My Secret Flower - Episode 21

Evelyn seemed busy helping with the luggage, too. This was a good opportunity to spend some time alone with Ash. So, I asked the maid to prepare tea and went up to the second floor with him, into his newly assigned room.

“Is the bedroom alright? Tell me if there’s anything you need. Don’t hesitate to mention anything that makes you uncomfortable.”

“It would be perfect, except for the fact that you’re not in it.”

He whispered sweet words and carefully embraced me from behind. I felt good, as if his warm temperature was covering my entire body. Despite the hot weather, I didn’t feel uncomfortable with his closeness.

“Can I ask you something I’m curious about? You don’t have to answer if it’s difficult.”

“Is it a question that will put me in a difficult position?”

“I think so.”

“……”

Not agreeing or disagreeing probably meant I could ask, right? Since I said he didn’t have to answer, the choice was his.

“Are you and Pavilion twins?”

“No.”

If not, how could a younger brother be born in the same year? Was he really a half-brother?

“Who does Ash take after, your mother or your father?”

“That’s more than one question. I take after my mother. Pavilion resembles her more, but I inherited her hair and eye color.”

So, they had the same mother. That meant they were likely half-brothers with different fathers.

“Ash’s mother must have been very beautiful. It’s a shame I didn’t get to meet her.”

“You seem to resemble your father more. The people in the territory praised the Count endlessly, saying he was quite the handsome man in his youth.”

“I heard my father made quite a few women cry when he was younger. But I don’t think Ash is any less capable, is he?”

I was so happy just having these small conversations with him. Especially since there was something special about his voice. It was a pleasant low voice that made my heart feel warm, but sometimes when he deliberately tried to seduce me, it shook my ears and heart greatly.

It was the same now.

“I don’t care about anyone else. The only person I want to make cry is you, Lishua. I only want to see you crying with pleasure in the bedroom every day.”

His rough breathing, whispering close to my ear, reawakened all my senses and made them stand on end. Crying with pleasure. It was embarrassing to hear, and a strange feeling ran through my lower abdomen, as if it was shyly wriggling.

The tingling sensation from the hot kiss in the garden earlier shot up to the top of my head again, making me feel dizzy. I already knew that the heat in my body wasn’t just because of the weather.

“Ash…”

I didn’t have the confidence to wait until the sun had completely set and it was dark night. Why did I think it was possible? I overestimated myself too much. I knew better than anyone that I wasn’t an innocent person who knew nothing.

I didn’t love him on a whim. The happiness that had accumulated little by little from the moment I first saw him had turned into love. His persistent gaze that was always directed at me. The moment we could no longer hide the emotions we had been suppressing, our love was finally complete.

As I naturally turned my head in the direction of his lips, Ash lowered his head as if he had been waiting and lightly placed his lips on mine. I instinctively felt that we couldn’t be stopped even if someone tried to interfere.

“Make me cry with pleasure, just like you said. Me. As you wish.”

I was honestly glad that my whisper was the starting point that awakened the beast inside him. Because at that moment, it was a time when he only thought of me.

As he continued the ecstatic kiss, he busily moved his hands and took off my dress. Then he picked me up, sat me on the bed, and climbed on top of me.

“Ugh, ah…”

He kissed and licked my face, as if trying to confirm that I was his, then lightly bit my earlobe and sucked on it with his lips. Wherever he touched me, it became an erogenous zone and felt very stimulating.

“I won’t stop halfway like last time.”

“Isn’t that why I bought that medicine? I also… haa, it’s not that I’m hoping for it, euung…!”

The unfamiliar pleasure shook my mind, and my vision was filled with white light. I understood that pleasure could drive people crazy. My body heated up as if it was about to explode, and my heart became even more impatient with a thirst that seemed to have no end. My inner thighs were itching like crazy, and my waist was twisting, making me feel like my body wasn’t my own.

He looked at me with strangely glistening eyes.

“Cute. Your expression when you’re intoxicated with me is so beautiful and lovely, and I’m so glad that only I can see it.”

“I also want to see you getting excited. Heut!”

“That’s for later. I can’t concede today.”

Just the sight of him smiling happily, revealing his neat teeth, made my excitement soar. Hot breath landed on my skin. I calmed my trembling breath.

‘M-My heart feels like it’s going to explode.’

Ash licked his lips as he stared down at me. His eyes were so sensual that I couldn’t bear to look at them, and my pupils began to wander, lost.

“You seem tense again. Relax comfortably. Otherwise, it will be hard for me and painful for you.”

“Ugh, yes…”

I wanted to leave this moment as a good memory. I wanted to share a deeper connection with each other, not just be in pain like last time. To do that, I thought I had to naturally accept all the sensations instead of being tense, as he said.

I tried to relax my body by regulating my breathing. Relaxing from my neck and shoulders, like when I was falling asleep.

“Good job. I hope you try to maintain that feeling.”

He chuckled contentedly and slowly lowered his head, muttering. Something unfamiliar and pleasant seeped in, and I slowly became breathless.

“Does it feel good?”

“Yes, it feels good. Ah… Everything you do feels good.”

“It will feel even better. Grab here with your hand like this.”

He pulled down my left hand, which was tightly gripping the bed sheet, and guided it to wrap around my left thigh. It felt like I had something more to rely on, which made me feel more comfortable.

“Hick!”

For a moment, I saw starlight in front of my eyes. A sharp and strong stimulus was created, and my shoulders flinched involuntarily.

I was breathless. It felt like my reason had been sucked into a threshing machine. The tingling sensation gradually turned into a strong thrill, and my mind became confused.

It was painful yet dizzying. I had never felt like this before. It was only natural that my moans turned into moans of pleasure.

I really couldn’t do anything. The sensations passed by too quickly, and I didn’t even have time to grab onto and confirm all the feelings. All I could do was close my eyes tightly and try my best not to completely let go of my mind, which was becoming a mess.

This must be what it feels like to fall into ecstatic bliss. It was such an intense pleasure that I thought I might stop breathing and die.

Then, fortunately, his lips fell away. But the stimulation left on my body was so strong that the trembling didn’t stop.

“Did it feel that good?”

His fingers, chuckling softly, touched me, and my nerves twitched again, reacting on their own.

He just smiled smugly, like a satisfied, full beast.

“You and you when you’re intoxicated with pleasure are so different that it feels strange. I also quite like the fact that you’re clinging to me like a ray of hope as your reason crumbles.”

I wondered what that meant, but as I followed his gaze, I saw my right hand holding onto his arm, which was holding my thigh, in my field of vision. My handprint was imprinted in red on his smooth arm, showing how hard I was holding on.

The problem wasn’t the handprint. Above it, there were red scars from where my nails had scratched and clawed, and they were swollen.

“Ah… S-Sorry. What… I have to get the medicine…”

“Where are you going?”

Just as I was about to get up to apply medicine to his wound, he grabbed my arm and pulled me back.

“Ash?”

“This isn’t even a scratch. And in this situation, the person who needs medicine isn’t me, it’s you.”

My face flushed instantly. It was because the explicit gaze made my lower abdomen boil with hot energy.

“Lishua. There should be a medicine container under your pillow. Can you get it for me?”

When I put my hand under the pillow I was leaning my head and back on, my fingers caught on something round and hard. When I took it out and looked at it, it was a strangely familiar container. I felt like I had seen it somewhere.

“It’s a painkiller that nobles use on their first night, and it’s a transparent cream.”

“…Where did you get this?”

“Can I say…? Actually, your friend gave it to me.”

…Why was I the one who was embarrassed? Why did Evelyn carry something like this around?

“Ah, she said it was a medicine that she always carries around because it’s also good for stopping bleeding from wounds. But she added that she didn’t mix in any aphrodisiacs, so don’t worry.”

“I, I see.”

I pretended not to know and handed him the medicine container, and he opened the lid and scooped out a lot of the slippery medicine with his finger and applied it.

A slightly cool liquid slowly melted softly due to my and his body temperature.

‘…Something’s strange?’

The feeling was quite different from last night. Good was secondary, it was too hot. Wasn’t the role of a painkiller to reduce pain?

It wasn’t my imagination that the sensation that should have been dulled was becoming more sensitive.

“Ash, I don’t think this is righ- euheuk!”

“Lishua?”

She said there were no aphrodisiacs in it! I realized too late that something was seriously wrong.

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