Affectionate Obsession - Chapter 48

It was the first time. That I had told him I loved him first.

Thinking that I would leave someday, it was indeed a shameless thing to say.

But even now, when the chance to say it like this was given again, I had to do it.

It was a word I had buried in my heart for ten years.

It was so deeply ingrained that I spent countless nights weeping.

It wasn’t that I wanted to hear ‘I love you,’ but that I wanted to say it.

Yeonhee had to live through so many days in anguish because she couldn’t say those words.

I didn’t want to repeat the same mistake.

Even if this, too, was a very wicked, wicked heart. Still.

“I love you, Junhyeok.”

At the mournful confession of love, Junhyeok’s hand, clasped with Yeonhee’s, tightened with all its might.

What must he be thinking right now?

He might be bewildered by the sudden confession, or perhaps anxious because it was so out of the blue.

But at the same moment, a completely different thought was flooding Yeonhee’s mind.

‘You and Yoon Sera are twin sisters.’

It was the moment she first learned that Yoon Sera and she were twin sisters, and it reminded her of the day she had tried to abandon him again.

‘Stay by my side. I’ll help you find your place again. I’ll even let you use me if necessary.’

‘…….’

‘Even if you try to abandon me again, I will still do anything you want. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you. So, Shin Yeonhee.’

‘…….’

‘Even if it’s just to use me, stay by my side, please.’

Yeonhee slowly turned her head. Junhyeok’s face, concentrated on driving, filled her vision.

Now, Yeonhee suddenly wondered.

What must his heart have been like, to have to hold onto her so desperately at the moment he told her that story?

What kind of heart would it take to give up everything just to hold onto someone who tried to abandon him twice?

If she were Junhyeok, could she have done what he did?

Yeonhee took a deep breath.

Even thinking about it briefly, she felt she couldn’t do it like him.

What kind of heart did he possess to be able to do that?

Shin Yeonhee, who was she to him that he would do so much?

As her thoughts deepened, her already choked-up heart felt like it would burst into tears at any moment.

Just then, the car, which had been driving without obstruction, stopped in front of her house. And sensing her gaze, he turned his head and met her eyes.

“…….”

In that fleeting moment, Yeonhee’s body moved quickly.

And their lips meeting was truly a matter of an instant.

For a moment, she felt his lips stiffen in surprise. But soon, the tension naturally eased, and they began to blend softly.

Like matching puzzle pieces, their lips fit together seamlessly.

Junhyeok reached out the hand holding the steering wheel, grabbed Yeonhee by the nape of her neck, and twisted his head to delve deeper between her teeth.

He traced her evenly spaced teeth and thrust roughly into her tender inner flesh.

Each time, Yeonhee’s involuntary moans vibrated along Junhyeok’s tongue.

It was a rare moment, a time solely for the two of them.

The rather passionate kiss continued for quite some time, and only when they were on the verge of gasping for breath did their lips part.

Yeonhee couldn’t bring herself to open her eyes, lost in the lingering afterglow.

After a long moment of catching her breath, Junhyeok’s low voice pierced her ears.

“You don’t have to feel sorry to me.”

Yeonhee opened her eyes, as if by instinct. She immediately saw his flushed lips.

After a moment of apparent hesitation, his lips began to move again.

“I was the one who told you to use me, and I was the one who acted first before you could use me.”

“…….”

“So, all you have to do is tell me what your heart truly wants. I’ll take care of the rest.”

Yeonhee didn’t take her eyes off Junhyeok’s lips. She couldn’t even imagine lifting her head to meet his gaze.

She was afraid.

Of him, who remained so stubbornly unchanged.

His heart, which never wavered and always looked only at her, had now begun to frighten her.

She had nothing to give to someone so devoted.

Yet, he insisted that everything that happened because of her was his choice.

So, you.

“I will give you everything you want, without missing a single thing, into your hands.”

He was asking her to stay by his side like this, even if it was just for that.

“Haa……”

A breath of air escaped Yeonhee’s lips.

The tears that had seemed to subside now welled up, reaching a point where she could no longer hold them back.

She couldn’t bear to see Junhyeok in such a disheveled state, yet Yeonhee deliberately lifted her head to look at him.

His pupils were trembling violently.

Not because she was crying, but because he was just as desperately anxious.

Yeonhee tightly gripped the hem of Junhyeok’s suit jacket sleeve that her fingertips touched.

And through eyes blurred by tears, she persistently gazed at Junhyeok.

Junhyeok. I don’t want our story to have an end either. If I could just be with you for a long, long time, I don’t think I’d ask for anything more.

It was something she had longed for just as desperately as Junhyeok.

She wanted to be by his side. She wanted to stay by his side, at ease, without the thought or worry of having to leave him.

She wanted to love him, kiss him, and be held by him, looking only at him.

She wanted to be happy.

With Jung Junhyeok, of all people.

For a long time, until the day she died.

“…….”

Yeonhee tightened her grip between her teeth.

Her chest swelled with emotion just thinking about it.

Her heart pounded so violently that she could barely handle the overwhelming sensations.

But Yeonhee knew well that a pleasant dream would remain just a dream.

So, she wanted to ask.

To Jung Junhyeok, of all people.

“Junhyeok. I have a request.”

If we can’t be together for as long as the wind lasts.

If it becomes impossible for us to be that way.

“…….”

Then, I earnestly wish that it is I who is abandoned, not you. I wish you would abandon me, very cruelly.

So, please promise me that you will do just that, as I wish.

Though the words filled her mouth, Yeonhee couldn’t bring herself to utter them aloud.

Instead, she spoke to him, who was waiting for her words, in a voice tinged with petulance.

“Can you hold me, just once?”

Perhaps expecting something more profound, he relaxed his stiff expression and let out a somewhat hollow chuckle. Then, he immediately reached out and pulled her into his embrace.

“If it’s something like this, then anytime.”

His infinitely gentle voice seeped into her ears.

Yeonhee squeezed her eyes shut.

In the pitch-black vision, Junhyeok and herself appeared. In that image, she was looking down, unable to meet Junhyeok’s gaze, while Junhyeok stared at her with cold eyes she had never seen before.

And he, with a calm voice as gentle as ever, delivered a notification.

‘Let’s break up.’

It was a phrase Yeonhee had never heard from Junhyeok, and at this moment, it was the very words she most desired from him, echoing vividly in her ears.

Would the moment ever come when she could hear those words from him?

If that were to happen, she felt she would ask for nothing more.

Yeonhee’s lowered eyelids trembled precariously. And soon after, tears trickled down from the corners of her eyes.

But her roughly chapped lips curved upwards in joy.

She truly, sincerely wished.

That the moment she could be miserably abandoned by him was not too far in the future.

Yeonhee secretly wished for that one thing with all her might.

Taekwang’s brow furrowed mercilessly as he stared at his phone.

He couldn’t believe what he was seeing, no matter how many times he looked, and had to re-examine the long string of numbers.

But no matter how many times he looked, nothing changed.

Taekwang let out a rough breath and stormed into the living room.

“Hey, Song Yi-jin! Where are you! Come out now?!”

Filled with agitation, he looked around for Yi-jin, but she was nowhere to be seen, as if she had gone somewhere again.

Taekwang’s heart pounded as he opened the doors to each room, checking if Yi-jin was there.

He found Yi-jin in the guest room at the end of the hallway.

She was lying on the guest bed, laughing on the phone with someone.

That only fueled Taekwang’s anger further.

“Hey, Song Yi-jin!!”

Taekwang revealed his heightened emotions without restraint. Startled, Yi-jin jumped up from her spot and looked at Taekwang.

Even so, the thought that Taekwang’s voice would carry to the other person through the phone made her feel quite humiliated.

Yi-jin narrowed her eyes but spoke to the other person in a gentle voice, saying she would call back later.

Only after confirming the call had ended did she jump up from her spot.

“What, what! Can’t you see I’m on the phone? Why are you yelling like that, embarrassing me? What is it? What the hell is going on that you’re yelling like that?!”

Yi-jin also didn’t hide her rising temper.

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