inserted into his swollen lips. He says with hatred, “Your friend was thinking, if at that time…”

He gets close to the stiff Tao Ning’s ear and says each word one by one, “I wish I was the one who made you cry.”

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